I have heaps going on righ now but i only wnat REAL FRIENDS tO know about it.

So for all you others that think you can read my blogs then backstab or talk about me and lie this will no longer be happening as you will not have anything to read to use as you please!

To all my TRUE FRIENDS i cherish your friendships and i know you all are here for me when i need to chat to you! You are all understanding unlike some who use and abuse!!

Till i write my blog in lounge tomorrow i hope you are all well and enjoy the weekend!

Hugs Michelle xxx ooo

So i had a quiet night Friday noght with the kids and then on Saturday i thought to myslef stuff this and rang the kids dad to ask him if he would mind coming over and looking after the kids for the night so i could surprise Alana and fly there lol lol i am sneaky. So we rang Alana and told her that Brookes brother was going to bew flying into wynard not sure if that is how it is spelt airport on a cesna with a friend of mnine as he had been in a bot of trouble and was gfoing to stay with his mum who hjas just moved to Tasmania. Alana said that would be fine so the arrangements had been made for this.

Sunday morning camne and i got dropped off to a friends place as the kids dad was taking them all to the snow and i was flying to tassie on a small secna with a f4riend to surpise alana when she arrived she would be expecting brookes brither lol lol

So i get there and Alana and Brooke looked really shocked i am sure the whole of the tiny airport heasrd me and trhey did too lol lol I was very loud and did shout out surprise its me the crazy one pmsl. Alana did not know what to do. So we get back to Alanas place and she is still cursing me for surprising her and every one else cos Brooke did not even know wthat i was going there lol lol even more of a surprise. I had so much fun we went sightseeing for a little bit and then went back home to enjoy a lovely roast tea that alana had prepared for us. It was the vbest roast i had eaten in ages apoart from my own loll ol

So Monday morning we leave Aklanas to get to the airport to come home Alana was not reaLLY WANting us to go but we had to get back. Even though i only stayed for a night it felt like a week.

Alana and her family are so very special and a laugh and joker too. We had plenty of laughs and our stomachs were that sore we were still aching whe we got to the airport lol lol

So we flew home and came back to reality. Brooke had so much fun she went to marlets and saw lots of lovely waterfalls as well. i managed to get afew pics which i will put up when i put on my computer. I am planning on going back there soon for a few days so i can spend a bit more time with Alana and her family.

Therre is someone i thought was a friend of mine tnat i have not spoken to or heard from in months that i have just found out from some of my friends that has been backstabbing me and saying that i do not have care of my children since they are in Family day care a couple of days a week. I would like this so called friend to live my life even for a week to see exactly what it is like to be a single mum suffering depression and having no family support and the kids daqd only coming around once in a while. This per5son has a husband and only hads a couple of children to look after. I keep my house clean  my kids are fed i do not whinge ata ll about my kife and i i always say to people everyone lives their lives differently and no one should judge what p[eople decide to do with their children under no circumstances. This frien did also have her children in day care at one stage but i guess that is ok for them but not for me. This person whom i thought was a friend i have helped out a couple of times and asked for nothing in return. i only ask that my friends be there if i need a little support or just for a chat and laugh even. I never ask my friends late at night to come and look after my children if an emergency should arise i deal with it my way on my own. This so called friend once told me that she does not like backstabing people or people who backstab others but yet i find out that she is doing exactly these things that she says she does not like. At least have the courage to tell me tomy face what you have to say not behind my back. To this i say they are nothing but guttless and i do not need friends like this in my life that are going to try and bring me down with my deporession any further. Sorry but i had tohave this out  of my sysytem cos it is really pissing meoff at the that MOMENTsomeone i enjoyed as a friend could be this low and say these awful things about me.

Hugs to MYREAL FRIENDS!! XXX OOO

Caydn has o.t again tomorrow afternoon so i am hoping he is having a good day not a bad one like last time he would not co operate at all when doing some of the things the lady asked him to i ended up helping her by rolling the ball to him while she held his arms as he does not use his muscles to do things we realised so i am not sure how that will affect him when he starts school next year. Oh well we will deal wioth that when he gets there i guess. Today is Harleys 6th b"day i bought him a nintendo ds lite he is so totally excited and i have decided that this is what they will all get for their b"days this year Ashlee got one for hers last week then next month i have two b"days within 3 days of each other lol lol too close hey?? Oh well the two boys will get ds as well with a game just like Ashlee and Harley have got for theirs. They are really good with them as they have been sharing them with the others which is really greast so this way the others do not feel totally left out i bought the brain acadamy that was on the tv a while ago for ds this helps them with maths and other things as well so they have been sharing that around too,.the kids have been really good lately apart from yesterday morning when Harley and Tyson were fighting before school and Harley bit Tyson right on the cheek now Tyson has a massive bruise on his cheek that it looks like someone has punched him so Harley got into big trouble for that. I think he made up for it with Tyson today by allowing him to have first turn at his new ds. They were great so i am proud of my children every day as they are all learning to share and not be greedy.

