Hi i am new at this but want to express to woman in this beautiful world of ours that there is life after losing a child to cot death/SIDS.
i had my first child at 17 years of age,she was a healthy 9pb 13oz, she was born 4
days before christmas and died 4 days before my 18th birthday, i thought i had to go through this all alone, i became reserved and even my relationship with he father deminished,i withdrew from everyone until one day i stepped out apon the road and got hit by a truck, i was thrown under the 6 wheels and landed on the footpath,i didnt know what had happened but i knew i only had bruises, no broken bones no fractures no cuts,when i awoke i remember seeing a friend of mine whom i cut off from, holding me saying all is well and its now time to live not to give up..
after a bout in hospital i was referred to a counseller, i was not sure about this as i thought"how would she know what its like to lose a baby"...
the first time i saw her i broke down and yelled at her exactly what i thougth, i said to her"you dont know how it feels" and i walked out, as i stepped outside i stopped suddenly as if someone was trying to stand in my way.
i turned around and walked back in.i fell on the floor and began to weep continuousely,i remember the counseller saying as she helped me off the floor"where there is a loss theres a new beginning"!
after a few sessions with her i gradually stopped blaming myself and everyday i remind myself no matter how hard things are or how hurtful you feel when things happen there is always 1 person out there that can make a difference to your life....
if there is any woman out there who have been through a similar ordeal then please dont think of ending your life, dont think you dont need help, dont think no one knows how you feel,just remember ,yes it might of been your child you lost but there are others whom have been through same as you, YOU ARE NEVER EVER EVER ALONE!!!
i currently have 4 children whom i would sacrifise anything for to keep them safe and loved,they know about the loss of their sister(my daughter) and they help me everyday to deal with it, their smiles cross time and melt the hurt that becomes in me, they are the biggest miracle i could of asked for......I HAVE FINALLY REALISED EVEN THOUGH MY DAUGHTER IS NOT WITH ME I WILL ALWAYS HOLD HER IN MY HEART AND MIND AND FEEL PROUD SHE IS AN ANGEL IN GODS WORLD NOW.....
SO LADIES, GO GET SOME HELP, CALL ANYONE,EVEN IF ITS SOMEONE YOU DENIED WHEN THE LOSS FIRST HAPPENED,
WOMAN NEED TO KNOW THEY ARE NOT AT FAULT AND NOTHING YOU COULD OF DONE COULD OF PREVENTED THIS....
SOONER THEN LATER LADIES and their husbands,PLEASE I BEG OF YOU, DONT LET YOURSELF BE THE NEXT LOSS...
PLEASE GET SOME HELP!!!, take care now: thankyou from louise
(YOU ARE ALL IN MY HEART AND I SENT STRENGTH AND HOPE WITH THIS MESSAGE)
(April 2007) (
