lillkatheryn's Minti Blog

OMG!!! I'm all alone!!

lillkatheryn — Wed, 02 Jul 2008 16:39:44 -0700

Well today was a turn of events! My SIL C took BOTH of my babies! Origianlly it was going to be just Kathy, but she was all mad cause daddy kept chaning what was going to happen with her. He wanted to take her out, but something came up at the bakery, so my SIL said she would pick her up then. Well Kathy did not want to go without her brother, so my SIL took both. I don't know what to do! I've not been without my babies since before I had my son almost a year ago! It's so wierd and quiet as I will have at least one of them, and hubby is still working. hmmm, what to do? I hope I can handle tonight when I try to sleep and they are not here, that has always been the hardest for me. The day stuff is easy, it's when I miss the bedtime stuff that I get all misty eye and upset. It's so unreal, it's like they are only taking a nap, but they are not here. Though they'll be back tomorrow, which I'm glad.

Should I tell my SIL?

lillkatheryn — Tue, 24 Jun 2008 15:34:12 -0700

Ok, as I just blogged I had a couple of dreams about my SIL. I have had some in the past, but nothing like these, and the feeling not the same. I wanted to tell her in hopes of it helping us to become closer. But I'm not sure I should do so, especially after my hubby has confirmed the real reason she has issues with me....So I want to know what you all think. As most of you know I've been trying to do what I can to make our relationship better so that our girls can feel the same both at her house and mine, and be able to play together. It's going good, as my neice came over the other day and on Sunday told me that she wanted to come over again to spend the night. Though her mom said no cause my niece does not like staying at home with her mom anymore at night, she always wants to go out and spend the night at someones house. And either she or my BIL does not like that, so they limit how often she can go over to our houses to play or spend the night. Anyway, other then her seeming to be in a bad mood Sunday night, and not wanting to say goodbye (my other SIL said that her brother was upset on the phone, so they probably had a fight and that was why she just wanted to get out without saying anything) she has been alot warmer towards me, even coming to me to say hello on Sunday instead of me going to her. I did send her a text this morning telling her I was thinking of her and babies and hoped all was well. But I feel like I should tell her that I had the dreams, cause they were really nice and I feel like I should, especially the one where she was upset and told me. I always tell my other SILs when I have a dream about them. What should I do? I dont want to push her and I have been taking it really slow with all this. Should I tell her, text her via phone to let her know I had a dream about her? Or even tell her that I had a feeling something was bothering her and if she wanted to talk I'm here. Or should I just not say anything at all? I'm confused and I really want to do the best thing for us...Know what I mean? I don't want to push her, but I don't want her to think that I don't care for her and I don't think of her like I do my other SILs, because I care alot about her and I would really like to be able to talk to her like I do my other SILs....What should I do?

What a busy week!

lillkatheryn — Tue, 24 Jun 2008 15:13:02 -0700

Well it's been one crazy week that's for sure. Not much really happened during the week it's self, just busy with cleaning and all that good stuff. On Sunday we had a Granduation Party for my eldest neice who graduated high school. It was really nice and the whole family was there. I got to see my cousin and his wife and baby (his wife used to be a bit mean to me and said things behind my back, but she seems to have changed alot! That's a whole other blog in itsself) Anywho, it was really nice and I had a great time. Kathy played with all her cousins and had alot of fun, she passed out on the way home. Mikey has been battling teething and thus not wanting to eat a whole lot, just wanting to drink water. But he is doing better now and back to eating more.

Yesterday I got my hair cut from a lady from church. We talked and it was nice. She's more hyper then I'm used to, but it was still nice.

Well, now I have to dish the gossip....First my hubby told me something so sweet, in his covert, round about way. We were talking about what I could do at the bakery to help him out and work there. And get paid. But then about 2 seconds he said, no cause then you won't be able to do all that you do here and keep up. I thought it was so sweet cause he was telling me in his way that he really appreciates all that I do at the house and with the babies. It was really nice for him to tell me that, as he does not always know how to tell me those kind of things.

