Twin pregnancy and coping?

I had twins 9 years ago. I was a person who from being very young had never really wanted kids. I got to the age of 28 and thought that if I didn't have any by the age of 30 I would never have any. After an official two weeks of trying(I came off the pill), I got pregnant. Obviously I took the test-positive . I was excited and scared at the same time. After as little as six weeks I was big. People would say 'Ooooh I bet there's two in there.' When I found out there was two I was devasated. I was terrified of everythig. Pregnancy,weight gain the birth how I would cope with one baby let alone two. My then partner made things even worseand just said 'You'll be alright plenty of people have had twins. Yes I knew that but this was me. Me who had never planned kids originally and then when I decide I did I got two!

I got massive-I put on 5 stone all but 4 pounds!!! I had more than the usual number of scans. One of the babies was developing quicker than the other. They were transverse-were one is the right way and the other is laid across. I developed really bad oedaema and had swelling like you wouldn't believe. I couldn't wear shoes for the last 3 months because my feet were so swollen- I had to wear size 10 mens slippers. And my then partner treat me terribly. He said I was ugly,fat and had legs like tree trunks.Nice.

Anyway, at 34 weeks I gave birth naturally to two beautiful boys. They were in the baby special care unit for two weeks. After everything I fell in love with my boys and everything had been worth it. Weight gain,stretch marks aching boobs-the lot!

I was terrified when I found I was having two babies and never thought I would cope- but I did and it was hard work but my boys make my life complete. I would like to say to anyone having twins- it will be the hardest  thing you will ever do but the best thing ever.

My nanna said to me, 'God only gives you what He knows you can cope with.' I haven't always coped-but I'm having fun trying!!!