i did it!

i made it an entire day haha arent u proud? im proud lol

it wasnt toooooo bad really considering HOW bad it could feel lol

i got a few bad cravings but dealt with them ok with my herbal tea at my side lol, i had a water bottle filled at all times.

i discovered something about myself.... i really ahte sittying down without a ciggie! so i stood up pretty much all day, for awhile i typed to toosh and stood! i cleaned all day to keep myself occupied and to divert my addiction to something more positive to become addicted to lol (HOPEFULLY!)

i had no idea how filthy my house was! im not by any stretch of the word a tidy person, i clean everyday but i do the "compulsory" jobs as i like to call them and put my " non compulsory" jobs to the side waaaaay to much! so i wiped walls, cleaned windows, skirting boards, wiped doors, doorframes, cleaned the oven, cleaned all the floors in bathroon toilet and kitchen, scrubbed bathroom and toilet, dusted, cleaned the heaters, cleaned all my nick nacks, ceiling fans, fridge.  THEN i did all the normal house cleaning and made homemade creamy zucchini soup for dinner, it was YUUUUM and even tobi liked it i just gave him a bowl before reheating with cream, mmmmmmmm

so all in all VERY PRODUCTIVE to quit smoking haha, il work on getting outside if the weather is good tomoz and picking up all my ciggie buts bleh

i didnt really have an easy day, tobi winged all day and it became a case of hold him or listen to him cry and seeing as though he wouldnt really sleep he ended up being taken around the house with me sooking at me half the day haha, he tends to like being in different rooms to the lounge though so it kept him a BIT happier than he would normally be.

hes teething again quite badly, if i look in his mouth i can see his gums have gone all whiteish and swollen almost all the way to th top in two places so hopefully these dratted teeth will pop their way thru in the next couple of days and be done with the bloody dramatics!

chloe was very helpful and seemed to be in a really good mood. she went back to school today and i think shes happy to be back with her friends, HEY she even invited a friend to have a sleepover with her here and asked THEIR mum lol. only prob is i think she is covering up a tummy bug so she can go to school, hmmm il have to keep an eye on her shes quite deceptive when shes sick coz she doesnt seem sick EVER.

well better go, DAY 2 tomorow!

thankyou all for your support, i came in countless times today to look at my blog and it made me feel so much better and made it ever so much easier for me to cope:)

xxxnat