fi xoxoxo

                                            Well it has been a while since I last blogged. Miss M has been keeping me on my toes that's for sure. Add Miss G to the mix and life certainly hasnt been dull to say the least!

Miss M is growing so fast and is just beautiful. She's 3 months old and going great guns. She has quite a little personality and the most endearing smile. I just adore her to bits!!!! Her first tooth is on it's way and she is very determined to get up and moving. All she wants to do is crawl, talk and be apart of it all. Miss M adores her big sister and likewise from Miss G. Miss M is quite happily waking me up at around 4:00 am every morning for the first feed of the day bless her. We kind of have a routine going but my main aim at the moment is to try and get her to sleep through the night...... wish me luck on that one! Then it will be conquering sleeping in the cot..... now that one will be a battle. Not only does Miss M love sleeping in bed with us there is a very proud Dad that loves having her there as well. We have the cot beside the bed so I'm going to be attempting to get her in the cot over the next few months. I love her to bits but I also love sleeping on my own!!!!!

Miss G recently turned OMG my little girl has grown up so much and is starting to turn into a little lady. She is doing quite well at school except on the Maths front. She has always struggled but now it seems to be getting a little bit worse. I have been talking to her teacher about it and he's been helping where he can. Jd and I have been looking around for a tutor for her. We have tried ourselves but she just wont listen. She sits there and rolls her eyes, rolls around on the floor or sits there and stares off into space. I can understand where she's coming from as I was terrible at school myself and really didnt give a rats about it!! Miss G can also have quite a lovely little attitude when she chooses to!!! We have had quite a few little discussions over the last little while. The amount of back chatting one little girl can do is astounding!!!!!

Jd...... is not here!!! He left for Cairns today and is currently steaming north towards the Torres Straits. Yep, he's gone fishing again. It was really hard saying good bye to him yesterday but I am still standing strong. There were a few tears shed on both sides. I could see his heart breaking as he said good bye to Miss M, then Miss G and then me. There was more than a tear in his eye as he placed Miss M in her car seat. Hugs with Miss G and then it was our turn. It's a shit situation but it has to be done. We need the money and finding work around here is next to impossible. We have mounting bills and we both want to get it all sorted. How long he's gone for I'm not sure. How much he is hurting being away from Miss M.... I know it's tearing him apart and it's only day 1!!!!! We are both hoping that the skipper is right when he says they are catching well. We have a magic dollar amount and the better they catch, the better pay, the faster he's home. So it's house full of girls at the moment!!!! I'm doing suprisngly well on my own... maybe I needed the break from him lol. I shed a few tears yesterday and a couple of times today but on the whole I'm doing ok. It's the quiet moments that can really suck.......

Sorry it's taken me a while to blog but I should hopefully have a little bit more time in the near future.

Love to all,

fi and the girls xoxox

A great big HELLO from Miss M to all of Mum's minti friends...... that's my girl!!!!!

Miss M showing off....

Miss G already for Heritage Day....

Most of you know that I was pretty crook there for a while and then I fell pregnant. Got through the pregnancy and now 9 weeks later...... I have had constant horrible headaches.. my excuse,lack of sleep and hormones. I keep having little dizzy spells and I have become more confused than normal. I am very forgetful and really just thought it was tiredness thanks to a bub and a 9 year old. Then on Saturday something went a little funky with my vision while I was out shopping with G. Starting seeing all weird and wonderful colours.. all blury. Again, put it down to tiredness etc. Sunday jd noticed that I had a burst blood vessel in my eye (yes jd is still here and didnt go fishing). Was a little annoying but nothing else really. Woke up Monday and my eye was really sore and the blood has spread. So I went to the doc and the next thing I know I have an appointment with an eye specialist. That appointment was today and little did I know that this appointment could potentially change my life.

