At my scan three weeks earlier they had estimated her weight at that already! boy am i so glad they were WAY off!

She feeds well, is quite content baby, doesnt cry much, and has a head full of hair!

Me, well, im loving it! Ok most of it, my boobs still hurt, and im tired, but other than that, life at this moment is perfect! I am breast feeding, and do enjoy it despite the first minutes of toe curling, but my boobs are so freaken big that BF does not look like it comes natural to me at all! im very self concious and wont feed in front of anyone cause i am aware of how utterly GUMBY i look when i feed her, all contorted and uncomfortable looking, holding my boob so i dont suffocate her lol.I feed her in a rugby ball typ hold, and if i do the common way people feed babies then i have to hold her head with one arm and hold my boob up with the other, which as you might imagine, isnt very practical,

anyway, im hoping once my boobs stop hurting and time helps me establish good way to feed that doesnt make me look like a 'retarded feeder"

anyhoo, must be off, xxx

anyhoo, just a quick catch up :o)

On thursday night, about 1030pm, i started getting massive intense make me bawl pains, that were coming every 10 to 35 mins.  for about 3 hours. At 2am i said to hubby if i have one more im calling my midwife, of course, they stopped.

Friday was a quiet day at home, i was tired from being up so late the night before, so i watched movies in front of the fire with my girl, About 3 pm my tummy got really tense, with waves of intense bits about 30 seconds long, which were irregular, but often. I rang my midwife, who asked me to come in for a check. Definately not labour, which i was relieved about, i didnt think it was but then again i didnt think i was in labour when i was with my other two..

Blood in urine, had the highest mark on the chart thing, whichh was like 4+, so they kept me over night for observation. found sleep about 1130 and woke again at 2 and stayed awake. sent home sat morning, came home relaxed, had a small snooze.

They considered kidney stones, UTI (which was neg) and that was it. went for a scan this morning to check bubs growth, and kidneys, my kidneys are fine, no stones, not swollen, so im very curious as to what caused the blood! 

Anyhoo, bubs is fine, but already weighs 2.1 kilos! 4.6pounds! Im sooooooooooooo devastated! How could i only have put on 4 kilos but have such a humungus baby??? Im so scared. i have to have another growth scan in 2-3 weeks to see how her size is. Could they induce me so she doesnt get too big??? any nurses in the house?? im freaking out here! I have 8.5 weeks to go!!!! Having a baby over 9p is my worst nightmare. i like MY babies to look like new borns not look like they are 3 months old when they come out!

i have to have my 28w tests and at 32 weeks have to go and indure another round of gest diabetes tests. Gay!!

Feel kinda bored with pregnancy today. i think i feel bored with everything though. life is kinda stood still

hubby was kinda cheated out of a promotion at work. he has the responsility of management, but gets none of the perks, no pay raise, no work vehicle, and no title change, yet he is doing the managers job. She was asked to leave, cause she is an alchy, and has been fdoing a really crap job running the show for months now, hubby has almost been doing her job for the past 6 months. So its kinda a promotion, but not really, her job title was made redundant to get rid of her, cause she wouldnt leave. they should have fired her months sgo when they had more than enuf legal ground to do so. So i feel sad for hubby, and us, anyway, its a step in the right direction. hopefully after the big big compnay lifts the pay rise freeze at the end of the year they will pay him for what he is doing.. anyway, thats me :o)

Isabella is wonderful, She moves all the time, and im so in love with it, i never get sick ofit and if she starts rolling around i drop everything to lie down and watch and feel. I just dont like when my bladder gets a thumping. Not the most comfortable feeling in the world. Andrew also seems to be in love, he has been caught tlking to bella, and hes always feeling for movents and is far more involved than the last pregnancy. propesctive when you dont think youll ever get that chance again.We both really know how blessed and lucky we are. it breaks our heart to see good people strugle while mongrels are fertile as and abuse the privledge of being a parent.