I sdtill have a sore back and will be trying to go to the drs on the weekend to find out the results of my ct scan that i had over a week ago as last time i went they were not there so they should be there now i would say. I have not heard yet when Caydn has to have his mri but i hope it is not too long as i worry a bit too much sometimes i think, He is just a darling child always wanting cuddles lately and getting really close to certain peoiple. Jaya has been really good woith her toilet training too she went just over a week nopw and no accidents in her knickers until today at day care she had an accident so i hope she has not gone backwards but i am sure it will be a one of well at least i hope so.

Well i went bargain shopping tonight with a friend and i bought a $60 dollar pair of boots for $12 they were reduced then had 20% off the marked price as well so that was a fantastic bargaiun i also got a denim skirt marked $7 for $5.25 what a bargain they were. My friend also got the same skirt and she bought a really nice top that was originally $26 for only $5.25 as it was marked down to $7 then had percenatge off as well so we werte laughing all the way home at what we got our thinngs for. Sometimes it pays to go shoipping without kids as we can look better for what we want and actually buy for ourselves for a change not the kids as we always do. So i will be going shopping next week again when i get more money to grab bargains if there are any left.

Well ibetter get going now as itis getting late i wil promise to put pics of kitchen up soon as i transfer them to my laptop as this cpomputer is the kids one and for some reason will not allow me to put my pics up in here at al.

I hope everyone is having a great week and are staying healthy and having fun.

Hugs Michelle

Well today i woke up at 6 am to get showered and ready before kids got up to get ready for school. Caydn  had speech therapy this morning he started off co operating but then got distracted and annoyed with it all so would not continue so we had to play catch with him then do some more then played throw aeroplanes in tub then do some more of the testing she was doing on him and then we ended up ending the session as he was getting really bad and would not so anythinhg he was told i think he was bored with it all as when he does no=ot like doing something for a long period of time he will play up and not co operate. So he has another session next week to finish the testing he started to day. Came home and a friend was here to visit  we just chatted and sat with the kids and watched tv i had a nanna nap as i am so worn out my friend was really good she woke me at 12.55 as Caydn had kinder at 1. Her daughter who has just turned 2 was asleep on my lounge room floor so cute.

So took Caydn to kinder came home and sat and did nothing at all as i had done all my housework. Picked Caydn up at 4 then had to drop him off to day carer as him and Jaya stay there tonight for the night and i collect them at 2pm tomorrow.

I am not seeing my physc till next Tuesday as he wanted to see how i am going over three weeks rather than two weeks. I am doing ok at times but have alot of stress at the moment with wondering what is going to happen when i have to go to court in October. But i am not going to lket that be the end of me no way no chance.

My mum is coming over on Saturday with a friend of mine and hers that has custody of her great grand children and they are bringing the youngest with them as the other two are at their dads for the weekend.

I have finished my course and think i may go and drop my last assessment of tomorrow so it can be sighted and then they will send it back with my certificate yay. I cannot believ i have finally achieved something good on my own without someone telling me to do it or being made to do something ido not want to do it really does feel good i can hanestly say.

Tiffany brought home a certificate from school the other day in recognition of her continued respect of the  school policy and what the school aspects and policies mean to them all. I was almost in tears so i told her that she was to be congratulated for that as it is not every day you get this recognition from the school.

Well ibetter get going watching big brother need to see who wins this one as this is the finale tonight. Ben just got evicted yay i do not lke him.

