I found out from a little investigating that X is seeing someone else, I new this in November, but have only said something to him on Sunday just gone.He was shocked that I new. I was so upset when I first found out,but over it now I wasn't 100% into my marraige. All is good with us though actually better now that we have got it out into the open.

I have not stopped drinking and partying with friends I had an awesome christmas, had a few too many drinks with friends and a person that I admire alot(hehe). New was good too. Have only been out to the pubs once, but will be hitting the town next weekend.

Janice and Marg I have seen your messages everytime I go to write to you both I run out of time. Thankyou for your kind words and I have been thinking of you too.

I hope everyone had a great christmas and new year as I did.Look forward to catching up with everyone on minti.I haven't given S her trike yet as she is a little to young and would only get shitty with herself cause she can't do it. Her birthday is in June so I will give it to her then.

Will fill you all in on more real soon.

Love Trace xxx

PS...I brought a new Lancer yesterday and I love it so zippy, will put a photo up 1 day

Thank you to everyone for your lovely and kind words, I'm sorry I haven't got in contact it's just hard and I have been flat out...so thanks everyone for your support.

I wish you all a very Merry Christmas and a safe and Happy New Year....Look forward to a fresh new start for 2009..

Take Care

Love Tracey and Sophie xxxx

my may concern is Sophie it's been hard to deal with her some days when she is sooky but we get there.

Any way enough of my whinging....I went to my christmas work do last night and my boss hired a stretch Hummer omg it was fantastic had a great  night. I recieved the trike last week but have put it away 4 christmas.

Must fly talk 2 u all soon

xxxx

On a happy a note I have only 25 sleeps left till me and 3 girlfriends hit Bali, I can't wait to relax drink cocktails and shop shop shop. It will be so much fun. The kids are on school holidays now, but we will not see them much as they are going to Bali with  there mum and step dad. Gee they have been on a plane more than me.I might go down south to my best friends house for a few days.

We have a quiet long weekend ahead so it will be nice. Hope you all have a lovely weekend....

She is so grumpy and tired.....and a cold on the way. Never mind.

Sophie didn't go so good at Day care yesterday she cried a lot of the morning, it didn't help that she was up at 5.45am. She had a sleep early and then what do you know she was full of beans.Hope she gets used to it soon.

Hope everyone has a lovely weekend

xx

Only 40 sleeps till Bali, and let me tell you I'm hanging out for this break, I will still miss Matt and Soph but it will be so nice. All the girls have been fine, I'm trying to get in to some routine now that I have to work it's been a bit hard.

I have a question for you all that read this, lately I have been very tired like today I had to have a sleep, it takes me ages to get up in the mornings what I want to know is anyone else like this and if sodo they take anything. Years ago I use to take liquid iron so I'm wondering if I should start again along with that evil word exercise.......anyway I must pop off and cook dinner. Hope you are all well.

Luv Trace xx

And also as of Thursday Matt goes back to days. Hooray. After 4 years of nights I can't wait to have my husband home normal times. I'm glad he finished his uni and now we can afford the change.

Yesterday I dropped sophie off at my mums for a play and I hit the shops with my girlfriend. We were disappointed in how effort. But it was so nice to just cruise the shops with no kids.You know when you have spare money and you can never seem to find anything you want, but when you haven't got any spare cash it's always like this. Bugger. At least we had a lovely day out

Hope you all had a great weekend.

Trace xx

Thats all I have to say today nothing else, only that the weather is lovely here today in Perth

Bye for now

We meet at Sizzler, my brother didn't stay as he hates waiting in lines(boring). Oh well doesn't matter. We all pigged out that much. Sophie had eaten crap all day so whats a bit more gonna do. Any way I very busy day we decided to head back home. 9pm was bed time to tired to watch TV.

On Sunday we got up to notice that our fridge is once again stuffed. Never by a Samsung fridge.It is only 3 years old cost us over $2000 and this is the 2nd time this has happened. When we came back from out holiday in Jan we had to fork out $400 to get it fixed. And now the same thing has happened. Matt emailed Sumsung but they don't seem to really care. At the moment we can't afford to get it fixed so we have to use the beer fridge. This took half the morning to sort out and clean.So my new plants that are sill sitting out the back had to wait.

Sophie had a sleep, then it was off to Matt's Godmothers son inlaw and grandsons Birthday. They are born on the same day. We went up there for a BBQ dinner. All the kids played around, had tea at 5.30pm so that was good. And again ate to much.

I think Sophie's last molar is coming through as she has been chewing on her finger like it was a piece of chocolate. We all had a good night sleep until Soph came in at 4.30am.That was OK. So now I'm at home cleaning, ironing washing you know all the motherley duties. I have come to the decision that I'd like to come back as a male next time

Hope you all had a good weekend

Luv Trace xx

I better just come back to reality now, I have to go to the shops when Soph wakes up but I have now idea what to cook my fussy family. Any ideas?

Soph still has her cold, I think she is improving the night air seem sto bring it all out more.Only 2 sleeps till Bec turns the BIG 13. We are going to Q-zar with her friends and then meeting the family at Sizzler for tea. This is how favourite.

Must go and tidy the house now

Luv Trace xx

We have to right by Saturday for Becky's 13th birthday.Nothing else to say

Take Care xx

I even done mine that I keep putting off, but clean mine out on a regular basis. Sophie has been a little sooky today I'm not sure if it's teeth or she is getting a cold. It seems eveyone around us has had it, but fortunatley we have been safe(touch wood).