Ive gained about 1.5 since being preggers, so, i have gained what i lost and a bit more, so about 3 ish kilos i think i forget. i like to think of just a 1.5 kilo weight gain, rather than a 3 kilo weight gain. Im gutted, i had hoped i would stay the same a bit longer, but, being almost 25 weeks tomorrow i shouldnt ask too much. I have my dieticians appointment tomorrow at 11, which is 2 hours after i normally go, but i will see what her scales say as to how much ive  gained. I trust hers the most to be accurate. :o) Ill let you know how i go :o)

I dont excersize much, well very little if im honest. the moment i walk for any longer than about 5 mins straight my hips get really incredibly sore it has a name scatia or something. so, i just dont risk it. Not looking forward to telling my dietician, but honesty is the best. But i do try to eat well, cravings dont help much, milk... chocolate milk white milk, white ever as long as its milk haha. I always drink the skimmest milk but still... and lamingtons seem to have invaded my thoughts over the past four days too. Bad habbit, just as well they are insanely expensive...

anyway thats about it, see ya! x

Alex is a bit disappointed, he wanted a brother, he would ask if wed have another, and can it please be a brother. Also, he asked how a baby got into my tummy. Freaking out now, i dont know what to say???

I feel baby move heaps since sinday, andrew even managed to have an insy feel, we so excited.

i have the most amazing hubby. ok, as some of you know he has really peeved me off a couple of times over the past couple of weeks, but it was his birthday on wed, and he was given money, well, he has given it all to me to pay our phone bill and help with shopping. we had recieved a letter statingwe were going to get cut off, and we were fine with that as we had mentioned, only to go onto the website, to be told they would charge us a disconnection fee, we would have to pay 400 to cancel our contract as thats about how many months we have left (4), and then late charges on top of that.. so fretting, he gladly handed his money over to help us out. I tell you im crying, he does in fact sacrifice any money for us. we dont get pocket money atm, we cant afford that luxury, but he is always willing to help out f he gets birthday money. I feel so incredibly stink, and i will have to find a way to make it up to him, he is going to get a monster of a present at christmas or just when we can.

we have gotten rid of our kittens, we are so pleased. we are back to two cats. A lady has offered to fix our cats for free too, so no more kittys, we are so grateful. I almost killed my cats yesterday. i have NEVER been so mad. They got into our dinner. i was so freaking mad i seriously wished them death. now, im not an animal abuser, i dont like cats, but i hate animal abusers. But yesterday they crossed the line. they are staying out of my way, they know, everytime the biggest culprit looks at me she bows her head. GRR. (no animals were harmed despite how mad i was.)

anyway, hopefull we have paid enough now not to be cut off, so hopefully will update you on monday after my scan :o)

havent really spent alot of time on minti, have to avoid horror stories, too many of those around. I'm really hping i nest with this bub. ive really struggled with energy this time round, its been to hot to go out and walk etc, i know, we havent had your heatwave, but that doesnt mean were ot hot here,. So my house work is suffering, and im pretty tired, mind you, it would be good if i could get a good nights sleep.

sooo, what else is new, um,,, not much... we get rid of our kittens sometime this week. woohoo!

Alex went back to school toda, YAY so happy, anyway. Thats all.

time just cant go any slower!

Bad news,im due on the 9th of july not the 2nd, so im 16 weeks today, but i dont know why my ticker is out by three days.

End of the day, huge weight has been lifted im very happy! 

we might win lotto lol.  honestly, we are totally fine about it. it will  be good to not be at the computer so much. will come back and keep you update when i visit my mum,

I had my first pregnancy nightmare the other night. I dreamt i went into labour now, and they couldnt stop it. then i woke up about 5 and had a  massive panic  attack about  having a incompetent cervix. stems from a lady i know who wnats a baby but she has lost two babies at 5 and a half months due to incompetent cervix. still aa  it worriedd, need to get to 24 weeks now, thats like my 12 weeks lol. totally silly really but i have an over active imagination. anyway i have to go shower and clean, i have some old friends popping in today and my house is a mess and filled with kittens, who by the way are moving house., they keep pooping everywhere grrr. they are 6w2d so i think they are ready to go. FINALLY! i never want anymore kittens. 10 cats is way to many!