Well good night all and i will blog soon and i will put pics of my new kitchen soon as my other computer is getting fixed again and the pics are on that one. Hugs

Michelle and Family xxx ooo

Well i went to the drs the other night as i had had enough of the pain in my back and right down my legs i have put up with it for 2 weeks now so enough waas enough. The dr gave me strong pain killers as i was unable to even sweep m,y floors or fold washing out of the dryer that is how bad the pain was, it was there constantly he also has me on anti imflamorty (?spelt wrong i think) tablets and yesterday i had to go and have a c.t scan on my spine and left hip as i have osteoarthritis in left hip so that may be flaring up due to the cold weather we are haviong here.

My friend is coming over today and we are hopefully going to go up the street to look at what we cannot afford to buy lol lol. I got Ashlee her b"day present yesterday as oiit was her b"day Monday but i did not get paid until yesterday myself and a friend went half half in a Nintendo DS for her with a game and a case with ear phones, two cases for games when not in use and a lanyard type thing. It only cost $229 for the lot and total value if bought individualy would be around $300. So we got a bargain and a half. We have decioded that this is what we will be doing for all of my kids b"days this year . Some people are telling me i am silly buying them as they think they are all too young for them and will not appreciate them at all. How can children learn to appreciate things bought if we do not give them a chance to show that they can look after things and not wreck them?? I am even going to get Caydn one for his 5th b"day as he has the mild autism and i think it wil be good for him to keep his brain thinking while playiong games. Do you think he is too young??

Well better go and find something to do before they decide to get here and do the rest of the klitchen.

WQill put pics up soon

Have a great day

Hugs Michelle

Well better get going and have my warm milo before bed and i will blog as soon as i get a chance to as when the kitchen is in i have to put everything back where it belongs i cant even use my dining table.

Well got to go now blog soon

Hugs Michelle xxx oo

Well any  way sms Alana to say hi went to the dentist with Ashlee and they said she has perfect teeth no holes thank goodness and amazing too. She has an overcrowded mouth but they are hoping that when she reaches grade 5 or 6 that it will fix itself otherwise she may need braces or something to help straighten them. I am still awaiting Caydns mri appointment not sure how long i need to wait for that. Caydn has occupational therapy again next tuesday so will see how he goes with that this time as last week he would no co operate properly with the ot lady. He was as i ssay bouncing everywhere but where he should have been lol lol he looses concentration very easy and if he does not like doing something he wil not co operate with anyone no matter what.

Well today was freezing cold we know winter is definately here now. Tonight we are meant to be getting gale force winds,thunder,lightning and even hail stones maybe it feels that cold outside that it seems like it would snow i wish it would here lol

Well tomorrow i am staying home and going to try and rest a bit as my whole body at the mopment is aching from my arthritis and osteoarthritis all my back and legs are really hurting even to walk is painful. I have been putting tiger balm on and it relieves the pain a bit but i think i may need to go ot the drs soon for something for the pain as panadol is not working at all. I will get there the dr did tell me a couple of weeks ago that it would get worse over the years but not in 2 weeks. The cold weather has hit me hard with it this year so am rugging up warm as i can handle it.

The kids are getting bored now wioth the holidays and are getting excited about going back to school especially Ashlee as it is her 9th birthday on Monday so she wants to see all her friends. The kids have been to the museum, aqaurium and play centres with their day care worker over the holidays so they have been busy like me lol

Well i better get going as i am aching from typing and sitting down for too long. I will blog on the weekend when i get a chance as am having visitors tomorrow and over the weekend.

I hope everyone enjopys the rest of their week and the upcoming weekend. I also hope that those with children on school holidays have fun and enjoy their weekend and enjoy sanity again when the kids are back at school. I do enjoy having mine home but they hate it as they get bored too easily and end up fighting all the time. Bring on monday they are saying right now.

Hugs Michelle xxx ooo

Caydn finally started o.t last Friday he did well but now she is referring him to a physio as we realised he does not use his muscles in his arms or fingers especially when he draws pictures so she want to get a physio to asses him and see what they say. It seems to be one thing after another with him. Oh well it is all good i guess in the long run for him and me too it will benefit him heaps for school and the rest of his learning life and beyond. He has been on the go every day he never seems to stop lately  but he makes me laugh sometimes at the things he does. Today i received a phone call from his Peadiatricians office it was the receptionist calling to let me know that the pead wants Caydn to have a m.r.i under general anisthetic as the opthamoligist said the other week that the optic nerves are bulging but the pressure in them is fine so the mri is to see if they can see anything hat would cause this. I am not sure when this wilol be done as they were faxing the referral off today so i really hope it wont be too long.

