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Abuse in the home -- A victims story

Anonymous Author (July 2007)
Ok, at age 6 I was sent to live with my step father and pretty much had nothing to do with the rest of my family again til recently. I am now 22 have a family of my own and something sitting in the back of my head is telling me
to write my story not as a sympathy vote because I have forgiven the offender and tried to move on with my life. But this is a warning for all parents.
After I was sent to live with my step father at 6, he told me approxiametly 6 months later he was not my biological dad. Then things began, like bribing me for his affection or material things. He told me this was our special secret so I never told any one til my current partner. My step father would have me doing house work and basically made me his slave. If things weren't done to his standard or I dared to try and question his authority I would be punished. Wether it be a physical punishment (grbbing my hair which was not to be cut and must be up in a pony tail or braid and beating me) or a verbal punishment you useless so n so, you f*****g fat so n so (You get the idea) Then he would bribe me to give him massages etc, which eventually lead to being touched and basically performing all sorts of sexual things (Never actual intercourse) I was never allowed out of his family's rein apart from school. The sexual abuse stopped at about 14yrs old. Everything else continued on til I was kicked out at 16 (was planning to leave when I had got some shit together any way)
Not only was I abused by a man i trusted but also by his best friend made me touch him a couple of times when I was about 9. And by cousin when I was 12. ( a ruff trot I know).
At about 13 I started giving up on life. I knew what had happened and what was continuing to happen was wrong but I felt ashamed and embarresed for letting this happen to me. I thought no one would believe me. I gave up on school, I started cutting myself. For those who think it's an attention thing. I believe that Because I couldn't verbally release my pain  I did it by cutting. I had no one to turn too. No one to talk to. After a while I became voilent and was getting in to fights drugs sleeping around etc.I got to be suicidal to the point I was admitted to hospital for three days and talked my way out of being admitted to the phsychiatric  ward. I ended up with eating problems . I wouldn't eat for days then I would gorge til I was sick.  Eventually at 19 I had to leave. I left the state  and moved to border of vic/nsw aust where I got a job picking grapes. I got in contact with my sister in wa who put me in contact with my other sister in melbourne. Two weeks later I moved in (this is where I meet my lovely partner)
I got myself sorted, I got a traineeship in Hospitality and can now pretty much get a job anywhere in australia. I have one lovely child and I would put my life on the line for him if I thought anything like what happened to me was happening to him.
The reason I am writing this is because not only strangers are abusive or commit these horrific crimes. A lot tof the time it comes from within the family or a close family friend. Beware the signs of abuse. The person may become rebellious or may isolate themselves. If their grades dropped, if you notice any sudden changes or abnormalities in your children talk to them, if you can't get a trusted family member or friend to talk to them. Listen to your children if they say they don't want to go with some one. Especially if it happens regularly to the same person and especially listen to your gut. I was able to move on and get away from that stuff because I was able to forgive him. I now speak to him but I would not say we are close at all. When I did truely forgive him I felt as though a great weight was lifted off my shoulders. If you have been abused I hope you find the strength and the courage to forgive and move on and make the most of your life as I have. And lastly but most importantly DO NOT let child abuse go unnoticed or unpunished.
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dannii17
November 2007 | dannii17
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story

great article,thankyou for sharing

hugs to you



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lexiw
October 2007 | lexiw
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story

Thanks for Sharing your story

 Lexi xxx



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blackwidowkate
5.00 (Excellent) | August 2007 | blackwidowkate
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story
Hi
Thanks for sharing your story
It is hard as i know as i wrote some of mine it was the hardest thing i ever had to do.  But after writing as i did it helped as i was able to look at it from the outside in as if it was from someone else
This was my first step in the slow process of healing
I will not forgive the person but i harbour no anger anymore.  Had i had the courage to tell my mum before I did and she had stayed i could never forgive her. 
We are there to protect our children at ALL costs regardless.
If my child came to me and told me that someone in the family was abusing them in any way shape or form i would have my child away from that person immeadiately with no questions asked then i would look into it
If my child said it about someone be it true or not i could never trust that person again even if it was proved unsubstantiated.
I know of a person accused of child molestation that said he was innocent yet when his solicitor advised him that if he pleaded guilty he would get a light sentence whereas if he was found guilty through a jury then he would get a very heavy sentence he opted out and pleaded guilty and  took the light sentence
To me this is a admission of guilt regardless.  I have told his wife and family that i will not have him in my home or anywhere near my children.   They still claim he was innocent but who pleads guilty to a charge like that and is innocent
I will never trust him or his family around anyone i know again and will say why.  
Hopefully he will rot in jail for what he did.  Innocent or guilty.  
I pity the person who abused me I know where he lives and when i get the strength to do it i want to face him down as i to am no longer the scared child....i want to whisper in his ear remember what you did to me......see your girls they are now the age i was when you molested me.  Watch them closely...........he will never sleep a nights sleep comfortably again. 
Then walk away
He messed my life so much that to this day i still have problems. 
Forgiveness is not an option
Just how I feel. 
Luv Deb


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mumof2b
5.00 (Excellent) | August 2007 | mumof2b
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story

Thank you for sharing such a personal story.......you are amazing and inspirational!!!