The specialist has given me drops to help clear up my eye but he ordered blood tests. Who would of thought for an eye anyway. The reasons for the blood tests........... what's going on with my eye (it does have a name but I can't remember the exact word sorry) is a symptom of something else going on inside me. There are a few possibilites apparently but the main suspects are.... chrons disease, athritis, blood disorder and brain tumour or some sort of pressure on the brain. The specialist is being very cautious in telling me what's going on (makes me more suspicious) but he wants me to take it easy. I go back to see him in a weeks time but if anything changes I'm to go straight to hospital or back to him. He thinks that there is some level of athritis going on which could explain a few things but he is waiting for the results. I told jd that i was going to the shop but I didn't. I was sent off for a scan of my brain. (sorry manda for not say anything). I get the results tomorrow. I havent said anything to jd and I wont be until I know what the results are. I really dont want him to worry or stress out. I need him to be well rested to look after bubs and miss g.

So everyone please...... if you think or feel that somethings wrong with your health then please PLEASE get it checked out. Sometimes the simplest things can be symptoms of other things.

love to all,

fi xoxo

Here is my happy little bubba!!!!!!

         Wow time really can fly!!! Miss M is now 8 weeks old and just adorable. She is one pretty happy bubba except for yesterday when the immunisation needles came out!!! Actually she was a little champion and the moment we were out the door she was back to smiling and laughing like nothing had ever happened. Miss M is sleeping quite well and still will give me the odd whole night sleep woohoo. Her favourite thing in the whole world (besides me and jd of course) is laying on her playmat and talking to her toys. Loves a good chat does Miss M... I wonder where she gets that from lol.

Miss g.... where to start???? She's 9 in just over a week and that's the nice part.... she has been giving us hell to put it politely. I understand a lot of is attention seeking but some of the things that have been coming out of her mouth OMG!!!!! It is like have a 16 year old in a 8 year olds body. I really was hoping that she would of settled down by now but nooooooooooo she's only pushing me more and more. I don't know where my beautiful little girl has gone. We have always been extremely close but at this point in time we couldnt be more far apart.

Jd........ ok we've had our fights and a couple of whoppers but we seem to be a little more on track now. The thing is he is off fishing again so as of tomorrow I'm on my own. This time is a little more difficult... I know no one in this town and mum is 2000 km's south of me. I'm fairly sure that I can cope but there is also this little niggling feeling that I wont be able too....

Hope all is well with you all,

fi xoxoxoxo

Miss g has seemed to of settled into her new school and has made friends with the kids across the road. My baby girl is going to be 9 soon OMG. She has grown up so much and so fast. I miss my little girl :( I didnt say she could grow up now did I.... She loves her little sister and I have to say has been a great help to her mum. Miss m is amazed at her big sister lol and miss g just takes it all in her stride. She has taken on the role as big sister very seriously. I know she is missing spending time with me and I am trying my hardest to spend time with her. We'll get there eventually!!!

As for me, well...... it's back to feeling very ill all the time. So many doctors said to me that once I gave brith that I would be fine. No more nausea, no more pills... well it's all back but this time worse (didnt think it was possible lol). They have also taken me off the waiting list for the operation that I need. Some bright spark of a doctor that I have never met has decided that my condition is no longer in need of investigation. That means back to the drawing board. More doctors, more pointless tests and more waiting... first waiting to get on the waiting list, the waiting on the waiting list. After nearly 7 years of feeling like this you reckon someone would have some idea.... apparently not! So I'm going to try and see the doc tomorrow and get myself back on the anit nausea meds.

Hope everyone is safe and well. Been thinking of you all,

fi xoxox

P.S  I did try and upload some pics but the puter said no. Will try again soon sorry xoxox