Alex has taken ill since yesterday. he was fine then about 12 he came in for lunch, and then by 1230 he was so hot i could hardly touch him, couldnt find his thermometer, and he was saying he was dizzy and "wobbly to walk" so i rushed him to doc, who sent me away said to come back tomorrow, but ill be charged for it, makes me mad, she said he would probably have tonsilitis his throat was a touch red, but if i had seen my doc, he would have given me the prescription, and trusted that i would know if he had tonsilitis or not (i have sufferd tonslitis so much in my life i know exactly what it looks like) so now i have to make the hike back over to the doc, pay more money i dont have for something she should have fixed upo for me yesterday grrr. today his temp is still high, struggling to stay down, with pamol. very red raw swollen pussy throat, definately tonsilitis, but hes also wanting to vomit, and has a headache

So do i, and im soo tired. been up all night worrying about him, his heart rate was 150bpm and his breathing was shallow, but he got better about 1.5hrs after pandol. Kicked hubby out of bed poor bloke and alex slept wiith me. was enjoying the extra room in my bed til mikayla came in bawling her eyes out. how do i stop her from invading my bed!!??

anyway, boring i know.

love me

sorry its on its side. and next is bubs at 12w4d or 13w4d, who knows, they dont.

so, going by LMP i would be 13w4d and songrapher said thats my true date, but i hade a different midwife today who said to go by dates as beofre 12w4d. so i dunno, i have no idea. baby is measuring at 13w4d but the earlier the scan the more accurate she said. i dunno.

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heres the link to the song that is helping me keep my spirits up! http://www.minti.com/members/kseers/blog/912970/An-oldie-but-a-goody/ hope the link works xoxoxo

if i dont get another chance, Merry christmas to you all, and 12 weeks on thursday!! WOHOO!!!!

i could say im feeling better but if i do i start feeling sick again. I feel sick first thing in the morning and on and off all day. i suppose its getting better, but we'll see. 8 more sleeps tyil santa visits, my present ill get, will be making it to 12 weeks. man am i hanging out for that!

Not that im complaining, id much rather be pregnant despit the nasea and extreme tirredness, LOL, BUT, every year for the past um 6 years, i have wanted a champayne breakfast. No idea why, guess i would like tyo feel posh. anyway,every year im put off, last year my sister was around and she is an alcoholic, so i didnt ddrink in front of her, year before, breakfast with inlaws who dont drink, and the one before tha?? cant rememeber, but you get the drift. every year its been put off. this year, i said, im going to have this breakfast if it means i stay home alone! LOL, but low and behold, im up the duff

Im not complaining, just laughing at the irony of it. 

school got out today, im already feeling exhausted haha. na, its will probably be that now i can rest more i wont be so tired anymore or so sick. typical. alex got his report and it was GLOWING, im very proud, Not to mention, he got a GOLD certificate! thts my boy! 

went and saw QUARANTINE last niught, heard of that movie?? its a horror. Man, im getting to old! it was so cool! but, my heart is still punding! haha. Great movie, best ive seen in a long time. 

Anyway, gtg make dinner, i guess, yay for me. xoxoxox If i dont get another chance, MERRY CHRISTMAS to you all! Keep safe, and be merry, and for those enjoying a glass of wine have one for me! 

I have a nuchal scan on the 29th, to check for high or low risk of downs syndrome. Im low risk, but the scan was offered and im not going to say no to a chance to see my baby!

i thought i had started feeling better, but yeterday and today i feel absolute **** i just want to vomit nd sleep! im not a vomity person, we all get a tummy bug and i have to feel sick while everyone else vomits. so unfair. I have only been sick  once, last weekend. cause i drank choc milk to early and to fast. yuk. i would prefer to loose my lunch. i hate feeling like im about to but never do. its worse. i cant seem to stay awake either! yesterday i went to sleep at about 2 til 5, waking up only for two min blocks about 10 times for the kids. lucky i dont need to get alex from school.  Then i couldnt stomach dinner but forced myself to eat some otherwise the sick feeling only gets worse!

anyway, hopefully i learn to be sick, or just get over it soon. it really does put a dampr on being happy about being preg.

My dad is good, back home. it was what i read up on the net, how wrong that i diagnosed him beofre thee docs did! he came so close to dying its not fuunny, i would teel the whole strory but im starting for feel dizzy sitting here. they kept asking what medication he was on he said none, they seemed baffled that my 52year old dad is not on any medication for anything. they suspected he would be for his heart., my dad is fit as a fiddle. i think they made him feel abit old. ive never really had a close relationship with him, and i have to try harder. i am the odd one out in the family, i know i am, but i dont want anything to happen to him, and regret not trying hard enough.

o, and i seem to be crying at everything these days!

anyway, im going to lie down and read a book, try get rid of this nausea. oxoxox

ps, i never got my results about the toxomaplasis thing, im hoping no news is good news??