Amanda xxxxx



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lonely28
5.00 (Excellent) | August 2007 | lonely28
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story
fantastic article and a true story of inspiration and hope. You are one strong women and I have nothing but respect for you.... thank you for sharing......

love ya,

fi oxoxoxox


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LavendaLady
5.00 (Excellent) | August 2007 | LavendaLady
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story

Thankyou for being so brave with writing this and publishing it on Minti.

Take Care,

Ladylavenda



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Libby24
5.00 (Excellent) | July 2007 | Libby24
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story
hugs sweety. it is so hard to write about all the abuse we get as a child. minus the sexual abuse your story is so like mine, but mine was from my mum.

love to you and its so good that you got your life sorted.

Liz


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bubble
5.00 (Excellent) | July 2007 | bubble
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story

You are a very strong person to be able to share with others in that situation to know they are not alone....  BRAVO to you.  I know I don't have the strength (or willingness) to forgive my abuser, and I certainly couldn't publish on minto.

You are a remarkable person



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nell18-3
5.00 (Excellent) | July 2007 | nell18-3
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story
Thankyou for sharing this incredible story
xxx


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dinsdale
5.00 (Excellent) | July 2007 | dinsdale
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story

Well Karen, You have been through alot. Your story is great. Hopefully you sharing it with minti friends will help you also in yourself. (you know what I mean)All we want to do is protect our own kids from cases like this.It must of taken alot for you to share your story..

Take care hopefully I'll see you on Thursday

 Love Tracey



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mummum
5.00 (Excellent) | July 2007 | mummum
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story
What a story it must of been hard for you to forgive your abuser you come across as a strong person


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emmie
5.00 (Excellent) | July 2007 | emmie
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story
But i really dont know how you could forgive you are much better than me because i cant and never will


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      anon
5.00 (Excellent) | July 2007 | anon
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story
It doesn't make me any any better than you. It is your choice to not forgive but like I said once I sat down and said I have forgiven you and what you have done, I was able to move on. It doesn't mean I have forgotton it and I never will.  It is a personal choice on what you choose to do and noone can blame you for not wanting to forgive your abuser. It is one of the hardest things I did.
I hope you do one day feel that you can . I also found talking to some one really helps. So if you want to chat you know where to find me.


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      simba1
3.19 (Average) | August 2007 | simba1
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story

"because i cant and never will"

Emmie, there are many who have walked in the shoes of terrible abuse, mentally, physically, and sexually.  Until you face what is going on inside your head and heart, despite "not thinking about your abuse" it will still be a part of your life, and may have negative effects on your physical health as well as your mental  health.  Forgiveness is not for the person who abuse you, forgiveness is for you! Forgive the negative feelings, resentments, anger, and self talk.  When you can say to yourself, I didn't choose this, it was forced upon me, I was the child, the other was the adult, family friend, or even a babysitter. No matter who it was, allow yourself to forgive what happened to you, know who ever abused you was very very wrong to do so.  Hanging on to the emotion/anger towards the person, in the end will hurt you more.  Best of luck to you in your healing.  My recovery came late in life, when I saw what a broken old man he was, I saw he was human, and as a human, did very wrong to me.  I did confront him, expressed my anger/pain, as I listened to the social worker in a nursing home speak about his abuse of the female residents. My dear Mother and he did not get on at All!  This does not excuse nor explain the "why", today I choose to not find an answer to "why" I just accept what happened, know it was not any of my doing, forgive the man, but not the act.  You do not have to have any contact with this person/persons. I was abused by my step-father for many years, I told my dear Mother when I was in my mid 20's as they were divorcing, and she did nothing. "It is kind of nice to have a man around" when I asked what made her stay with him.....Forgiveness is a gift to you to set you free of hurtful memories and of hurtful feelings. Simba 1

 



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           emmie
4.33 (Good) | August 2007 | emmie
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everone has their own choice some people can find theirself able to forgive and i respectt hose that can and those should also respect those that dont u havent read the story u havent got a clue so just because i havent forgiven does not mean i havent moved on cos i have but i ever see him again he wont be alive long for what he did people have a right to their own desision i chose not to forgive so dont try and make me change my mind cos its MY CHOICE MY LIFE!


