Then on top of all the constant demands I have the washing, folding, cooking(and the I dont like that), demands. 

Wow what a job us mums have.  And truely our only reward is the love at the end of the day.

Well I have had a really bad case of pnd.  Everything finally got to me.  Me getting sick with the flu, baby S getting sick and going to hospital and S#2 going to hospital to have his operation.  Such an emotional last couple of weeks.  I was on emotion overload and the top finally blew.  So for the last week I have been so angry with everyone and just yelling and screaming for no reason.  I am sure I am over the worst of it now and am coming out on top.

Hubby and I almost split up it was that bad.  The kids must of thought that mum was a physco crazy woman.  I only get pnd when i have baby boys.  Is that strange?

Everything was just out of my control, (I  think I'm a control freak, lol), the laundry was building up and no one had any folded clothes, I sat on the floor and cryed because I had to find baby S a suit to wear, the dishes kept building up and it felt like it never ended no matter how much I washed up.  S#4 got sick and started vomitting in her bed so that was more washing to do.  Hubby was not enjoying work for the week and his birthday is this Sunday and I have nothing planned and the house is a mess.  I didnt feel like I was getting any sleep even though most nights I was in bed by 9-30.  And I'm so stubborn that everytime hubby asked me to leave the house for a break I would refuse.

So I seen my mum today after having another fight with hubby and had a little cry and am feeling a little better, so I'm taking it a little at a time.

Isn't it funny how sometimes the closest person to you can try and tell you something that you know makes sense but doesnt seem to register in your brain, then somebody else can tell you the exact same thing but maybe in a different way and your whole life can change.

then they would only let one of us in to the theater room while he went off to sleep, so  i went, wow what an experience. they gased him and i was crying my eyes out. such an emotional moment. i left, they pulled his teeth, he woke up and was all fine. not what i was expecting from my sethie at all. he is such a sook when he is sick and he handled it like a champion. so now he has four front teeth missing till he is 8 or whenever those ones come through. my brave little boy.

he is starting to gurgle now and smile, he is such a sweet boy.

guess what? NOT FUNNY. you cant yell, which yeh is what i asked for help with, but i cant even be heard over Shamika crying. how do i get her to stop if she cant hear me?

so now im very frustrated with the whole situation and a friend of mine told me that hers lasted 2 weeks.  aaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhh.

So now im getting ready for the whole kindergarten school thing next year. so much stuff to go through just to enrol your child into school. and theres still 6 months before she goes. but had to enrol her now incase she misses a spot in a public school. and sabrina being sabrina she never stops talking about big school and when she gets to go. that girl can talk under water.

Seth is going through the whole new baby at home phase so i'll do what i can to get attention. even at daycare, so he has had to have extra attention for being a good boy to take the focus of being naughty.

Shamika has the same sore throat thing that i have but unfortunately she didnt lose her voice and she crys about one thing or another every couple of minutes because she isnt well.

Sasha is coming into her own now and is such a funny little character. she is using her words much more now and asking for things with hand movements and trying to voice what she wants. such a cutie.

Sebastian is on the bottle now as i had a sore breast and he was being very fussy about feeding. he is such a beautiful child. hardly ever crys and is so easy going. all the kids adore him and are forever asking for a nurse or to kiss and cuddle him.

Hubby is at work. lately seems like that is where he lives. i hardly see him as when he comes home, im so buggered that im passed out in bed and even if he talks to me im lucky to even reliase that he is there. he must get some funny conversations from me. im guess im just miss him.

me, im doing fine other than the throat thing. had a slightly bad day on friday. i went to the post office to post some stuff and pay a bill and the lady told me the price and i said to her shocked "to post that?" forgetting that i was also paying for a bill, felt like such a dick. then i ordered a chicken ceasar from our fave restaurant and asked could they meet me out the front due to all the babies and having to get them out of the car, he said no worries that will cost you an extra $17.50 and im like sorry an extra what? he goes an extra $***  nah im only joking. holy crap was it get donna day or what. now i know im blonde but bloody hell they sure got me on friday.

cheers thanks for listening

i know i dont have photos for u all yet but soon.  he has dark hair which is rapidly turning blonde just like his older brother, and omg he has such big feet for such a little boy wonder what that means lol. he has lovely blue eyes also just like his brother and his daddy and when he frowns it is just so cute. ok so im biased but hey isnt every parent. lol

all the kids love him and are so good with him. Sabrina just wants to nurse him all the time and Seth sings to him and Shamika is always saying to me " show me, show me" and Sasha isnt too sure  but she still touches him very gently on the tummy and they all give him kisses and cuddles, with mummy and daddy watching on of course.

anyways he is just gorgeous and i promise i will get photos on here soon.

