so i got a bit done about the house. i have a heap more washing to do still. thank goodness we have fine weather 90% of the week. so YAY. i threw out so much crap today. my bin is almost full with it. i still havent done the toys. :( will do them tomorrow when i get home.

well the minti meet is tomorrow. i am nervouse as i only know Becca and Lynette by sight, but have chatted to kell a few times on msn. looking forward to it but.

i hope we get a decent turn out.

well the bill will be on it a few mins so i am going to head off.

so i needed a cuppa after i moved a whole heap of stuff and washed the kitchen floor and where i moved my piano to. now all i need to do is sweep into a corner and throw out crap and put the other crap away and then the toys. yep they are still in the walk way. half done i will add. needs to be done today or tomorrow when i get home from the minti meet. as it is bin day monday and chris has a heap of his mates coming over next saturday for a Initial  D  series day (Initial D is a manga cartoon on drift racing, we got our passion of our Corolla's from that as the main car is a AE86 terreno (sp) its a beautiful car. )  we have most of all ther series on the PC. :)

so my title u say... why do i wanna ******* my kids. well they are giving me the shits. i ahve told them i dont want to see htem or they have to help clean the house. so they have been told to go and play out the back or in the toy room. but no they have to keep coming in and annoying the **** out of me. grrrr

on a good point my dad is coming over today. i havent seen him since Charlie's birthday (10th feb) so yeah its been a long time. not happy about it but cant do anything about it hey.

well i need to drink my cuppa before it gets cold and get back to cleaning the house and doing the moutian of washing i have.

I realised what the day was today. its the 15th may meaning in a week it is my birthday. 26 finally. I HATE my birthday. it is a day where i always feel like utter shit. no matter what people have done in the past i always feel like shit. so i am basing my huge crash on that as well as this friend. its hard to think that a few years ago i ended up in hospital due to the same feelings. oh i hate them.

I want to thank all the people sending me lovely messages. they make me feel better thank you. Thank you Kellz so much for your phone call last night. it was wonderful to finally after so many years to get to talk to you and hear sumara. she is so cute. :)

well I am about to drop Alex at school in 15mins and then we are off to see Pia for a few hours. she has a flat tyre and needs to get it fixed so chris is going to take it up for her. (man ppl like that rip us chicks off. once i called a business for a head to be cleaned, acid diped and skimmed (engine head) and for my 4K engine they quoted me $600+ the next day Chris rang the same place and it was $200. I was not impressed. Chris complained to them and said that you know you lost business yesterday with a chick. they said yeah. he said well that was my wife and she knows about cars and fixes them and she was getting quotes for this. they went red. it was sad that they felt they had to rip me off but a guy thats a whole other story) so yeah. at lest i will get to spend time with my buddy. i have missed not being able to see her and chat to her online.

struggling with some regection and hurtful words atm from a particular person who thinks i am calling them a bad parent for offering advice. Chris is on high allert atm as due to me being in a dark place he cant take chances again. i dont blame him. i know what was in my head last night and it was very nice.

to be perfectly honest i should be in hospital cause i dont trust myself to keep me safe. but i am too scared to go there after my last trip there so i will call my shrink to see how soon i can see him or someone. my meds are working but i think i need to go back on my anti deps as it has been a very stressful few weeks cause of this person.

some of you know what i am talking about as i have confided in a few ppl on this situation. all of what you said has helped alot. i now am very worried about the other person involved and how it will afect our friendship.

well i need to go. Charlie is wanting breakfast as Alex is at school having breakfast club atm (i love it). will keep a few ppl in my loop to let you know how i am, as i might not come on while i figure my head out. I hate it when it is this dark. so look out for Pia, Kellz or Cazza's posts as i think they are the only ppl's mobile i have.

thank you to those wonderful ppl who have put messages in my blog and Arna i will be sending you a minti mail soon.

thanks again guys

Liz

Alex went to his mates today after school. he loves james. loves going to his house and playing. next wednesday James and his sister are coming here. Alexandra always has to come. she loves Chris. think i have comptition PMSL (too bad she is like 11 hahahaaa) she a sweety but. looks after Alex at school.

Tonight when we got home Alex gave me the MS readathon form and asked me to sign him up so i did. so please if you could sponser him @ http://www.msreadathon.org.au/member/?HPID=444460 you might have to look him up as Bel said it took her to the main page but on my pc and laptop it goes to his homepage. his name is Alexander Munro. he would greatly appreciate it. he reads a few books a night. am actually look for more for him as he has read them all in the house.

hope you are all well

Luv Liz

At lest i know i wont end up like her as i like life and ppl adn treat ppl with respect and i try not to ask all the time. i try to give and expect nothing in return. so at lest personality wise i am nothing like her. more like my dad.

well i rang my Nanna tonight (mum's Mum) and she told me about this new thing she is taking that is sea fruit and something else. sounded interesting. Nanna is into all the natural health stuff since she almost dies a few years ago. Hey how shite is this well sad really. My nanna was taken to hospital RPH a few years ago and they didnt even put her into ICU as she couldnt breath and to be honest she was ana(anarexic looking) and they left her at the morgoue door. OMG like how wrong is that. mind you they say only the good die young LOL is a joke we have with her. so she started telling me how much weight she has lost and that after she was sick she gave up the drink and the smoking which was awesome cause she became nanna again. i was like yay nanna you have gone from a s18 i think she was to a 14. cool. i wish i was that small again. so then we got talking about my aunty and her bub Clo who is the same age as Charlie well a few months apart anyway. and that Cloe is a monster atm and they cant do anything to stop her being so naughty. they have tryed everything from taking all toys away to treats to smaking time out the lot. nothing works. so i have sugested to go and see a specialist. i hope they can find out why she is like this. she is allergic to everything well almost everything and has to have the epepen on her at all times. if we go over we cant have any nuts that day ect. it is so hard. she even needs special soap at school and has a full time carere there cause if she touches the normal soap she swells. i feel so bad for my aunty cause she has had nothing but pain most of her life with bad thing happeing to her kids being ill. Mayo is the only one who is ok. he is going through his terror stage but he is 2. Brooke who is 7 weeks older than Alex is servere astmatic and so is my aunty and she has recently been told tam has depression and is on meds for that.