Let's do a little rewind here....... Miss Madelaine decided that the due date of the 9th of January was not to her liking at all. She much prefered staying where she was. The last couple of weeks were not enjoyable at all for me and yep I was a mess. I hadn't slept for more than an hour a night for over a month, my back was killing me, I could hardly move, chronic heartburn...... the list was endless. The midwives I saw did take pity on me but no one was willing to induce me until the 21st of January OMG I fell apart. What it really go down to was the lack of beds available at the hospital. So all we could do was wait and wait and wait. Monday the 19th came round and was my designated rest day. I had planned to get up on Tuesday do all the housework, pre cook come meals etc ready to go to hospital on the Wednesday. Early Tuesday morning, around 3 am I started to feel a little more off than usual. I knew that something was up but considering I had been having contractions off and on for weeks I thought nothing more of it. 7 am rolled around and there was no denying it, I was in the early stages of labour. Although, I was doing a fantastic job of being in denial lol!!! Jd took me to the hospital at around 9:30, saw the midwife and was told that I was maybe 1 cm dialated. They said I could stay or go home, home for me thank you very much. So spent the day doing some odd jobs, trying to rest and ignoring the fact that I was in labour haha. 4 pm and I had another a show (oh had a couple of other shows through out the day) and I then could not sit still. All I could do was walk around and rub my back. Prepared miss g a really quick dinner and kept on pacing. Jd was brilliant and kept rubbing my back for me bless his cotton socks. 8 p.m rolled around and got miss g into bed. The contractions were pretty intense by that stage and the need to push was starting to happen. Went off and put myself in the shower...... the one place where I could usually get some relief.... not this time. Got myself dressed, walked out and said to jd "I think it's time to call the hospital". That was it, he was up and at em! He got miss g out of bed for me and then rang the hospital. By this stage my contractions were about 3 mins apart..... the hospital wanted me to go in via Ambulance as we live 1/2 an hour away. I looked at Jd and said "Right let's get in the car". The look on his face was priceless. We drove to the hospital in record time... ok so we had to run a couple of red lights and Jd was going slightly faster than the 100 km/h speed limit hehe. I knew we'd make it there in time. Presented ourselves to emergency who then quickly went and got a midwife. Boy did I cop it for not coming in via Ambulance lol!!! Then a round of applause from them and the emergency staff!!!! Went into the birthing room while jd and miss g parked the car and got my stuff out. I'm sure Jd had about 50 ciggies as well lol. Checked bubs heart rate and it was perfect. What was not so perfect was the fact that the only pain relief option for me was a hot shower.... oops left the run to the hospital a little to late BUGGER!!! The contractions were really intense by this stage and my back was killing me. Miss g was starting to get a little scared but bless my brave girl hung in there. Jd was just marvelous. He was so calm and rubbing my back the whole lot. The contractions were now coming about 2 mins apart and I told Jd to take miss g to the waiting room. I knew miss worn was not to far away. I was screaming (how embarressing!!!). My back was well...... there are no words to describe the pain. So there I was on all fours on the bed, head shoved into the pillow SCREAMING!!!! What a site I must of been!  Then all of a sudden I felt the midwife hold my right butt cheek..... ok that was just weird. There I was screaming in pain and she was holding my butt cheek WTF????? She said to me "hang on a minute hunni this might hurt a little".... yay more pain!!! Miss worm had popped my hip out. Oh the joy!!! Unfortunately, the midwfe popped it back in just as another contraction hit. Well, the whole hospital knew about that let me tell you. I felt the need to push and even though she said not to push, bugger it I did. She hit the button for another midwife to come in, Miss worm was nearly here! By hitting the button, a bell rings and Jd knew that if he heard the bell that his daughter would soon be here. They broke my membranes for me and 4 good pushes later there she was, laying on the bed beneath me, screaming her little lungs out!!! They lifted her up, I laid down and she was placed on my chest. Jd came in the room about 2 minutes later. The look on his face I will never forget. We both fell instantly in love with wormy. She was perfect. All pink, 10 fingers, 10 toes, a little bit of fluffy hair. Miss g came in once I was cleaned up and met her little sister for the first time. She was amazed lol!!! So ladies and gents on the 20th of January 2009 at 11:30 p.m Miss Madelaine Kate arrived. She came in weighing a lovely 7 pound 12 oz and 50 cm long. She is a determined little thing and brings us great joy. Jd is besotted by her and has been more than a help to me. He's cleaned the house, washed and made bottles, loves the nappy changes and feeding. Gets up in the middle of the night the whole lot. Miss M really is his world and it's so lovely to watch. She is growing rapidly and is a real "mini Jd" lol!!!! Not really a fan of sleeping, there's to much to see and do lol!!!

Thank you very much to all that have left us the best wishes and love. Due to our own economic crisis, our net was disconnected and the bill was rather large. However, I'm back for the time being......... the only difference is I'm a mum of 2 little girls.... yes, I'm still coming to terms with that rofl! Must dash and pick up miss g from school so sorry people, pic will have to wait till later (I know, I'm a big meanie hehehe). Thank you all once again and I have missed and thought about you all often.