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                simba1
3.07 (Average) | August 2007 | simba1
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story

Emmie,

You are very correct, "make me change my mind cos its MY CHOICE MY LIFE!"  I nor, anyone can "Make" you do anything.

 I can only offer my sincere apology, if my words caused you any pain.  Simba1



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           emmie
5.00 (Excellent) | August 2007 | emmie
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story
forgivness will not even come close to me i will never forget that perve who messed up my whole life the day i forgive will b the day he is dead and im laughing my step dad did alot of evil things i will never forget and never ever be forgiven he is scum and so is my mother i hope they both rot in hell


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                Deborahsc2203
5.00 (Excellent) | August 2007 | Deborahsc2203
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they can join mine also emmie xxxx


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                simba1
4.00 (Good) | August 2007 | simba1
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story

I am so very sorry for your pain.  I am also sorry if I was the cause of any additional pain by writing to you.  All the best to you ((hugs))

Simba 1



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      Deborahsc2203
5.00 (Excellent) | August 2007 | Deborahsc2203
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story

i admire you anon for being able to forgive, xxxx letting the signs be known for other to see what to look out for is very important and also a support team thats there for them ,,,good article .....

Im with emmie on this one ,, i have moved on with my life but i will never forgive to me the forgiveness is a pardon  in my eyes for what they have done to me and no i wont let them feel like its ok cause its not ,,i have called the abusers and told them exactly what i have thought of them and cutt them out of my life 100%

i do have a good life and i am ok BUT I also choose not to forgive i dont want them to be able to sleep at night ..by telling them that i forgive them  for abusing me ,,,

we all heal and deal with things the best way that works for us ,

mine telling them off and cutting them out 100% of my life ...



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emmie
5.00 (Excellent) | July 2007 | emmie
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story

thanks for sharing your story it must have breen hard 4 u to write that you are a strong person

luv emz x



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janicepovey
5.00 (Excellent) | July 2007 | janicepovey
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story

Thankyou for sharing your story........ it takes alot to share such a personal story. Good for you and, it sure sounds like you have come a long way.

Regards Janice



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hermy
5.00 (Excellent) | July 2007 | hermy
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story
you are a very strong lady.....well done.......thanks for sharing your story.....regards Sandra xxx


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Kellzacar
5.00 (Excellent) | July 2007 | Kellzacar
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story
hi there,

Thankyou so much for sharing your story . . .  you are a much stronger person than I as I have still not been able to forgive my abuser and I'm not sure that I ever will . . . . . Recently my abuser (my mum) relocated very close to me and at first I was worried BUT now I walk with my head high as I am not that frighted little girl . . .

Cheers Kellz


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      anon
5.00 (Excellent) | July 2007 | anon
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story
Keep your chin up and don't let her turn you back into that frightened little girl again. You deserve the best and never forget that.


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cazza
5.00 (Excellent) | July 2007 | cazza
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victoms story
Thank you so much for sharing your story, what a inspirational person you are to come out and share this with us all. and it made me smile knowing that you was strong enough to come out in front..

i do foster care/respite care, and it makes us feel better knowing that we have helped parents realise that there children need to be seen and heard these days, and their is no such thing as not be able to get help as their is help out there.... Parents dont have to feel alone no more...

So when i read this it also highlighted my articles that i have being covering on foster care, and how the states need more carers to help those that need it...


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August88
5.00 (Excellent) | July 2007 | August88
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victoms story
A courageous story. Thanks for sharing. It must take a lot do that. I understand what you are saying by forgiveness as it doesn't mean that it is ok what they have done but it frees your own heart and I have done that too. So glad that you have got through this and you are making a successful life for yourself. An inspiration.


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llmunchkin
5.00 (Excellent) | July 2007 | llmunchkin
Re: Abuse in the home -- A victoms story
Well, i have already told you this, however i will say it publicly now.  This is a great example of a personal story that is great advice, as it contains a message to parents, and it is also inspirational, as you went through so much, and look at how you have turned your life around - well done matey.

This story, and the other ones written by Minti members about abuse in the home, or within the family/friend circle highlight the need for us all to be diligent as parents.  It also shows how prevalent it is in our society still - which is totally unacceptable.  As parents we need to band together and ensure the community we live in is a safe place for ALL children.  Stop turning a blind eye, if you see something that you think is wrong, and you don't report it, or do something about it - you are just as bad as the perpretrator.  Adults have power, children have none, let's use that power to make sure that stories like this don't continue to happen.


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