well any way i am trying to get her to come on here as i thought some of you guys might be able to help her. Tam is more my sister than Aunty. there is 6 years between us. and its sher birthday in 3 weeks mine in 2 so we are both gemini's and get along really well. always have (well apart from when i was about 2-4 cause mum always dumped me at nanna's so i was like her sister and there was there sister jealousy thing)

well i am off to watch 20-1 and then ramseys kiten nightmares as i love that guy. he is so good and funnny.

Night guys see ya all tomorrow

am so down about it. i will have to call my mate Dave and get him to see whats up if he has time. as his wife is expecting their 3rd child soon.

dont you just love the little things kids say.... PMSL acording to Charlie I am 5 and my favorite drink is alcohol and i want to go to the desert. LOL

I love My little Charlie. she i so cute and sweet and has a wonderful imagination.

Card from Alex.

Card from Charlie

Info about me from Charlie. I will scan it and put it up when Chris is off the PC. It is soooo funny

Photo from Alex

Photo from Charlie.

sorry they are on their side. I will fix them later on.

It was such a lovely thing from my kids. They said they had a great time with Grandma and Grandpa. I wish I had taken a pic while they were here so i could of sent it to my MIL. I might take some pics of the kids and laminate them for her.

Happy Mother's day to all of you Mother's out there and all you Dads too.

Luv Liz

we have been invited to the in laws church for dinner as they have an afternoon service and they all bring food and feed everyone as well. they also have walk ins off the street. (i guess it gets ppl to come to christ) but we arent going. I just want to stay home and have my roast beef and yorkshire pudding. yummy

well today has been quiet which is good. i love quiet. will start the rest of the toys and finnish the toy room in a bit. need to take the cubard out before i put the boxes back in. i will be glad to get the house back to being livable.

have to remember to ring the quokka on monday to put my piano in and the cubard in the toy room.

I started in the kitchen. boy that was grotti. i need to pull the exhaust fan cover off and soak it. i have done 2 loads in my dishwasher. and i have both my sinks full atm with the plastic stuff soaking. washed the cat this morning. she smelt bad and we bath her once a month. she was pissed at me cause she exscaped the other night and got outside and got into a fight.

am happy that i did alot of my washing last weekend so i dont have a heap to do. sadly there is forecasted rain for the weekend so i cnat out it on the line. will put some under the patio as chris put up a line there for me a few years ago.

I have have the toy room done. need to pull the shelving unit out as i am selling it and my piano and i need to put the book shelf in from alex's room. he climbs it to get in his bed. :( i am so scared he is going to fall and it fall on him.

so i need to do that. am in 2 minds to put it outside first and paint it but i have no $$$ atm.

then on to the toys. i will take a photo of the pile first before i sort it tonight.

need to get dressed as it is 210pm here atm and i need to get Alex and some food, mind you will proberly leave it till sunday and go to foodworks instead. I want a roast for lunch or dinner.

:(

still counting down till my operation. cant wait for it to be honest. we went looking at vans the other day, chris wants a toyota liteace or a tarago. but we have found any that are in good enough nick. they all need serious repairs. its a bit sad. so will just deal with my car and take the front seat out and have to put the roof racks on it for my chair. I might be able after a few weeks to walk with my sticks but will see.

Chris the stupid F sent my mum and msn message so she decided to go on msn and chat to me. well she started. why havent i seen you, why dont you call, why dont i see my babies. well my answer was I am too sick to call ppl. i cant walk and my kids arent seeign you till you stop smoking cause i am not putting my daughters health at risk to see an ungrateful B. grr she makes my blood boil. she makes you wanna hire a hitman. she makes everything about her. Oh my head is so bad. i stopped talking to her cause she was coping me. i would say i feel like this and the next week she was like this. what ever i said she had to be the same. she is on anti dep and stuff which dont work cause she isnt sick with that. she is a attention seeker who has no one cause she has used and abused them all and we have all left.

am getting my monthly pain in the bum too so am moody as hell. not good

am helping Charlies class tomorrow so i hope i ahve fun and on thursday i am doing the mothersday stall again. yay will be heaps of fun

then i went and had a nap and chris's mum and dad came over to have a dress fitting for charlie for becs wedding in july. chris said the dress is really generic and thought bec would of done something a bit more special. then chris's mum and dad started to have a go at chris cause our house is a mess and we dont want help from them. grrr it makes my blood boil cause now they have made chris depressed and that isnt good cause i normally crash if he is down. (selfish i know) i just cant cope with out my rock.

so we have had a crap day today

Hubby and I were enjoying some "adult hugs" when someone decided to come over. its always the way huh......

Oh well. guess that means i should get on with the housework LOL.

was enjoying myself heaps too.

I finished my lounge last night and it looks great today. would look better if i wash my carpet but. its really filthy.

i still have heaps to do, like the toy room and a laundry full of washing. it says it is going to be fine all day so i will use rapid wash and put it on the line. i have 2 lines one under cover on the hills hoist. (good old hills hoist) need to fold washing too. sweep and wash floor and bathrooms and finish kitchen. wow lots to do but so need to and feel like doing it atm. WOW....