Living with Social Anxiety by  mystikal inspired me to write about how great my boys were their whole lives coping with mommy's "uniqueness".

I have lived with childhood sexual, mental and physical abuse. My mom was bi-polar and not medicated which caused me to grow up

really fast.

I also have Sleap Apnea, narcoleptic symptoms, bi-polar II, chronic migraines, depression and severe anxiety leading to panic attacks.

My marriage failed due to a lack of understanding by my partner and lack of proper comunication and support.

But there, through it all though they did not understand, were my boys helping me to settle down, couching me to not worry, counselling me through the panic attacks and more.

Because they were raised my way without the mistakes I had done to me, they were more understanding and sensetive to the people around them.

I made my mistakes like being over protective and am paying the price for that but better kids I could not ask for.

Mystikals story sounded like it came right out of my head and onto the screan, although I do have other "problems" that I fight every day.

I know have a partner who strives to make me the best I can be and through the hard times, the crying, the temper tantrums and more, he is always there when I am finished with a soft word, a hug and a shoulder to cry on.

My boys are the same as my partner with how they deal with me and the negativity I feel constantly.

Adam has Social Anxiety, Ben has bi-polar, dislexia and severe depression and at 21 and 19 are still (at home! messing the house up all the time without helping to clean it) but they help and understand and deal just like I do but the best part is, is that they are better equiped to handle their disabilities having helped all those years with mine.

Honest Communication and Individuality was the main focus in our home and through that everything (except housework) fell into place.

Well, a mess on the table stresses me out but it wont kill me I guess LOL.