What a life you have had.Sorry to hear about such a hard life. I think as you love kids and work with them it is a sign that you will be a great mum. You are not your mum. The fact that you know what was not right in your up bringing says to me that history will not repeat itself with you.Don't let your past ruin your future. 

I was 34 when i fell pregnant with my son. I had tried for a year with a few heart aches along the way. When i fell preg i thought am i ready for this??? Is there a right time? Are we ever ready? I am now expecting my second..18 month age gap! It is so rewarding..yes hard work but so worth it.

Good luck with it all. You sound like a kind, caring, strong person.

The fact that you are worried about having children, and being a good mum, means you most likely will be a good mum. Up bringing does not, guarantee, that one knows about parenting. We all have to find our own way, and what works for us. However, hun, you are aware of the issues you faced and will be ever vigilant, in not following that path. Knowledge is power and you have some good Ideas as how not to treat children. Babies and children are great teachers and if you follow your head, your instinct and their needs you really cannot go wrong. Being a parent is the most wonderful,scarey, enchanting,emotional,experience. The thing to remember is, if in doubt ask others. So many parents out here are happy and willing to share.

All the best. luv Winnie.xx

Having a child is the most beautiful thing you will ever do. You know what it is like to have a hard life, so i'm sure you will do everything to give your child everything.

Have faith in yourself. You will be a great mother!

It is the most amazing feeling in the world to be a Mum. You have had great experience working in childcare and you know what sort of Mum you DON'T want to be. You have obviously thought things through carefully. This is a lot more experience and knowledge than others start with! If you feel that you are ready and have a loving and supportive partner and this is the ONLY thing holding you back, don't be scared! At times it is exhausting, frustrating and frightening BUT there always is also the most overwhelmingly amazing feeling of love and fulfilment ! I waited a long time before I felt that I was ready and now regret that I waited so long!  Good luck with your decision and I am sure that you would be a wonderful Mum!

you must love kids and you worlk with them so i think you will be a great mum .