Much love to all,

fi (I gave birth with no pain relief OMG), Jd (1 very proud Dad), Miss G (my little star) and Miss M (here, FINALLY and a great source of joy) xoxoxoxoxo

  Here she is everyone!!!! Miss M at 3 days old!!!!! We think she's pretty dam cute lol!!!!

fi xxoxox

I hope everyone had a wonderful new years and from my little family to all of you, may 2009 be the year where all your hopes and dreams are fufilled.

love to all,

fi, miss g, jd and wormy (COME ON WORMY)

love to you all,

fi (fat and frustrated), miss g ( jd's number 1 fan), jd (one anxious dad to be) and miss worm ( stubborn, large and in charge!) xoxoxxoxoxoxo

1. "You really are getting big aren't you?" (No shit sherlock I'm 38 weeks pregnant!)

2. "Try not to be a wimp" (In relation to giving birth... I'd like to see him try and do it!)

3. "Yeah you have put on some weight now" (Ummm ever heard of retaining water looser)

4. "It can be hard to sleep at night when you're belly keeps pushing me out the way!" (Here's a tip looser, try sleeping with the belly attatched to you! GRRRRRR )

5. "Wow you really do waddle" ( I'd like to see you carry this child without waddling... a little bit different from having a beer gut YOU KNOB!!!!)

6. "Wish you would hurry up and have this kid, I need to get back to work". (Sure, how's Tuesday say 4:00? Does that suit you you wanker?)

So ladies feel free to add to the list of things NOT to say to a pregnant woman.... as you can see he's off to a flying start!

love to all,

fi xoxo

P.S Wormy is still inside baking away. I am one very tired, very, VERY frustrated pregnant woman!!!!!!!!!! AAAAARRRGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Time to be evicted..... WORMY!!!!!!

Now for the contractions..... well.... I woke up this morning (after about 2 hours asleep again GRRR) with the feeling something was up. I felt terrible this morning and ended up having to go back to bed. I couldn't sleep though...... the pain was so intense. I rested for as long as I could. Miss worm is giving me more grief than usual and is soooooooooooooo low sheesh. There is all the signs of early labor going on, whether or not it stays around is another thing. There is one thing for certain, it's going to be a long night for me! Call it woman's intution but this arvo I got up and scrubbed the house, finished off some more unpacking, made sure the pantry and fridge were stocked, watered the plants........... something was telling me that I needed to get all of this done cos worm's not to far away from coming. I'll be relieved if she is cos the the thought of feeling like this for the next two weeks doesn't thrill me at all. I'm more than happy that I made it to 38 weeks so come on wormy time to let me see what you look like. Jd and miss g are on stand by and really he's getting more than excited about it all. I know he's nervous and anxious but I also know he'll be a great Dad. Something tells me that he's going to be a tad protective of miss worm. Miss g is more worried about me than anything else bless her. Oh and she doesn't want me staying in hospital cos it would mean she would have to look after jd rofl. I hope to be home as soon as I can (minimum is 6 hours after birth till they let you home) although a night in hospital sounds ok.... no meals to cook, no cleaning to be done, no snoring.... hmmmmmm maybe I need a re think hehe

I hope everyone had a lovely christmas and fingers crossed that wormy makes her arrival sooner rather than later.

love to all,

fi, miss g (the best helper ever), jd (one very anxious man) and wormy trying to wriggle her way out xoxoxox

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!

love,

fi, miss g ( Bring on Santa), jd ( loves his shed more than me lol), and wormy (the xmas elf/worm) xoxoxo

Take care all and remember christmas is just around the corner so lets share the love!

love to all,

fi, miss g (my little helper bless), jd ( the man can move stuff that's for sure) and wormy (swinging REALLY low) xoxoxoxo

love to all,

fi xoxo

So that takes care of the heat as for the ouch....... Miss worm decided yesterday that it would be most excellent to sit on the nerves in my groin and NOT MOVE. The top of my right leg is constantly aching, I can barely sit down and when I do getting back up again is really interesting. Walking is proving to be a challenge and laying down doesn't happen unless I have the worlds softest pillow between my legs. Then me being me decided to move some stuff around while jd was taking the first load up..... yeah good one. I've gone from moving slightly to barely moving at all. Why did I move this stuff??? That's the next paragraph lol. So miss worm has decided to move that little bit further down... anymore and I'd be holding her. I have given her strict instructions to stay where she is until after xmas but if she's anything like her Mother then that ain't gonna happen! I have my 36 week check up on Thursday so we'll just have to wait and see what the midwife has to say. I would really like to make it to 37 weeks but if they decide she's gotta come on out then.......