Today Tiffany6 had the dentist and had to see a specialist as well for hwer teeth as one of her eye teeth is still  a baby tooth and they did an x-ray a while ago to see if thery could find the adult tooth. They did find it and it is growing in an awkward place in her gums  so today they took impressions of her teeth and are sending them along with the x-ray to the dental hospital in Melbourne for them to asses what they will do. The dentist told me that the way the tooth is growing can  harm nerves and the roots of the other teeth in her mouth. So she  will more than likely have to have dental surgery to either cut her gum and take tooth out or see if they take the baby tooth pout and move the tooth down to where it should be. I am hoping for the best. I will keep you all updated on it all.

Well this is the last week of holidays and the kids are getting excited to go back to school next week and next Monday is Ashlees' birthday she wioll be nine. Th e years have gone so fast.

 I am still seeing my phsyc on a fortnighly basis now and am doing ok i guess. I am feeling a bit down lately as i received my charges from the problems i had with a family member earlier this year and i have to go to court on 7th October. I HAave been to see a solicitor already so i know what i am looking at. I was hoping to go away for a few days but do not feel that i will be able due to the way i am feeling within myslef. I want to go away and have fun but feel i will not be able to fully enjoy a holiday the way i am and do not want to make anyones week bad. I will organise a holiday later this year whyen all is over and done with that way i can enjoy it mopre.

Well my border has moved out yay. I am so glad at the mopment as she was start6ing to make me feel really down she only paid $100 the whole month she was here which is wrong as she had nothing else to pay.. She still has not got her sons her ex has them and i think he is going to keep them and not give them back as it has now been about 2months so the chances of her getting them back are near to nothing.

On Saturday i had a friend here for the day and she had bought two pkts of hair dye the wash out ones and did my hair she thought it was quiet funny as it is purple lol lol i told her i look like a purple people eater now i hope it washes pout really soon. But everyone says it does not look too bad i am getting used to it and think every morning when i wash my hair that i am a day closer to it comi9ng out lol lol lol .

Well that is about all for now as i am getting a buit teary and down i will blog again soon i promise.

Hugs Michelle xxx ooo

Today some stupid idiot almost made me smash into them when i was taking the kids to their daqy carers place for the night. I missed a serious accident by about half an inch. I went right off my bloody head i stopped traffic and was going to get out of my car and really knockhim out but i thought better of it. I just tooted my horn and yelled out my  window at him. I almost felt my car start to roll but i got control of it very quickly to avoid it happening.

 Sunday my mum is coming over to take Tiffany shopping for her birthday present so all the kids will be happy to see nan then for a few hours as well as they have not seen her for about 2 weeks.

The holidays are here and i need to find lots to do with the kids so they do not get bored.

I have everything nearly in order for Caydn for assessments for school next year as i seen the vice principal this morning and talked to her and the  guidance officer as well in regards to what we need to do. I have to find all the reports i have from all the different people he has seen in his four years of life. That should be fun to find where i put them lol lol. I will find them soon enough i think anyway.

Caydn is starting Occupational Therapy next Friday morning and then he gets his glasses next week sometime they will be ready so when he gets them i will take a pic and put in my blog for everyone to see how cute he looks with them on. He is so very excited about getting them which is a good thing i guess.

Well i have to go now as Bj needs to get picked up from work at 9pm if i not there he will ring me soon to see if i am still picking him up.

I hope everyone has a good weekend and enjoy the good times with family and friends!

Night to you all and will blog as soon as i get a chnace and i will also take lots of pics morro of the kids on jumping castle too.

Hugs Michelle xxx ooo

I am slowly on the mend from my pnehmonia and keeping warm is the best medicine at the moment i think staying inside is good. Everyone does everything for me i just sit back and relaz loll lol lol

Well tomorrow is Tiffanys' 14th Bday she is having a smallish party here on Saturday as my friend little girl is 2 on Friday so we have prdered a jumping castle for the day. The day wil be so much fun i think i may even try my hand at jumpng on the jumping castle lol lol i would most likely pop it. Then Tiffany is going to the blue light disco with her friends she goes to this every month usually the last saturday of the month.

I am going to get going now and get some sleep as i have to get up early and take a froind to the drs tomorrow and do a few things to.

Hope everyone is having a great week.

For those of you who may be unwell i hope ou all get better soon.