EVERYBODY HAVE A FANTASTIC WEEK ON ME.

i cant believe how cold the weather got here so quickly, one minute it was warm and i reckon still would be if it was for the bloody wind.  Sabrina has ended up with a sore throat and is a bit sooky. our house has wooden floors and not sealed all to well so the wind blows up through the floor where there is no rugs.

anyways will keep u posted on how the baby goes over the week.

the other part of my anger is he had hubby time last night and now he gets hubby time tonight too. aaaaaaarrrrrrrrrgggggggghhhhhhhh. why r men so infuriating sometimes.  the other part is he cooked dinner and washed up, which believe me im grateful for, but why is it that men have to point out that that is what they have done. der, can we not see that. and now i get tomorrow and friday off from the kids and he has to work so we just havent seen each other. dont get me wrong i love hubby with every molecule in my body, just venting and if i cant do that with u guys then thats just bad luck hey.

anyways i had such a great day today. got a new babysitter spent about an hour with her while the kids got aquainted and then went out for about 2 hours and came home to a clean house(not toys and food everywhere). which meant i didnt have to spend the rest of the afternoon cleaning up after the babysitter. very important issue in my books. then hubby took Sabrina and Seth to the movies to see Shrek 3, so i got a couple of hours with Shamika and Sasha just to play and relax. It was wonderful.

And now everyone is in bed and im supposed to be making a teddy bear for my nephew but thought i would check the scene out here, cause hubby has gone for some hubby time which gives me some me time and all is so peaceful. WOW im enjoying this. i dont think i can remember when i have felt some calm and relaxed.

For some reason on Monday i layed on the lounge all day and i couldnt even tell u if i was awake or asleep. not good i know, but it obviously did me some good.

i also changed the lounge room and the babies room around yesterday and scrubbed the house top to bottom AGAIN, so come on ladies have a guess when is this baby coming to say hello to the world, im due on the 28th june.

ya'll have a great week/end. im going to.

Sabrina has tonsilitis. this i discovered today as her glands are swollen and when i looked in her mouth aaaarrrrrrhhhhhh disaster zone. poor little thing. i was 20 when i got mine out and that was bad enough. dean was also 20 so we both know the agony that this brings to an adult let alone a 4yr old. but she is strong and tough and i know she will manage.

so it was a busy day as Sabrina had hockey this morning and then the christening. by this afternoon all the kids were so tired they all just passed out when we got home a little after 6pm. yippee for me as hubby is at work.

the only problem(slight i hope) is that Sabrina has a mild temp. so hopefully she is not to bad. poor thing.

so anyways thats my day. the weather was good and all. hope whoever reads this has a good weekend too.

so sd still came down for her interview for a transfer and they told her there was no guarentee, but she quit her job in her home town anyway. then out of nowhere she rings this morning as we are about to go to hockey ( because we actually have a life that doesnt revolve around her like she thinks) and asks her dad if he could pick her up from some guys house and take her to the bus depot. so dad missed the hockey game bc he had to try and find her and she only gave an hour b4 she had to get on the bus. some people (both the mother and sd) just dont think about anybody but themselves.

the younger sister has been staying with her oldest sister for 2 weeks and this poor girl has a new born baby to deal and now is also having to look after her sister. once again the mother is a fwit. she doesnt deserve to have children let alone have 5 let alone she should never have given birth in the first place bc she doesnt care about any of these kids just lets them do what they want when they want and then blame the dad for all their faults.

thanks for listening needed to vent some steam.

so off to the hosp go to ed and they put me straight in only to tell me a couple of hours later that i have a severe migraine. they injected me with maxollyn.  did u know that this can cure ur migraine. i didnt. i thought it was just for vomitting.

as the saying goes u learn something knew everyday. i did.

my little boy turned 3 yesterday. yeh! they grow up so fast. he had  a great time. he went to daycare and spent the day with his friends and i made him a lion cake that they all enjoyed.

i dont have long till the baby is due. my hubby says the 1st june. i just dont have any idea.

Nothing else is happening around here though.  Pretty damn boring if u ask me.

Although i had this magnificent dog who went missing a year ago, and i swear i saw him the other day and am trying to follow up on it.  If it is him i would be so happy.  I miss him terribly and have been praying that he would come back to me and out of the blue i think i saw him in someone's car.  So  i managed to get their address and have been trying to see if it is him, no luck yet but im going to keep trying and hoping.