#2 is I had 2 dreams last night about my SIL. Hubby and I were talking about his brother, and I think it triggered something in my head. We last night I had a dream about my BIL wife (whom I am trying to work to have a better relationship with). We were meeting somewhere and I went up to see her and say hi. I gave her a big hug and asked how she was. She said ok and I looked at her and she was crying. I told her if you want to talk, I'm here. She just smiled and said thank you. I then looked as my neice and said hi and noticed that she had on very old clothes. Like ones that are from like 80, hand me downs. I could tell in my dream that my SIL was very upset and something was wrong. I woke up to it and thought about that and what my hubby had told me. So I know the dream was playing into that. Then I had another dream after falling back to sleep where we were somewhere and I went to say hi to her. I then just walked up and said "why don't you ever say hi to me?" And I went off telling her how I felt and all that. I was telling her how I pictured us taking the babies out together, sitting on the front porch talking, and everything that I had been feeling. She was giving me a big hug and listening and after I told her all that we were really close and sitting next to each other talking with my other SILs and just smiling. It was a really nice dream. Oh how I wish it would be reality. It really is something I can one day say to her, and infront of everyone, so that she is forced to talk to me. But the whole point is that after I told her everything we got really close and it was like the relationship I have with all my other SILs.

Anyway, I do hope that we can get better at our relationship, and I would really like to tell her about the dreams, just like I do when I have a dream about my other SILs.

Also, today is my MIL b-day and we are all going to go out with my MIL to celebrate.

So that's the update!

Oh and I did get my period, so #3 is not coming just yet. But I told hubby, next month when we go to my grandma's to visit, hmmmm...lol

Tonta lady threatening to call 911 on me!!!

lillkatheryn — Wed, 18 Jun 2008 18:45:19 -0700

Ok so most of you know my daughter can be quite the loud screamer. Especially when she wants her way, but what toddler isnt'? So today I had my neice over to play and they were getting along just fine. Then Kathy started to get mean, pushing and taking her toys away from her cousin. So I told Kathy that I was going to call her aunt to come get her cousin, because she would not stop pushing and hitting her. It was just time for a break I think, and she was getting very tired. Well she started to cry and scream, again!!! I tried to talk to her, to get her to calm down, nothing. I told her that I would then not talk to her until she calmed down. Well, she was standing on my bed (I had carried her into there to talk to her) and I picked her up to take her out. I shut the door and told her no more going into my room. She could go play with her cousin until her aunt came or she could sit in time out until she calmed down. While I was getting my neice ready, Kathy was fighting with me to keep me from putting on my neices shoes, she was trying to go into my room, so I had to put up a gate. And she all the while was screaming as loud as she could. Well we went down stairs to get my nieces car seat and to wait for her mom. Well this crazy old lady comes walking up to the garage gate trying to talk to the babies. My daughter was still screaming cause she did not want her cousin to leave. The lady asked my why she was screaming, and tried to get her to come over to her. I told her cause her cousin was leaving. She said that she did not believe me as my girl was screaming to much. The lady then said that I had to be abusing her cause she was screaming and carrying on so much. My neice said that I was not hurting her. This lady was trying to get the girls to come over, and I told her that they don't know you, I don't want them near you. This lady was carrying on about how she was going to call the police or child protective services, saying I was abusing them. She said that she hears the crying to much, blah blah blah. I had turned my back and was telling the girls to come to the other side of the car while we wait for my SIL. The lady was going on and on about me needing to get my act together and the next time she hears any screaming or crying she is going to call 911. UGH, some people!!! I was so mad and so upset that she could dare accuse me of such things!! Yes, I've spanked my girl, and yes I've yelled at her, but only cause she was being very naughty and that time, the spanking worked. I don't even spank now. And really how many of us have raised our voices at our kids for being naughty, especially when they are screaming so loud, you want them to hear you. I never yell unless she is screaming and she does not hear me. I do talk stern and change my tone, and will raise my voice, but never loud, nor screaming....Anyway, I call my hubby to come home right away as this lady did not seem to go away. I told him about what happened, and he was like, let her call the police. They are going to be like shes crazy.

Of course now I'm like great, I have this lady who is going to be nosey and look into everything that goes on. It's the last thing I need. I never thought in my wildest dreams that someone would ever accuse me of abusing my babies!

