Kids and drugs part 1

great advice cheers

it is really nice to be able to talk to other people about my son in remand. I still don't know really how bad a mess he has got himself in. I've never had a love one in the jail system before and it breaks my heart.

The info i have at the monent is he was 1 of 20 people arrested may 2006 and has been in remand since then. they say he was trafficing drugs, his stupid father thinks that brendon being one off the top people is cool, but for me, i'm sad, disappointed and really just in shock that when i sent him at 14yrs to live with his dads parents ( as he always scared me with his temper, but as he got bigger and taller, i got scared more) i had to think of the other 3 kids i have all from the same stupid father.  Brendon has always been a handful, but nothing prepared me for this heart ache.

in sept 2005 i flew him over to us to help him with his drug problem( he had texted me asking for help). he had a job in my brothers shop, was going to get car and fork licence. was going to use one of the shops cars. But he decided his friends ( so called friends, i found out later all drugies.) in victoria were where he wanted to be. I do know i did the best i could for him. but it still really hurts. while he has been in remand his had 4 different jobs inside, lost them all for fighting. and of recent lost his contact visit, ( had non contact visit) instead. that up set his grandparents who drove 1.5 hrs each way to see him. well i do feel better that i have written it down. my family and friends have been great and they are hurting too. but as his mum i feel guilty that i could have done something better. cheers jenny