Hugs Michelle xxx ooo

Well i better get going am off to bed now having trouble breathing due to the night air so wil be taking my ventolin with me tonight again.

I hope everyone is keeping well and if any of you are sick please get well soon!

Hugs Michelle take care and i will be on again as soon as i get more energy to type. Just wanted to let you alll know what has been going on incase anyone was worrrying. Thank you Alana for all your sms and yes i promise to rest..

xxxoooxxxooo

I have made arrangements but not booked anything as yet until it gets closer to the date we have chosen to leave. This friend of mine has never been away from her kids for more than a night so it is going to be really good for the both of us to go. I had a little chat with a friend in regards to maybe visiting their family when we go away.  Sorry everyone but i will let you all know when it gets closer.

Well i have almost finished my course only have one unit to go and am having trouble getting it done hopefully when i feel better i get into it and complete it. I will let you all know when i have completed it and have had my last assessment as this is when i will get my certificate for the course.

I still have a friend staying with me and i am starting to feel the strain at the moment. Yesterday i was so exhausted i went to bed at 2pm and woke at 5pm so i was totally worn out. I then went to bed at 9pm and slept until 7am this morning. The kids have been really off their heads big time so much energy between them all i am exhausted again tonight so this will only be a quick blog for tonight.

Sorry i have not been around much but am thinking of you all each day!

Have a great week

Hugs Michelle and Family xxx ooo

Hi all well sorry i have not been on for a while there has been so much going on in my house it is not funny anymore.

At the moment i have a friend staying with me and she does not seem to be doing anything to get a house of her own she has two young sons and has given custody of them to their father as she has no where to live and has been mentally and physcological unstable. I know i have my own demons to deal with but now i have hers as well. I am going to get her of her lttle ass and do something about getting a place to live permanenmtly as it is really starting to drive me crazy. Dont get me wrong she does help out at times but seems to really be enjoying not having her childrena dn has been partying the last few weeks talking pills and getting drunk at every chance she can. I put a stop to it since she has been here but she sleeps till usually about 11am and i cannot handle that. I am u lately at like 5.30am 6 am depending when my eyes open lol. I have been stressed out and i realised tonight theat i have been under talking one of my meds that is how stuffed up my head is roight now ummmm maaaaa. Yes i know it is bad but i have just been so stressed but tonight i have taken the correct dosages of my meds i am trying to be good as possible.

Well yesterday Caydn had to go and see his peadiatrician for his checkup. She was pretty happy with him and he is doing ok. Well in a way i guess he is. He was in one of his moods yesterday from the time he woke up so i knew i was really in for it from 7am. The peadiatrician tried to have a conversation with him to see if he made eye contact at all and you guessed it he never once made eye to eye contact with her the whole time she was chatting to him. She asked him if he had friends at kinder and he said no, She asked him why and he said :cos i do not want any!" I was shocked by hois answer. He does keep to himself most of the time at kinder usually enjoying solitary play. Other children can be near him when he is playing but he will not interact with them in no way at all. Caydn is now on the 50th percentile in height but only on the 25th percentile for weight so he is still low for his age which he has b eeen for most of his life nothing new to me. He did at one stage start to go above this but has now dropped back again. He does eat at most meal times so it is not a lack of food. The peadiatrician had ordered blood tests which i took him to have today. He was really good while having it done and he got to have a woody bandaid on it he thought that was cool as lol lol. She is checking his iron levels, and heaps of other things she is also testing for fragile-x syndrome she said she does not want to miss anything and to make sure she has covered every possible avenue with him and to ensure he gets all the help he needs or will need in his life especially when he starts school next year.

After seeing the pead yesterday i had to drop Caydn at kinder as he was to be seen by the field worker that organised his aide for the last two terms. I dropped him off and came home to do a few things as i needed to be back at the kinder by 12 to pick him up and have a meeting to see if we would still need the aide the next two terms. I got there and the field worker was chattingt to me telling me that she was thinking about stopping the aide for the rest of the year until she SAW the True Caydn lol lol he was being very defient and notlistening to what he was told to do. He had been hiding under tables so as to not be a part of the group at all. I am happy that she saw the true Caydn as before this they had never seen him in top gear even though i told them exactly what he was really like. Hooray for Caydn lol lol!

