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WHEN I WAS 2YEARS OLD BRIAN ( MY DAD THAT IS BUT I WONT CALL HIM DAD AS 2 ME HE HAS NAVER BEEN ONE) LEFT .I DONT REALLY REMEMBER THIS AS I WAS SO YOUNG ,BUT MAYBE HE SHOULD HAVE JUST STAYED AWAY AS I THINK THAT WAS
THE ONLY GOOD THING HE HAS EVER DONE. BUT AS THAY DO HE CANE BACK AND MY MUM TOOK HIM BACK IN , THIS NEXT BIT I DO REMEMBER. THE BEATINGS HE WOULD GIVE MY POOR MUM WERE SO BAD IM NOT REALLY READY TO SPEAKE OF THEM YET. I REMEMBER MUM CRYING ON THE PHONE ALOT. . THIS SHE LATER TOLD ME WAS BECOUSE WOMAN WOULD RING TO SAY HOW THAY WAS SLEEPING WITH BRIAN MUM WOULD ASK HIM ABOUT IT AND GET A BEATING 4 IT.SO ALONG COMES MY BABY BROV. WHEN I WAS 4 , ( THIS BIT MAY SOUND SILLY BUT REMEMBER I WAS 4) HE WAS BORN ON THE 6 NOV. AND THAT WEEKEND IS THE FIRST BONEFIRE NITE I REMEMBER AS I THOURT THE BIG PARTY WAS FOR HIM I WAS SO HAPPY WE WERE ALL AT MY AUNTYS HOUSE, HAVING LOTS OF FUN,IT WAS A GR8 NITE. TILL WE GO HOME THAT IS, AND BRIAN BEAT MY MUM AGAIN. THIS WENT ON FOR YEARS N YEARS .MY MUM WAS VERY ILL AND CAME CLOSE TO DEATH MORE THAN TWICE. THAY WOULD SPLIT UP N EVERY THING WOULD BE FINE AGAIN .WE EVEN MOVED TO IRELAND TO GET AWAY FROM HIM.HE WOULD ALWAYS FIND US AND TELL MUM THAT HE WAS SORRY AND THAT HE WOULD NAVER DO IT AGAIN. (YEAH PULL THE OTHER ONE ITS GOT BELLS ON IT.) SO BACK HE WOULD COME .THEN WHEN I WAS 11YEARS OLD ALONG COMES MY BABY SISTER , MAY I JUST SAY THAT HE BEAT MUM SO BADLEY THAT MY SISTER IS DEFF IN ONE EAR AND THE DOCTORS TOLD MUM IT WAS COS OF BRIAN HITTING HER IN HER BUMP. I JUST PRAYED FOR THE DAY I TURNEND 16 SO I COULD LEAVE HOME AND GET AWAY FROM IT ALL. AND THIS WHAT I DID 2 WEEKS AFTER MY BIRTHDAY.
SO LETS FAST FORWORD TO ME BEING 21 AND HAVING MY FIRST CHILD , I HAD BEED WITH MY ( OLDER BY 14 YEARS )BOYFRIEND FOR 3 YEARS AND EVERY THING WAS GOOD ........................................ OR SO I THOURT AS IT TURNED OUT HE WAS SLEEPING WITH ANYONG AND EVERYONE BEHIND MY BACK N EVERY1 NEW IT BUT ME.
DO YOU SEE A PATTION HERE.....? SO I HAD MY BABY AND WOULD WAIT FOR HIM TO TO COME HOME FROM WOURK BUT MORE OFTEN THAN NOT I WOULD BE ASEEP WHEN HE GO IN AND IF I MAY SAY SO TO P@SS@D OFF TO CARE. I HAVE A BIT OF A MOUTH ON ME so FROM TIME TO TIME I WOULD KICK OFF TO HIM .........................AND LOW N BEHOLD HE BEAT ME UP.
one nigth he hit my when i was holdig my baby ,i just remember looking down n seeing her covered in my blood,and thinking NO IM NOT HAVING THIS ANYMORE. the long n short of it i left ......................out the window cos hed looked me in.
We moved into a hostle for mums n kids tjings were hard n im sorry to say i started to do drugs. then one day i looked in a mirrow and sew a very skinny woman looking back at me. it could of been my mum but not it was me. so again i sorted myself out got clean from cokaine.
2years later i meet an other man ( 9 years older than me) i told him i didnt want to be with anyone cos of all the shit before in my life....................i was happy alone. but as thay do he told me he would look after me n naver hit ........YEAH YEAH YEAH.
every thaing was great as i is in the beginning we got a house car n a new baby.
then last year at x-mas he 2 hit me .
so i left again this thim with 2 younge childern ive again been i an other hostel all year now. but as of the 1st of nov. we are moving into our own 2bed house ALL OURS NOBOBY CAN MAKE US LEAVE OR INTIMERDATE US EVER AGAIN.
SO WHAT I THINK IM TRYING TO SAY IS if youve got a plan STICK TO IT.
LIFE IS ONLY WHAT YOU MAKE IT. HAVE IT YOUR WAY. STAY SAFE.
X LOUX
(February 2007) (
