Understanding manic deppression.

I once had manic depression and i am glad i no longer have it as it can be quite serious obviously depending wheather its a upper or downer your on at the time if your on a downer well i suggest everything and everyone stays the hell out of the

way because you will be feeling so angry and uptight and are not stopping to think what and who are around you , your in a rage and its coming out if you want it to or not , hallucinating and panic attacks are also very common in an manic depression episode , but i would suggest not to stand in the way as this person dont actually at the moment know what they are doing , obviously if they are hurting theirselfs or others it shhould be stopped instantly . Its a bit like they are in fat forward , by this i mean their talking will be extremely fast and their actions will also be fast but they are in such a state they dont realise what they arre doing the hurt they are causing or how horrible they are being it may seem so out of character and their mood can change within seconds and then go into an upper where they will start to feel depressed and alone and realise what they have just done and begin to see theirself as a bad person . Even though they are not either bad or a horrible person they are just going through an illnesss and at the moment they dont know how to get theirself out of this mess . Quite often this is ended in either them feeling down and suicidal and often ths sends them back into a downer , but if they are suicidal or they are puttting either theirself or others in danger you should get immediate assistance .

Dont get me wrong , Its not like this all the time but unfortunatly most of it .When i had this i wad on antidepresants and was taking 250mg of venlafaxine 3 times a day and sleeping tablets as i was also having nightmares and flashbacks and was also seeeing a phycologist and a phyciatric nurse between which i was having 3 times a week .

It sounds strange of how i kicked this mess , i refused  t take the medication and i went to liive in a hostel where there were many people my age who too had many problems and never felt alone after about 4 weeks of not taking any medication other than my diazipam because they made me sleep , i began to feel better but there was still 1 thing i had to do and that was stop taking the diazipam to sleep at night but i realised i could not do that because i found i felt so scared to close my eyes , i never knew why ,untl one day i woke up and for a change i remembered my nightmare , and it was not a nice 1 that lead me to report my step father to the police from then on i stopped all medication and started my new life of being normal .

I hope this helps somebody else .

cheers xx