I am not well at the moment and have a chest infection so have to take antibiotics for this ontop of all my normal meds i will be rattling like a bay rattle soon i think. Jaya has a chest infection also and i think Caydn is getting his asthma too, so it must be going a round somewhere. Today i picked Caydn up from kinder and yes he was being very naughty he was not listening or doing as he was told, Caydn had been tot he toilet but did not flush it or wash his hands so they were trying to get him to do these two things before he came home which is fair enough i told them. So they asked him to do it while i was there and he ran, the kinder aide told him to walk as running was not allowed inside which he knows too well. I told her to make him go back to the mat and do it again but this time walk. The aide did do this but he still tried to jump back to the mat so she sent him back to the toilets to do it correctly. Finally after 5 minutes of this he walked to the mat but would not sit down so i told him he could not come home until he had done exactly what was asked of him. He finaly sat down and then they told him he could go. I asked them if he had been like this the whole session to which they told me he had gggggrrrrrrrr. He had been under tables refusing to come out, he ripped his jeans as there was a little hole in them he made it extremely big right from the knee to the ankle he got into trouble for this as he did it on purpose they told me. He sat on the mat at one stage and just ripped it.

Well i am off for the night i hope everyone has a great week and weekend and please take care.

Thinking of all my friends every day!

Hugs Michelle xxx ooo

Well just a quick blog for now i will try to gewt on tonight and lwt you all know how things are in detail.

Have a great day and hope each and every one of you have a great day.

Hugs Michelle xxx ooo

Bj went for his learners today and passed i am so proud of him he did it all on his own he got 78% he was excited to. I had to get a friend to take him as i had to take Tiffany for an x-ray on her mouth as i took her to the dentist yesterday and they were concerned as one of her baby eye teeth has not yet come out but the other one has. So they needed an x-ray to see if the adult one was under the gum somewhere as they could not see or feel it at all. So she has to go back next Monday afternoon and take the x-rays with us then they will let me know what is going on.

Today i was running here and there i am so tired too but now i have got a second wind. I have my neighbours two children staying tonight as they have to go to Mildura early in the morning so they are staying here and then they go home in the morning and get ready for school. Thank god for that lol lol

Kristy has to come down tomorrow too as some idiot she went out with years ago and his g/f and another of his friends have gotten restraining orders on her and if she does not come down they will put a warrant out for her arrest. It sucks big time she is stressing out and i told her not to worry too much as they will get thrown out cos all they have said is nothing but lies, that is all they know but one of them has never ever met Kristy before so work that out. Barry her fiancee is coming with her they are driving down so should be here sometime in the afternoon. I get to see Skye again anyway yayayay.

I have my friend here and we are just chatting about everything and anything. I hope you are all having a great night and i will blog tomorrow night and put a pic of my van up especially for Alana lol lol yes i know i am being cheeky now but ya love me for it lol pmsl.

Well better get going and i oromise to blog tomorrow night about my day.

Take care and hugs to you all

Michelle

xxxooo

I have been going to my physc every Tuesday so he can see how i am going and i am happy to say i am at the moment going well and yes i am finally happy during the day at least.

Four of the kids went to a c.h.i.p.s. camp this weekend and my mum took the younger two on Friday morning so i had no young ones at all until today. Yes very quiet here thos weekend which is very weird to say the least. I dropped the 4 going to camp in Berwick at about 5pm Friday and they had a sausage sizzle and played games. They all had a buddy each well Cody had two. He thought that was great and they all left with smiles on their faces which made me feel better about them going. I said goodbye to them all and told then i would see them today after luch sometime 4pm i had to be there to collect them.

Last night we had friends pver for drinks and i was the only sober oneout of them all as i am on meds i do not drink unless i feel like 1 or 2 cos i have found that it makes me more depressed. They were all so funny i had a very sore stomach from laughing so hard and for so long at them being stupid lol lol. I had two of my friends a male and a female playing twister dance dvd it was hillariuos as. They could not even do half of the moves to it all. They were jumping and swinging their arms and legs everywhere i even got my video camera out and videoed them that is how funny they were. Then my battery went flat so i got the digital camera out and took pics i will have to post some so you can see how funny they looked in still pics. They did not go home until after 2am this morning so by that time i was worn out big time. I had taken mt medication at about 1am when i normally take them at about 9pm every night. oh well it was a great night i have not laughed so much in ages so was worth it all.

