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Abuse in the home -- A victims story |
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Anonymous Author (July 2007) |
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Ok, at age 6 I was sent to live with my step father and pretty much had nothing to do with the rest of my family again til recently. I am now 22 have a family of my own and something sitting in the back of my head is telling me to write my story not as a sympathy vote because I have forgiven the offender and tried to move on with my life. But this is a warning for all parents.
After I was sent to live with my step father at 6, he told me approxiametly 6 months later he was not my biological dad. Then things began, like bribing me for his affection or material things. He told me this was our special secret so I never told any one til my current partner. My step father would have me doing house work and basically made me his slave. If things weren't done to his standard or I dared to try and question his authority I would be punished. Wether it be a physical punishment (grbbing my hair which was not to be cut and must be up in a pony tail or braid and beating me) or a verbal punishment you useless so n so, you f*****g fat so n so (You get the idea) Then he would bribe me to give him massages etc, which eventually lead to being touched and basically performing all sorts of sexual things (Never actual intercourse) I was never allowed out of his family's rein apart from school. The sexual abuse stopped at about 14yrs old. Everything else continued on til I was kicked out at 16 (was planning to leave when I had got some shit together any way)
Not only was I abused by a man i trusted but also by his best friend made me touch him a couple of times when I was about 9. And by cousin when I was 12. ( a ruff trot I know).
At about 13 I started giving up on life. I knew what had happened and what was continuing to happen was wrong but I felt ashamed and embarresed for letting this happen to me. I thought no one would believe me. I gave up on school, I started cutting myself. For those who think it's an attention thing. I believe that Because I couldn't verbally release my pain I did it by cutting. I had no one to turn too. No one to talk to. After a while I became voilent and was getting in to fights drugs sleeping around etc.I got to be suicidal to the point I was admitted to hospital for three days and talked my way out of being admitted to the phsychiatric ward. I ended up with eating problems . I wouldn't eat for days then I would gorge til I was sick. Eventually at 19 I had to leave. I left the state and moved to border of vic/nsw aust where I got a job picking grapes. I got in contact with my sister in wa who put me in contact with my other sister in melbourne. Two weeks later I moved in (this is where I meet my lovely partner)
I got myself sorted, I got a traineeship in Hospitality and can now pretty much get a job anywhere in australia. I have one lovely child and I would put my life on the line for him if I thought anything like what happened to me was happening to him.
The reason I am writing this is because not only strangers are abusive or commit these horrific crimes. A lot tof the time it comes from within the family or a close family friend. Beware the signs of abuse. The person may become rebellious or may isolate themselves. If their grades dropped, if you notice any sudden changes or abnormalities in your children talk to them, if you can't get a trusted family member or friend to talk to them. Listen to your children if they say they don't want to go with some one. Especially if it happens regularly to the same person and especially listen to your gut. I was able to move on and get away from that stuff because I was able to forgive him. I now speak to him but I would not say we are close at all. When I did truely forgive him I felt as though a great weight was lifted off my shoulders. If you have been abused I hope you find the strength and the courage to forgive and move on and make the most of your life as I have. And lastly but most importantly DO NOT let child abuse go unnoticed or unpunished.
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Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story
"because i cant and never will"
Emmie, there are many who have walked in the shoes of terrible abuse, mentally, physically, and sexually. Until you face what is going on inside your head and heart, despite "not thinking about your abuse" it will still be a part of your life, and may have negative effects on your physical health as well as your mental health. Forgiveness is not for the person who abuse you, forgiveness is for you! Forgive the negative feelings, resentments, anger, and self talk. When you can say to yourself, I didn't choose this, it was forced upon me, I was the child, the other was the adult, family friend, or even a babysitter. No matter who it was, allow yourself to forgive what happened to you, know who ever abused you was very very wrong to do so. Hanging on to the emotion/anger towards the person, in the end will hurt you more. Best of luck to you in your healing. My recovery came late in life, when I saw what a broken old man he was, I saw he was human, and as a human, did very wrong to me. I did confront him, expressed my anger/pain, as I listened to the social worker in a nursing home speak about his abuse of the female residents. My dear Mother and he did not get on at All! This does not excuse nor explain the "why", today I choose to not find an answer to "why" I just accept what happened, know it was not any of my doing, forgive the man, but not the act. You do not have to have any contact with this person/persons. I was abused by my step-father for many years, I told my dear Mother when I was in my mid 20's as they were divorcing, and she did nothing. "It is kind of nice to have a man around" when I asked what made her stay with him.....Forgiveness is a gift to you to set you free of hurtful memories and of hurtful feelings. Simba 1
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Re: Abuse in the home -- A victims story
i admire you anon for being able to forgive, xxxx letting the signs be known for other to see what to look out for is very important and also a support team thats there for them ,,,good article .....
Im with emmie on this one ,, i have moved on with my life but i will never forgive to me the forgiveness is a pardon in my eyes for what they have done to me and no i wont let them feel like its ok cause its not ,,i have called the abusers and told them exactly what i have thought of them and cutt them out of my life 100%
i do have a good life and i am ok BUT I also choose not to forgive i dont want them to be able to sleep at night ..by telling them that i forgive them for abusing me ,,,
we all heal and deal with things the best way that works for us ,
mine telling them off and cutting them out 100% of my life ...
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Re: Abuse in the home -- A victoms story
Well, i have already told you this, however i will say it publicly now. This is a great example of a personal story that is great advice, as it contains a message to parents, and it is also inspirational, as you went through so much, and look at how you have turned your life around - well done matey.
This story, and the other ones written by Minti members about abuse in the home, or within the family/friend circle highlight the need for us all to be diligent as parents. It also shows how prevalent it is in our society still - which is totally unacceptable. As parents we need to band together and ensure the community we live in is a safe place for ALL children. Stop turning a blind eye, if you see something that you think is wrong, and you don't report it, or do something about it - you are just as bad as the perpretrator. Adults have power, children have none, let's use that power to make sure that stories like this don't continue to happen.
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