As for the mould....... when I moved into the place over a year ago there was a SLIGHT mould problem in the back sunroom. We just went through some of the worst storms that Noosa had ever seen so it was to expected that rain got into most places. Now the real estate agent assured me that it would be fixed the first week I moved in... well it wasn't. Anyway, the ceiling is about to collapse in there now, it stinks and it's probably a major health hazard. Add to that, the house has no drainage underneath it so when it rains the water just collects under there festering away so we also have a pretty big damp problem inside. This place has no storage so the only thing I could do was put some boxes in the sunroom but I thought it wouldnt matter cos they were coming to fix it.......... WRONG! I have now lost ALOT of memories. I have lost all of Miss g's baby stuff from the first day she was born, all the pic's she did for me from child care up until the age of 4, precious photo's that can't be replaced, alot of my childhhood things have also been destroyed. I was devastated when I saw it all. Alright, I bawled my eyes out and then I was mad. Why mad??? Well, my darling real estate has decided to get the room fixed now... only because I'm moving. The day after I gave them my notice to leave I get a phone call.... maintence man coming to look at the room. Out of nowhere he appears again on Friday to start repairs and then they're coming tomorrow to really start fixing it. Delightful considering I have told them that mould was worsening in there all year and they did nothing about it. The only reason they're doing it now is to get another tenant. I love being treated like a piece of shit all while paying $340 a week. This is why I'll be so glad to move. This place is like one of the one's you see on Today Tonight or A Current Affair. It was the only thing I could find at the time and there is no way I'll be sorry to see the back of this place. 

Well that's it for now.... time for me to try and do some more packing...... OUCH lol!!!

love to all,

fi xoxoxo 

It is sooooo hot at the moment and there is so much to do. We move on the 16th nearly 3 hours up the road OMG..... I've managed to pack a few things but next week it has to be all done ready to go on the following Tuesday. I'm looking forward to getting the hell out of this place. A lot of bad things have happened here and the amount of times that I've been screwed over by people here... well lets just say that a change is most definitely needed and wanted at this time. I should be packing right now but for the first time in weeks I actually have the house to myself YIPEE!!!! Miss g is back at school after having a throat infection at the beginning of the week and jd is off doing some work for a family friend. Don't get me wrong, I adore my man but absence does make the heart grow fonder believe me lol. So I'm going to enjoy some of this precious me time and then more packing.......... where's the packing fairy when I need her rofl.

Oh just before I go, when I picked up miss g from school yesterday one of her friends asked me how did the baby get in my tummy??? I was a little dumbfounded as to what to say. Never mind, she informed that she knew anyway..... by tablet pmsl. Apparently we swollow a pill and then the baby starts growing........ the things I learn from 8 year olds!!!

love to all,

fi, miss g, jd and the ever growing wormy xoxoxox

It has to be the people that make up the minti community. We all come from different backgrounds etc and have so much to offer. There is that certain "something" about this place that just keeps you coming back. Minti is a little like a rollercoaster.... never know what to expect!!!

2. Whats something funny thats happened to recently?

My daughter proudly announcing in the middle of the supermarket that butt has become big..... Oh how I love her!

3. What's a word your kid/s say/said that pronounces funny/cute??

Miss g is quite famous for her speech...... pelicans were pecilans, blueberries were blueblees and my all time favourite chipmunk was shitmut!!!! the list goes on and on lol

4. If you could be someone famous for a day who would it be and why??

Hmmmmm I'm already famous lol..... I'd be Uma Thurman... I've always liked her.

5. Sum up what minti means for you in 5 words

Laughter, Support, Friendship, Love, Craziness

fi xoxo