Today was very quiet woke at 8am so i got up rather than lie in bed as i would have gotten a headache if i did. My mum brought the younger two home at about 10am this morning which was earlier than i aske dher to bring them home lol lol but it was good as i was soooooo bored any way. At about 3.30pm i left home to go and pick up the happy campers that were arriving back at 4pm. So i got there at about 3.50pm as itis not that far where i had to pck them up from anyway. They arrived back and they all had massive smiles on their faces and ran to me with arms wide open and gave me hugs and kisses. They all had to go to the hall to get another surpise mind you they already had a bag full of things like teddies, photos, beanies and the boys had wooden craft things they have ot put together then paint, Ashlee  got a scrapbooking thing. They were all so happy and the buddies told me that they were very well behaved which i knew they would be as this is the first time they have been away without me apart from family day care. So when they went into the hall they were given a football for the boys and a basketball for the girls they were even more excited now. We went outside with their buddies and played football and basketball for about half an hour or so. Then i decided it was time ot head home as i had to cook tea for everyone and i was starving, so the buddies helped me take all the bags etc.... to the car. The kids got in after giving their buddies cuddles and telling them they would see them in 2 weeks when they have a campers reunion. Got in the car and drove home. I was glad to get home. Cooked the tea and kids got into their pjs. Once tea was cooked and eaten it was time for kids to go to bed it was getting late and they were all really tired. I tidied up and went next door to have a cuppa with my neighbours to get out for a little bit. Came home and thought i would jump on and do a quick blog did not realise what the toime was lollol lol loll lol lol

Tomorrow i am going to look at a new van as i have nbever really had a decent one. Anyone knows anyone in vic that is looking for a van that seats 8 i have one for sale. I am so counting down tikl tomorrow about the van as i went on Saturday to have alook at them and i have placed a holding deposit on one so keeping my fingers crossed and my legs too lol lol

Well better get going it is getting late and my eyes are oing blurry lo, lol

OI Hope EveryOne has a fantastic week and i will blog soon

HUgs

Michelle

xxx ooo

Well yesterday Cody came home from school upset and said " mum i may have a black eye in the morning!" I asked him "Why?" he told me he had been bullied at school by three girls they held him and smashed his face into a tree a few times. Not happy at all.

Woke up this morning and Cody was in a mood and a half and the other  kids came running to me saying "Mum Cody has a purple eye!"  So i got up and had a look at it oh my god it was purple too. He was very embarressed about it and i told him not to stress too much as i would go to school with him and let his teacher know. Harley was so very cute with Cody this morning he made Cody a nutella sandwhich for breakfast sooooo cuuuutttteee! So off to the schoo i go at 8.30 as Tyson had an appointment at 9am about his eyes. I saw the councillor when i got there and told him what had happened yesterday and that Cody would be there in his office to see him soon. I waited for Codys teacher to arrive at the class room so i could fill her in a bit more than she already knew. Cody was very upset and started to cry while telling her exactly who and what had happened  to him. She is so very caring with him even though some days he can be a little horror and give her a hard time all day, So she was so very upset and angry with it all and especially when she actually saw his eye. She told Cody that she would be dealing with the girls and they would be getting into a bit more trouble than they thought they were already in yesterday as one got time out and her name on the board. The teacher then took Cody to see the welfare officer so he could have a chat. I then took Tyson for his eye test and he has to have new lenses in his glasses as the ones he has are only half the strength he actually needed but we had to do it slow not all at once it would have been too much for his eyes. So next wednesday morning i have to take his glasses to the optometrist and leave them ythere so they can fit the new lenses then go back with Tyson after school and collect them. He has to wear his glasses all the time in class now but not outside and at home i have told him he is not to watch tv unless he has them on this was it will encourage hime to wear them more and get in the routine of it all. So took Tyson back to school and he had computers so i reminded him 3 times in front of the teacher about his glasses and that he has to wear them in class too. He waved me goodbye and went and sat at a computer to do whatever the others were doing. He loves computers and really likes going on it at home too.

After i dropped him off i went to the bank to get some money out so i could get food for tonight i was getting my friend to make her yummy scallop potatoes i could eat them all day if i had enough lol lol. I also had apricot chicken and vegies it was really yummy.

I dropped the kids at family day carers as she is having them tonight rather than friday night as they are going away in a camp for the weekend. They are going to have so much fun. My mum is going to come down on Friday morning and collect Caydn and Jaya and take them to her house for the weekend. I will be child free apart from the  two teenagers but they are no trouble really they can look after themselves.