I know you guys don't know me in person, but I know you all can get a great sense by talking to me....Do I sound like I abuse my babies? This is just not something that I would ever wish on my worst enemy....NEVER!!! And to make things worse, my niece was there to hear it all....GRRRR.

So now what do I do? I'm not going to change what I do because I don't even punish her in any physical way, and I don't yell, unless it's like I said, cause she can't hear me. Which I often do when I'm down by the car and she is upstairs in the house....I just don't know what to do with this lady. Though maybe next time I will call the police and say she is harrassing me. And now my daughter is upset also cause hubby told her that if Kathy keeps on screaming and crying like that the lady will try to take her and have the cops take mommy....Which I don't agree on telling her, but she wanted to know why the lady was there. I told Kathy that it's ok to get angry and upset, but it's not ok to scream like, just like it's not ok to hit or push....Any help, I would really appreciate it. I just don't wanna hear the screaming anymore either, and especially since my son, ever since he was tiny tiny learned that when you are upset you scream out like that. And it's funny cause that is how he has always cried for food....

Well enough of that, thanks for listening.

Ok now I'm confussed!

lillkatheryn — Wed, 18 Jun 2008 08:10:55 -0700

Well not much going on. My daughter spent the night as my MIL. We went to do laundry and did not want to go home, she wanted to spend the night. So I let her. They did call about 11 saying that she was crying to go home, but my hubby told his dad it was cause she was really tired and wanted to sleep. Well we never heard anything after that, and I'm sure she fell asleep right away. It was nice cause I want her to get used to sleeping at other people houses by herself. My FIL was so excited when she told him that she wanted to spend the night, which was nice to see too. So I'll be going over there in a little bit to do more laundry and get her.

On another note, still no period. No cramping anymore. But the other night I did have some tenderness in my pelvic. No pms or anything like that. I'm so confussed. I can't remember for sure when I had my period last month, I know it was like the middle of the month, but it's alluding me at the moment. And I know that I ovulated about the 4th cause of watching the signs. So I'm going to wait another day or 2 and take another test to see if shows positive. So there, I'm just confused.

Feeling raw, beautiful Father's Day...

lillkatheryn — Mon, 16 Jun 2008 09:27:50 -0700

Well, as most of you know I've been having issues with my BIL's wife. I've tried to be nice to her, sent her a couple texts telling her that I want to know what happened between us, and that when she wants to talk I'm here. I've sent texts to say hi and how are the babies. And nothing, no ok, fine, thank you, nothing. So Sat night I started to think about all that has happened and just started to pray. I was crying and asking why does it have to be like this? What do I do, why can't we just be civil (well I am), but you know what I mean? I cried to release the pain that I have built up over the past few years and cried. I cried and prayed for like 2 hours or more. Then hubby came home and asked what was wrong. I didn't want to tell him cause when I do he gets all mad and is like just ignore her, yadda yadda yadda, which only makes me feel worse about it all, like it's my fault. But not then, he was really sweet about it. He told me of course to not let it get to me, but I told him that the stuff she says and does really hurts. Especially when she is "mean" to kathy, by that I mean she ignores her. He was very comforting and reassuring and he told me the real reason she is like that towards me. Even though she will say all kinds of other things to people, to make it seem like I'm the one who is the one being mean. My SIL has told me that everyone one can see how she is and knows that I'm not like that and that she acts weird to everone now and then. So after talking to him I felt much better. So yesterday I was feeling pretty raw about the whole thing, and pretty anxious about going to my SIL for Father's Day and she would be there too. I was still very anxious though about how she would be at my SILs house, especially after sending the texts and such and it being a while since I've seen her for more then a minute. Well everything was just wonderful! When she got there I said hello, and hi to the baby. Then I went off with my babies. She went off and hid and it was just like that. We did not talk at all, and that was just fine as she did not try to do anything other then clean and cook. I did get to hold my nephew for a while which was really nice, twice actually! He's a chunky boy! Then at the end we were sitting next to each other, and near each other and it was nice. She normally never goes near me! So I look at it as a start, though I don't know what it will be like next time. And really at this point I don't care.

