a day i will never forget

 

It was September 2nd 1997 and it was coming close to my 18 Th birthday and I had invited several people to my party even my very best friend Candice, she was like a sister to me we done everything together. You would never find us apart. Well she

told me near my party ‘’ I don’t know if I will be able to come to your party”. I said ‘’ why not ‘’. She said ‘’ I can’t tell you why ‘’. Well I left it alone and thought she turns up she turns up. Well she turned up and we had the best party till my father ruined it but that for another story. well next few days we went to school as I had stayed down so I was still in yr 11 it was during exam time well . Well it came to September 9th and Candice did not show for school I wondered why. Well school had finished but I finished at 2pm instead of 3pm as I had a free last class so I went home. Now the bus goes right pass Candice’s house. and I thought should I stop I went to then I thought no mum will be mad I will  go home and ring her . My stomach was telling me different but I still went home because I knew it was what mum wanted. when I got home  I rang my best friends house , now mum wasn’t home as she had gone to get my brothers and sisters from primary school . So when I rang Candice’s neighbour answered and said I think you better get your mum to call back. So I knew something was wrong I started to cry even though I didn’t know what was going on. my mum said what was wrong I explained it and she told me  I will ring and see what is wrong so she did and she burst into tears and came out to me as I was sitting on the stairs outside and she said ‘’ I am so sorry Candice was killed today by a car ‘’ . I never felt serious pain to then. I cried for days didn’t go to school until I was up to it. This friend done anything for me she was the best thing in my life and she was taken like that. Now what had happened she was home sick from gastro and her mum called her in the afternoon to see how she was and she was feeling? She said she felt fine, now she was a big magic basketball fan and her mum said come meet me at Knox city (local shopping centre) and you can pick the tickets. Well she was crossing the road to go meet her mum and catch the bus. Now this was the bus after my one, she saw the car turning into her street which had the tall trailer on it the Jims mowing trailer but didn’t see the car behind and walked out to cross and was killed insanely and the driver kept going. I still cry every year about this and none will tell me different I still say what if I had stopped maybe she would still be here . I blame myself allot. I locked myself away lost all my friend and still now have trouble meeting new people as I am afraid I went back to school to be told by a teacher I was going to fall a subject cause I was away now all the teacher knew I was away for this reason but she said sorry you will be failed for absence so I went to my principal and she said ‘’ this isn’t on ‘’ I also told my mum she was so angry. So she went up to the school and had a go at the teacher. The teacher had to pass me as the principal had told me to come back when I was ready. I passed yr 11 and 12 I didn’t get a high score but guess what so what I passed and I was happy. I still till this day cry every yr it will not go doesn’t matter what people say it will always be there. I am afraid to meet new people as it is hard for me

I blame myself allot what if I had stopped she maybe still here. It hurts me and this week will be the hardest week of my life this week but I will have my great hubby and my kids and my minti  friends...