That is all for today I'm cooking a roast so I better check on it

Hope you all had a lovely weekend

Luv Trace xx

Anyway enough of that little miss Sophie has had her top molars and she has had her ups and downs. Believe me her down are horriable. We were at my dads last Sunday for tea and she didn't stop crying and only wanted her mummy. Gee that is annoying. My brother didn't know what to think actually no one did as Sophie is never like this. But never mind.

We have just been out for tea and the little bat I just told you about was a perfect angel. Anyway tea was lovely thanks. Becky is turning 13 next Friday so I have been organizing her party gee I'm a wonderful step mother. hehe.

Anyway  can't think of any other news to tell you all, just trying to get my poor neglected house and garden back into shape.

Take Care everyone and have a lovely weekend

Love Trace xxx

That mouse is still some where. Matt brought this liquid that you put on the trap it cost him $14 and does seem to be working at all. Might have to go for the good old faithful cheese or peanut butter. The other night I was in bed had just turned off the lights and I heard some thing in the air conditioner in my room I didn't half s*** myself, I jumped up into the middle of my bed and banged on the wall, hoping what ever that was has gone. I had to sleep with my bed lamp on after that. i know what you'll say Marg but I don't know why I am so scared of them I even grew up on a farm.

Well I must run now as I need to get the main ingredient for my dinner. Don't you just hate it when you have all ready been to the shop once for food only to discover that you forgot some thing.

Take care everyone

Luv Trace xxx

Then I go to bed to see another little pooh on my dresser beside my bed. I layed in my bed half the night scared they are out there. Every little noise I head I thought it was that little mouse.(who knows it could be more) but lets not go there.I final went to sleep in the end.

Matt went and brought some traps, we have set them tonight so hopefully we catch the bugger.  Well thats the most stress for my day.

Take care everyone

Trace xxx

I'm glad he went away as absence does make the heart grow fonder. And in my case it really has. I miss he so much. I have had to keep busy so I don't have to think about it all day

I went out with my friends on the weekend for my birthday(a week early) gee it was great we didn't get home until 4.30am, I was stuffed the next day. Mum took Soph and I down south for 4 days, it was nice and peaceful. But it's always goo to get back to own house. Sophie's birthday was on the Monday while we were there, didn't really celebrate it as we had already before Matt left. My birthday was on Saturday, started off lovely until the terriable 13 year old spoilt it. God she can be a pain. I ended up sending her back to her mums for the day and night. I tell ya she is a hard one. Speaks to me like a piece of crap and telling me 'NO I'M NOT' and yelling some times I told to go to her mums and there is no computer, foxtel or mobile.She really does my head in. I have the girls this week and she starts again then she can stay at her mums till Matt comes home. She even started a bit this morning and went back and layed in bed, I had to tell her to get up and get ready for school. I'm a bit over her.

I know it's hard when your dad is away, but hay I think we are all in the same boat. This have been going on for 2 years now, so I don't think it's hormonal anymore. She just likes to put everyone in a bad mood.

Any way I must run and pick the kids up from school

Only 6 sleeps till Matt comes home. Hooray

Take care everyone

Trace

Hope fully tomorrow and the next day and the next I will still feel like this.

Oh and the weather is crap here in Perth. The kind where you just want to curl up on the lounge. Must go and get ready now.

Have a great weekend everyone

Tracey

I don't know what is wrong with me lately one minute I'm all good and the next I'm sad don't want to be here. I don't know how to control my temper with Becky(stepdaughter) I seem to pick on the smallest things with her. Lately I ask myself why? And I have no answers. Am I happy being here married ? One day I am the next I'm not.

Everyday I go through this. Matt is going to the UK for 2 weeks, so I think this is a good time for both of us to sort out what we want. I know he loves me and I do love him, but sometimes I just can't keep living like this knowing that I'm hurting him just because I don't know what I want. This may sound like it's all over the show, but I think that is how I am have the time.

I block it out because I don't want to think of it. I hide it from my closest friends too. I have talked to my mum about it. She says to do what is best . She also told me that Matt spoke to her and said" I don't think we will be together by christmas" that hurt when I found out.But it could be true.

Anyway best go and keep thinking of whats going on in my head.

Confused

Mind you the girls have been pretty good, they just play and destroy my house.

On the other hand I have had my friends prado to drive, because I can't fit them all in my car. So I'm not looking forward to giving it back.Thank god matt has finished night shift . Not that he doesn't do anything, he does help out. Like he is cooking tea right now while I'm on here.

Anyway must go and get children bathed.

Have a good night.

not much has been happening here, i have been working at my friends cafe on thursdays and fridays now. gee i didn't realize hoe tired i get. i'm not used to working again. it has been 2 years since i quit work.

sophie is just growing way to much. it doesn't take long. her sleeping was doing well until last night, she just didn't want to go in her bed, so i let her fall asleep in my bed then put her into hers. at least she stays there all night.

matt is planning a trip back to the UK to surprise his nephew for his 21st birthday. that will be nice for him,and me well i think a trip to bali with my friends should make it even(haha). will have to see about that, i need to save some money first.

bec and shan are fine. they are at there mums this week so will get them back on friday. what fun school holidays. might go to the zoo 1 day.

hope everyone is well