So at my SILs house we celebrated Fathery's Day for all the dads. The whole family got together and we ate Carne Asada, chicken, potatoe salad, rice, beans, salsa, guacamole...It was really nice. Kathy had fallen asleep before we got there( we were the first to arrive at my SILs, like normal) and say her sleeping. It was so funny as she fell asleep sitting in the chair eating an orange! I want to get the video, and I'll try to post it here. It is to funny! So once everyone came we ate and just hung out. All my neices were asking me when Kathy was going to wake up cause they all wanted to play with her. They kept asking me like every 5mins. It was really cute. Well finally she did wake up, but was still very sleepy and wanted to be with just daddy and I. So for like an hour we had to hold her until she woke up enough to eat. She ate some with daddy and then she was off, wanting to be with her aunts. After that she went and played with her cousins until we left. It was a really nice day and alot of fun. I did not do a whole lot, just sat and talked a little, though honestly most was a blurr...but still all a great time! I hope all you had a great Fathers Day!

Kathy's gone, still not period...

lillkatheryn — Sat, 14 Jun 2008 09:11:59 -0700

Ok, well my SIL just picked up Kathy. This is the longest that she will be away from us ever! Even when I was in the hospital the week before my son was born she still saw daddy everyday. It's going to be great cause my SIL and I both told her that she was spending the night and she can't cry to come home. I know she will before bed, but that's what I like about my SIL, she won't give in and she is great at getting both my girl and neice to behave. I trust her with my life! So we are going to her house tomorrow afternoon for Father's Day and that's when we'll see Kathy and take her home tomorrow night.

On another note, still no period. I took a test a few days back, but it was negative. I have been cramping since that day where it hurt like the dickens. I'm thinking about getting another test to take today to tomorrow. I should have gotten my period by now, but I'm not feeling anything, either from my period or if I were preggy. Though it would be really early if it was from being preggy. Anyway, I also started getting pains in my ovaries, just like when I got preggy with my babies. So we'll see. But I will keep you all posted.

Oh how embarassing!

lillkatheryn — Fri, 13 Jun 2008 14:47:49 -0700

Well we took a wonderful walk up to the bakery and ate lunch. Had the best chicken strips ever! lol. Then we went over to see if the firetrucks were out, but they were not, so we went to get Kathy some nice church shoes. After that we went to the store to get some toilet paper and that's when it happened! We went to get the paper and they had two different kinds. One 6 pack that was green, and one 12 pack that was pink. The 6 pack was about $1.50 less, and I did not have enough money to get the other one. Well, my daughter wanted the pink pack. I told her that we can't get it as I don't have enough money. So what did she decide to do? Scream, and I mean at the top of her lungs! There was a lady there and as we walked by she made a comment about my girl crying. How embarassing, and she said in spanish, probably thinking I did not understand her. lol little did she know, but I said nothing and kept going down the isle. Well little miss cheeky chops decided that she would put her feet on the floor so I could not push the stroller and kept screaming she wanted the pink toilet paper. UGH!!! I told her that I was going to buckle her in cause she was not listening and trying to get out. That only made like 6 people come over to stare as what I was doing. Not once did I raise my voice, but instead kept telling her that we could not get the pink paper. And all this while trying to buckle her in, only having her go ridgid. What fun that was...If you have ever had your child do this you know how strong they are and how hard is it to get them to sit and get the buckle on before they can move. It's almost impossile! Well got her buckled and paid for the stuff, all the while she is still screaming for the paper! Then we get outside and we are walking back and she is crying to see her dad. well, as we are crossing the street she decides to slide as far down as she can and stop the stroller, right in the middle of the street. I yelled at that time for her to stop it and told her "What are you thinking? You can't stop the stroller in the middle of the road we could get hit." UGH!!!!!!! Then we get back over to the bakery and I call hubby for him to come out and tell her that she needs to listen. Of course what happens? I get yelled at by him! Uh HELLO THERE GENIUS IT'S NOT MY FAULT. I tell him what happened and he tells me to stop it! GRRRRRRR!!! How I wanna kick his pants for that. He's mad at me instead of backing me up with her attitude, then my SIL comes out and I tell what happened and she sits and talks to Kathy. I told her how embarrased I was for behavour and my SIL told Kathy that she has to be good for me and listen to me. After all that we walked back home and now she is in her bed relaxing, thank God. Oh what a day and it's only 2.30! I'm done, I just hope that she is better behaved the rest of the night, especially when we go to church.

