I'm glad he went away as absence does make the heart grow fonder. And in my case it really has. I miss he so much. I have had to keep busy so I don't have to think about it all day

I went out with my friends on the weekend for my birthday(a week early) gee it was great we didn't get home until 4.30am, I was stuffed the next day. Mum took Soph and I down south for 4 days, it was nice and peaceful. But it's always goo to get back to own house. Sophie's birthday was on the Monday while we were there, didn't really celebrate it as we had already before Matt left. My birthday was on Saturday, started off lovely until the terriable 13 year old spoilt it. God she can be a pain. I ended up sending her back to her mums for the day and night. I tell ya she is a hard one. Speaks to me like a piece of crap and telling me 'NO I'M NOT' and yelling some times I told to go to her mums and there is no computer, foxtel or mobile.She really does my head in. I have the girls this week and she starts again then she can stay at her mums till Matt comes home. She even started a bit this morning and went back and layed in bed, I had to tell her to get up and get ready for school. I'm a bit over her.

I know it's hard when your dad is away, but hay I think we are all in the same boat. This have been going on for 2 years now, so I don't think it's hormonal anymore. She just likes to put everyone in a bad mood.

Any way I must run and pick the kids up from school

Only 6 sleeps till Matt comes home. Hooray

Take care everyone

Trace

Hope fully tomorrow and the next day and the next I will still feel like this.

Oh and the weather is crap here in Perth. The kind where you just want to curl up on the lounge. Must go and get ready now.

Have a great weekend everyone

Tracey

I don't know what is wrong with me lately one minute I'm all good and the next I'm sad don't want to be here. I don't know how to control my temper with Becky(stepdaughter) I seem to pick on the smallest things with her. Lately I ask myself why? And I have no answers. Am I happy being here married ? One day I am the next I'm not.

Everyday I go through this. Matt is going to the UK for 2 weeks, so I think this is a good time for both of us to sort out what we want. I know he loves me and I do love him, but sometimes I just can't keep living like this knowing that I'm hurting him just because I don't know what I want. This may sound like it's all over the show, but I think that is how I am have the time.

I block it out because I don't want to think of it. I hide it from my closest friends too. I have talked to my mum about it. She says to do what is best . She also told me that Matt spoke to her and said" I don't think we will be together by christmas" that hurt when I found out.But it could be true.

Anyway best go and keep thinking of whats going on in my head.

Confused

Mind you the girls have been pretty good, they just play and destroy my house.

On the other hand I have had my friends prado to drive, because I can't fit them all in my car. So I'm not looking forward to giving it back.Thank god matt has finished night shift . Not that he doesn't do anything, he does help out. Like he is cooking tea right now while I'm on here.

Anyway must go and get children bathed.

Have a good night.

not much has been happening here, i have been working at my friends cafe on thursdays and fridays now. gee i didn't realize hoe tired i get. i'm not used to working again. it has been 2 years since i quit work.

sophie is just growing way to much. it doesn't take long. her sleeping was doing well until last night, she just didn't want to go in her bed, so i let her fall asleep in my bed then put her into hers. at least she stays there all night.

matt is planning a trip back to the UK to surprise his nephew for his 21st birthday. that will be nice for him,and me well i think a trip to bali with my friends should make it even(haha). will have to see about that, i need to save some money first.

bec and shan are fine. they are at there mums this week so will get them back on friday. what fun school holidays. might go to the zoo 1 day.

hope everyone is well

Anyway what I was going to write in my blog is that I can't beleive the nastyness that is happening on here. I'm not 100% sure on it all, but from what I've read it's not nice. I thought this is a great site, especially to talk to other people who may be having the same problems or experiences as ourselves, even a laugh and meet new friends. I know that this does still happen, but when your reading something that is a big fight it puts a damper on everything. I left that bitter and nastyness at school when I left. Mmmmm 17 yrs ago. I know that people my have different opinions and veiws to each other, but when it comes down to it we are all the same "human beings"

Please it's time to get along and help each other, laugh even cry,catch up.

Don't waste time getting into aguements over a web site.For some people life is to short.

Thanks for reading. Have a lovely day everyone

Take Care

Luv Tracey

We are off to bunbury for 1 of my best friends 40th birthdays. Can't wait to see everyone.

Have a good weekend all