I just read a story RE= a child suicide attempt and the tear's wont stop. I to face this story every day Iv watched my son try on many occastions to end his life. Its gut renching to think that they feel that they cant come to us and just

scream the words HELP ME. my son was liveing with me we lived on a property sixty k's out of town, so it was hard for us as we didnt kn any one. he had a girl friend and her and her son lived with us as well she is the most amazing girl I love her with all my heart she has since given me a beautiful grand son and another one due in april. on one paticular day not out of the ordernary we all got up had brekfarst did the usual thing's, house work, dishe's that sort of things as you do my hubby went off to work but this day my son didnt go. he and I are close we talk about every thing well almost every thing lol, he seemed to be in a happy mood. my other children were out the back playing so the day seemed to be going ok,then form out of nowhere my youngest son came running in yelling mummy he's got a rope and locked him-self in the shed my heart was raceing we ran out to the shed and started banging and screaming for him to unlock the door I couldnt believe it not again. I screamed at him dont you do this to your family they need you but got no responce then all of a sudden he opened the door I tried to take the rope away from him but he pushed me away so I tried to talk to him but all he said was I wont this pain to stop make it stop please mum make it stop.... sorry this is so hard..... all I could do was hold him we cried together, he let the rope slip into my hand's. the kid's didnt know what was going on they didnt understand.we sat on the ground for what seemed like forever he just cried till he couldnt cry any more. that's whan we got him to come into the house I made a coffee and we sat at the table no one saying a word. my heart was raceing so I new I had to tred gently so I asked him why he felt the need to do what he was about to do he could tell me.that's when all hell broke loose he jumpt to his feet and yelled I cant do this any more it's to hard he reached for a screw driver that was on the bench I didnt see it at first he began to try and drive it into his arm's and his chest I tried to stop him grabing for the thing my daughter inlaw now rang the police, I had to get that dame thing away from him.. so I stood in front of him up against his chest so if he did try to plung it I would take the hit I know what you think but I love my son.. by the time the police had arrived he was still going crazy so I locked the door. They were told he had a wepon and believe me they wre ready to shot... then the people from mental health turned up the police had called them I still wouldnt open the door I had to protect my son.. when I did unlock it I let the people from mental health come in he needed them to help him.. it so hard to watcth your child go through so much pain and not know how to help them.you dont know how to feel the anger, the hurt it's all rapt in a knot in the pit of your gut and you dont knw how to get it out.. Im so proud of my son he has been to hell and back he tell's me every day that he love's me and he is still geting the help that he need's he is a loveing father & husband but there is still the hurt in his eye's and some day's are hard but with the love of our family I hope he out live's me.......

sexual asault on a young child especialy a young boy has life long effectes no child should ever have to go through life looking over there shoulder. we as a nation should make the govament stand up for our kid's and put those pedafiles away for the rest of there live's or give them to the parent's so we can show them how much they HURT OUR BABIES. pay it forward I say.....