My SIL did say that she would get my girl tomorrow and take her to play at her house, and then spend the night. We are going there on Sunday for Father's Day, so I'll Kathy then. It'll be nice cause my girl needs to get used to going over to other peoples houses (family) to play and sleep over. She went to my other SIL yesterday, but my SIL did not listen to what I asked her to do and Kathy started to cry, so she called my hubby to come pick her up. I told hubby that she was fine, just that her sis needed to do what I asked, and to put her to bed at a certain time, but she did not. Anyway, Kathy passed out on the car ride home....But tomorrow my other SIL will take her, and I know she will not be coming home as my SIL makes them stay...she did this with my niece D and has not had a problem since....

OMG!!! My SIL is not perfect!

lillkatheryn — Wed, 11 Jun 2008 14:50:38 -0700

Ok, as most of you know I have had issues with my BIL wife. Well yesterday I had a revelation and it really has made me smile. MY SIL IS NOT PERFECT!!! You have no idea how that makes me feel. Every time for the past 4 years I have gone to her house and it's been spotless. Everything in it's place, the floor clean as clean can be. No dust, no clothes anywhere. The bedrooms perfect with everything put away, not even a rinkle on the bedlinen. Well, that all changed yesterday. I'm trying to be mean, but it's like she is finally acting like a human being/mom/person and not like she is better then everyone else. Yesterday I went to her house and the shoes where everywhere, there was clothing on the floor in her room, the babies were actually playing with the toys and the bed looked ruffled. The floor was all dirty. It made me think, OMG SHE IS NOT PERFECT!!! For these past few years I've always viewed her as the perfectly dressed, perfect house, perfectly dressed babies. Outside of the parenting (or lack of discipline, really) she has always come across as being perfect in everything. Always making food for hubby when he just gets home, laundry done all nice and neat, you get the idea. But yesterday made me look at her differently.

Addition:

So I keep thinking this over and over in my head and I just laugh because it's like, how rediculus was I to think that way. And in a round about way, takes her off that "I'm better then you" pedistal. I don't know, but my heart has been lighter after seeing that and acknowledging that no matter how hard she tries, she is just like me not perfect, lol.

Yeah me!!!

lillkatheryn — Mon, 09 Jun 2008 20:46:21 -0700

Well, as most of you know we own our own bakery. I've been the computer guru for the company as well as the final opinion for managerial and the look of much of the bakery. Why? Cause my hubby has been gracious enough to take my opinion into heavy consideration when planning new specials, changing the look of things and how to handle the employees as well as how to carry himself. I love helping him when it comes to making the bakery work better, run smoother and help creating the "specials". Its the least I can do since I'm not working at the moment and am unable to work at the bakery for any real length of time due to caring for our babies.

That is what I truely wanted to do ever since I was a little girl. I wanted to stay home and raise the babies and take care of the house. Though it seems to have gotten out of hand for a while, during my second pregnancy (due to preterm labour and bedrest) I have slowly regained my control over house and home. I spoke to my hubby the other day about me going back to school. I'm thinking either kindergarden or pre-school teacher or Neonatal Nurse. He said "no". Mainly because he wants me to take care of the babies, and I think he secretly likes me being home all the time. Though he will never admit it, he likes coming home and knowing that we are there and have us great him and the smell of clean. Which I'm also working on to organize the house really nice and complete to make it easier for me. I hate just to throw things into a box and call it clean. It just means it's going to be hard to actually look for something later. Plus Kathy is getting to the point where she needs to learn how to clean and organize properly as well as the importance of keeping a clean house. Though she seems to have hit that "no, I dont' wanna do it" stage. She really likes to help me clean and I try to make it fun for her. So I'm working on it, making a nice chart with stickers so she can continue to earn her money. She has earned $10 so far! That's really good for an almost 3yr old. And we are learning how to save it as well.

