I think you need to speak to your team about your concerns, as someone else suggested learn some relaxation breathing.  I think you'll find you are stronger than you give yourself credit for.  Talk to your doctor/midwife.  Go to some relaxtion classes if you can.

Also keep in mind a cesarian has a lot more needles involved than an natural birth even with an epidural, I've been there.  The recovery is also a lot longer.  Go the natural road if you can.

 Hi :)

Well you still have a long time to wait for labour (hopefuly anyway)!

I had a hard time bonding with my bub for the first few days because breastfeeding was sooooo painful that everytime I looked at her all I could think of was pain (that was very hard!) So I also have a simaler worry but I guess we just have to deal with that when we get to it and try our best :)

As for epidural, I had one (loved it :) ) but needles dont bother me, but what happens (my experiance anyway) was they put this big plastic thing on ur back with a big hole you feel this jab (not very comftable, but nither are contractions lol) and then they stick it in place, so if seeing the needle is ur problem then no need to worry but i guess if its just the thought then it may be harder. If you have a cesarian then you will need one anyway wont you? im pretty sure you do but dont hold me to it :)

And you never know your labour may be even quicker this time (people keep telling me the 2nd one is usualy quicker, would be nice lol.) 

Its natural to worry, im worried to cause I dident have to rush to the hospital so I wouldent know what to do if i have to this time. But (I know this may sound mean) just try and "ignore" the pregnancey so then end comes sooner! Consentrate on other things so you dont stress so much.

Hope this helped a little :)

What you experienced with your first baby is a precipitate labour, meaning your baby was born within an hour of the onset of labour.  This isn't usually common for a first time delivery though, they are more common with 4 and 5th and more babies.  I had one too, my 5th child was in a real hurry to make it into the world, and the ambulance certainly had a race on its hands.

To prepare for this labour, you really need to talk to your medical team about your concerns so they can help you better.  Ask them for some information on PreNatal Depression, because I think you might have a touch of it, to be expected considering what your first labour was like.

Start breathing exercises now.  Find a breathing rhythm when you do anything around the house, and keep at it.  This will prepare you for labour and help to reduce stress levels.  make the breathes big, to the point where you feel you will burst before letting it go again.

Try and concentrate on the fact that every labour is different, and things won't be as bad this time round.

Oh, and you could ask for an induction at 38 weeks.  That way, the labour will be started in a controlled environment, and you will be better in control.