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I know this is called the advice page but I don't feel like I am giving advice. So for now I shall call it the sharing experience page.
About two years ago I started suffering from depression, I think it started after having an argument with a neighbour, at
the time I didn't know what was wrong. I felt tired constantly unable to motivate myself always losing my temper and was always thinking about everything. It was almost as if I couldn't switch my brain off. I started to feel low and hate myself and the way I looked. I remember writing a letter to my doctor because I was to embrassed to face him and tell him how I was feeling. I thought he might think I was insane or making it all up. But I was lucky he was great and very understanding he offered me anti depressants at the time but I refused because I was scared, instead I decided to try counselling.
Counselling helped for a short period because I had someone to talk to about the way I felt but when the counselling stopped I thought I was ok. Anyway it was a few months later that I had a severe nervous breakdown this was caused by my temper again and had got me into a situation that I couldn't handle. I hated myself for being such a coward and didn't see any point to my existence. I thought about suicide and even told my husband (I think that was a cry for help) but he didn't know what to say and just went to work. I then rang the Samaritans and they listened to my mad emotions and did their best to calm me down.
Once I had calmed down (this took over two days) I realised I needed to consider anti-depressants so I went to see my doctor and he prescribed me Fluxotine. He warned me that in the first two weeks I would not feel better but worse as the medication needed time to work. I was glad at the time for the support of my neighbour and friend who had both taken anti depressants themselves they encouraged me to stick with the medication.
A year later and I feel normal (most of the time) but I still have small moments like when my PMT is due. But the great thing is I don't lose my temper so easily anymore and my kids prefer the new me. Recently my husband started suffering with depression (due to staff changes at work) and I noticed the symptoms straight away and was able to help him (which is something I would not have been able to do before). He knew how I had changed since taking my medication and went to see the doctor. Since then he has been on medication and is a lot happier and our relationship has changed we talk to each other more about how we feel and we don't take it personally if either one of us is having a bad day.
I know this sound like an advert for anti depressants but I didn't mean it to be, it is just how we dealt with a situation in our lives. I am sure many other people have suffered with depression and have found their own way to deal with it but I hope this helps someone out there who might be feeling the way I did two years ago.
(July 2007) (