Anywho, I'm hoping to continue to do the designs for the specials for the bakery as I really enjoy using the program photoshop and can do things really well on it. I'm still trying to find some balance though between the babies and cleaning and just trying to have fun and not get grumped out all at the same time....Any tips?????

Update: and some news....

lillkatheryn — Sun, 08 Jun 2008 21:59:37 -0700

Well, after a wild week going to the E.R and have a sick little girl, I'm glad to say that she is much better. Still a little pain when going pee, but it should be better very soon. Got to spend Sat with hubby which was really nice and 2 of my SILs came over for a bit. Getting excited about the coming week as I should be getting some gift cards in the mail, so I can go and buy some thing for the house and myself.

So the news....I don't want to jump to any conclusions, and it will still be about another week before I can know for sure, but I may be having my 3rd baby. I have not said anything to hubby or the family, but I have to tell someone! lol. I felt that oh now familiar pain of what I had with my son. The implatation sting. I don't know it that was it for sure, but it certainly felt like it. So, maybe, maybe not going to have the next one. Ok, now I feel better, I got that off my chest...Either way, i'm happy. But have the funny feeling....

On another note, I went to church today, the first time in a long time. It was so nice. My girl went to class and my son to the nursery. I was very fulfilling and they really had a great time. And I have to say the best part was I felt free. My MIL usually goes there as well, but today she was not there, which I think also helps.

I often feel self concious when my in-laws are around. Like they are going to judge me if I do something or don't do something. I cant' explain it, but it's just there, like I need their approval for how I act, sing and behave in church. Or anywhere, really. Hmm, chalk that feeling up to my step-father who was less then approving of me growing up and very quick to tell me when I was doing something wrong, never telling me good job or that all that mattered was that I did my best. Nope, for him it had to be perfection or complete failure...Oh, how painful that is even today to talk about it. Bringing tears to my eyes cause of the hurt and pain that I still carry with me in my heart. I often wonder what it would be like if I could rid myself of this pain, this anger that I still carry with me. And because of growing up like this I take what people say about me so personally that I will beat myself down when my hubby gets upset with me,even over something so little like the dishes being dirty, or not understanding him on the phone. Oh the skeletons we keep in our closet, hiding them from those we love as we dont' want them to see our pain....Why is that? I'm just mubleing, but maybe this will help heal me in some way that I can release this pent up hidden pain, and truely be free....

UGHH, 2 trips to the ER to find out why my baby girl is sick...

lillkatheryn — Wed, 04 Jun 2008 14:13:01 -0700

well the past few days have been a whurl wind! Two days ago I took my daughter to the E.R. on request of her doctor because of having what looked like a rash on her leg, and a fever. We both thought it may be a staph infection and it is the size of her entire buttock and thigh. Turned out we were right and they gave me some cream and antibiotics. Well, went to her doc (for my son) and talked to her doc about what they did at the E.R. She was very concerned about it going into her blood stream and causing other problems. As well as having the fever at the same time. Well last night she stopped responding to the tylenol for the fever and was in terrible pain. I then thought maybe it's menagitis, because of her complaining so much of her head hurting in the back, her high fever and vomiting and wanting to vomit. So we go back to the E.R and they did an I.V and too some blood. They are doing a blood cult and checked her out. It showed that she had a bad infection somewhere. So after the urine cult, we find out that they has a horrible UTI in the Kidneys and bladder. Poor baby they gave her lots of fluids and a dose of Rocefin, which if any of you have had for PID it's very strong and very powerful! So today she is doing much better and we are going to continue on the meds from the other day. Mikey had to spend the night at Grandma's because we did not get home until 1am. But he slept really well, which made me feel much better. So I'm hoping the rest of the week is nice and quiet.

Awsome day at the park, my hang-over....lol

lillkatheryn — Sun, 01 Jun 2008 19:48:30 -0700

Well yesterday my hubby got to take the whole day off. It was really nice. It's the first Saturday in like months for him to be able to take the whole day to spend with us. Since it was so nice we were able to the park. Pretty much the whole family came and we had a B-B-Q with meat and watermelon, chips and salsa, so yum! I took a million pictures of everyone. It was really sunny and just perfect that we stayed for a nice length of time. I was really happy cause my niece got to go, the one who's mom and I kinda off. I took a video and pic of her playing with my girl and sent them to her parents, they loved them. I'm really glad as I want my SIL to see how wonderful they are together and how much I love having my neice over and with us. And sending it to my BIL shows him the same and also lets him see that I'm trying, to disprove anything his wife might say. It was really tough though because my neice wanted to come home with us to spend the night, she is really becoming clingy to me. Like I'm becoming her second mom. She even runs to me now when someone tells her she can't do something, or when she gets upset. But it was a great day, and sadly I got sunburned. My babies got a little red as well, though nothing like me, and I'm not light. I have a nice perminant tan, thank God for this LA weather, lol. But this morning I woke up really tired and hung-over from the sun. I could feel it in my eyes as well, as they hurt and feel really dry. So I spent the morning just taking cat naps with my son. He is still hurting from the stomach flu. My daughter was good for the most part, though I came out a few times because of her getting into things she is not supposed to. So I went out and bougt locks for the frige, that's her favorite place to go. Next is locking the cabinets with the food in them...Boy do they grow up fast. Well that's all for now....

My puppy passed away

lillkatheryn — Tue, 27 May 2008 10:16:01 -0700

My mom just called me to tell me that my puppy dog had to be put to sleep. She told me that they found a large mass in her abdomen and surgery was not an option. My puppy had been very sick for some time, since I went to visit her in April. She was getting old, 13years, but we never thought that it would be like this. Her name was Disreali, and she was always there when I came back home, whether it was months or years since I've seen my puppy, she always remembered me and would stay by my side. So today I'm very sad as my puppy is no longer here. My daughter asked me why I was crying and I told her the best way I could. She loved playing with the puppy when we went to visit my mom in April. So she remembers her and she told me not to cry, lol.

On top of this we are all sick today and had little sleep last night. My son kept me up alot last night waking and wiggling cause he was not feeling well. Kathy is much better today, she has the cold, but no more diahrea ATM. And she is going pee again, thank God. That really worried me yesterday. So I'm off to try and rest.

Both babies sick?!?

lillkatheryn — Mon, 26 May 2008 14:17:48 -0700

Ok, well my daughter has been suffering from a stomach flu for about 5 days now. She has thrown up only twice, but has has awful explosing diareah! So bad that the other morning she woke up crying because it leaked out of her pull-ups and all over her and her bad. The worst part is it does not smell like poop. Gross I know, but you all know that we take notice of how our babies smell, everything. And this was not a normal smell, it smelled like vomit, but it was the poo. Which leads me to think that whatever she eats is getting dumped right into her bowels and then comes right out. Poor dear, she does not want to eat either, though I've been trying to keep fluids in her, but it's not alot. And now my son is showing signs of it too with an explosion up his back! He's been fuss, but still eating. Though he's been feeling very gassy today.

Oh the joys of kids! I just don't want hubby or I to get it as then it will make things really bad. Esp for hubby, he won't be able to work at the bakery as it would pose a contamination issue.

On a happier note, we got a new camera. After having the first one broken mysteriously, hubby went out and got a really nice Nokia. It's a digital SLR, that can be auto or manual. And he got an extra lens with it. I really like, I'm playing with it alot and finding out what everything does. Really nice. Here are some pics.

This is punkin

my son protesting his crib

And the ones of the girls are with the new camera. He says it's for the bakery and us, but I know it's going to be with me alot, lol! I have to have lots of pics of the babies.

A BIG Thank YOU!!! TO all my minti Friends, and those who have been thinking of my neice

lillkatheryn — Sun, 25 May 2008 17:23:13 -0700

I can't thank you all enough, all of you who have sent us well wishes and have had my neice in your thoughts. She is recovering well. She was able to come home on Say, yesterday, and was looking good. She could not talk well and was in pain at times, but I'm so thankful for her being healthy. So again, thank you to all of you!

On another note, my neice got to come over to our house to play with Kathy. She is the same age as her, I'm sure many of you know her mom and I are kinda on the outs with each other, though I don't know why. Anyway, we were at my MIL yesterday and we were getting ready to leave and she started to cry to come to our house. So my eldest SIL called her brother and told him and he said ok. Well they had a blast! They were playing so well together, they took a bath and ate like angels. Though I have to tell you they did get into the markers. They wanted to put on makeup to go to a party, well they did it all over their faces! OMG, I have to upload the pics for you to see....I went to check on them cause they were quiet and found them in the closet hiding. Of course my first reaction was "OH NOOOO!!!", and then I took the markers from them and wiped their faces. I had to laugh as my FIL was there with hubby and I. What a sight. I then told my hubby that I did not want my SIL to get mad at me cause of what happened and make it into a big deal and use it to keep my neice from coming back over. But I don't really think I should worry as my neice cries now when she wants to come over, so I can use that to tell my SIL that she wants to and help encourge for them to play more together.

My Neice

My Daughter

Update: My Niece's surgery

lillkatheryn — Fri, 23 May 2008 12:06:02 -0700

I just talked to my SIL and she said that everything went great. They are watching her heart for the next several hours to make sure nothing happens. She is on morphine for the pain, but other then that she is great. My SIL will let me know when they go up to the room in the Peds. A big thank you to all thoughs who had her in your thoughts and prayers. Thank you for all the well wishing and good vibes you sent our/her way!

Tomorrow my neice has surgery....

lillkatheryn — Thu, 22 May 2008 22:42:43 -0700

And I'm starting to get a bit anxious about it. She is only having her tonsils taken out, but even something routine like that can become life threatening for her. She has a condition that affects her heart, and even the littlest cold can cause her heart to become overworked and go into heart failure. She is only 7 and she has already had many surgeries and longs stays in the hospital. Last year, before my son was due she went into the hospital because of weakness. We quickly found out that her heart was about to fail! She was put into the Ped ICU and was there for about 3 weeks or so. It was awful as we did not know what happened and if she would recover, or how long it would take for her to get well again. She had to be put on medication to slow her heart down and medication to keep her heart from working to hard so that it had time to recover. And all this from first catching a cold! I remember I was in the hospital a few days before she went home in preterm labour. She got to come to my room in her cool car wrapped with the ballons that her sis decorated it with for her birthday just a fews days before. Thinking about it know, makes me cry. She is just one of those wonderful children who are so strong, and it seems so unfair for her to have to go thru the rest of her life with this condition.

Anyway, I know I'm going to be just as nervose as the rest of family waiting for her to come out of the Operating Room. Please keep her in your thoughts tomorrow. I love her terribly, and she needs the operation so that she can breath at night, and I just hope that it goes smoothly and there are no complications.

Update: my MIL...it happened again

lillkatheryn — Wed, 21 May 2008 17:01:04 -0700

I talked to my MIL today to see how she was doing. She told me that this morning when she woke up and went to the bathroom it happened again. She could not breath and thank God that her daughter was there. They called the doctor and said that it sounds like a severe allergy to something, but what? I'm thinking bleach or of the sort, but I really can't tell you. It is a chemical though as she was in the bathroom, her room and the laundry room when it happened. This is really scary as this is an anaflaxtic reaction, all 4 times! She is supposed to see a specialist to find out what it is and what she can do. I just hope that she does not have an attack when no one is around.

MIL at home, inspection at the bakery

lillkatheryn — Wed, 21 May 2008 12:21:57 -0700

Well my MIL was able to come home last night. She was in the hospital for one day and she is much better. We are stumped at what it was that caused it. My SIL and I think a possible clot, but can't say for sure. Hope not though as it could be there are end up somewhere else. I'm not ready to lose her yet, I love her to much! But she is much better and at home resting today, thank God.

Hubby told me that the inspector is there today. I know it will go well, I just hope that he does not stress to much over it. I should here the results in a few. Other then that not much else. I hope to see my MIL tomorrow, I want her to rest alot and make sure that she gets better.