I have rung Alana and given her a good laugh to cheer her up as i do so well. Now i am going to go make a warm milo and wait till 10pm to collect Bj from work. I have to go out in the cold night air i am sure he wants me to get sick lol lol

Well will blog soon and let you all know how the kids go on the weekend too.

Take care and remember a smile and a laugh go a long way in life even if you are not feeling up to it!! My words i say to myself each morning.

Hugs Michelle xxx ooo

Bj has been expelled from his course as he was not doing as he was told and was making smoke bombs in the classrooms as well with some other kids so as he had already been suspended before for three days he got expelled this time so i was not what you would call happy at all. Now he has been working alot of night times at red rooster so am happy he has gotten extra shifts gets him out of my hair as he has real attitude at the moment and thinks he knows everything there is to know about life right now.

Well i better get going as i have to go out in the cold and collect Tiffany and her friends from the disco at 9pm.

I will try and blog again tomorrow so you know i am ok.

Thinking of you all

Hugs

Michelle xxx ooo

Thank you to everyone here on Minti that  are my friends i miss ya all and will be back!!!!!!!!

Well better get going have a massive headache hence Alana that why i am up so late he he ha ha!!!! Not normally awake at this timeof the night. lol lol lol lol I will log in tomorrow and maybe leave a message or two for my friends who are really close to my heart you all know who you are so i wont name names ok?? Thank you all again for listening to or should i say reading how down i am. lol lol lol lol

I hope everyone has a great weekend and enjoy yourselves i will be staying inside it going to be very cold and wet here morrow so will be near heater all day relaxing till younger ones get home from Family day carers as they stayed there tonight. I do not know what i would do without her sometimes she is a blessing to my family.

Oh i almost forgot my 4 primary schoolers are going away next weekend from friday till sunday on a camp to Phillip Island with a heap of other kids and leaders(buddies). They will get one buddy each so will enjoy having one on one time with someone special for the weekend. My neighbour across the street organised it for them as she knows all about my depression and the fact that their dad was on drugs she is so lovely for helping and doing this for my children. They are so excited already so it will be different for them not having me or being at their carers next weekend. She will get a well deserved break too.

Well i am off to bed now good night to you all and chat soon!

Hugs and many more

Michelle xxx ooo

Hi all well today started off really well, i woke up at 8am slept in not the norm for me usually up at 7am. So got out of bed and was bombarded by the kids with all their presents they had bought for me and they cooked me toast with vegimite and cheese as well. It was soggy but the thought was there. They also made me a warm milo for me this morning.so cute they were. I opened all their presents and they were all excited with what they bought me. Cody got me a mobile phone holder that says " Best mum ever!", Ashlee got me a letter writing set with a calculator and a pen with it, Harley got me a bath scrubber sponge and a soap, Tyson bought me a pot of flowers, Caydn and Jaya gave me a "Mummys Care Box" it is really sweet it is wooden and has two fairies on it as i like fairies there is a poem inside that reads:

Mummys Care Box

A Toothpick- to remind you to stick with it

A rubber band _ it reminds you to be flexible, and also to help you stretch beyond your expectations

Smarties_ to help you on days when you do not feel smart

Minties- for moments like these

Lifesaver- to remind you that everyone needs help once in a while

A paper clip- to hold it all together

Confetti- to help you celebrate the good times

A rose- to remind you to take time to smell the flowers

Bandaid- to fix things when they are broken

This care box was made with love, to help.you through those tough times when i may not be at my best, and neither are you

But i always love you mum

From Caydn and Jaya

I almost cried when i was reading it. I also got a new electric fry pan as the one i had was getting old.

Today i was putting the washing on and Harley said to me " Mum what are you doing?: I replied "Putting the washing on why?" He then turned to me and said ever so cutely " Mummy you should not be doing that as it is mothers day and you are meant to rest and do nothng today!" I replied well i have to do it mate as no one else knows how to use the washing machine. He replied "Oh ok!' then preceeded to go and tell all the other kids off for not helping me. How cute is that?

Kristy has gone home now and i am missing Skye and her already. They rang me today to wosh me Happy mothers day and it was great to hear them again.I also received a message on my mobile from my other Daughter that i have had the trouble with and i do not speak to her wishing me a happy mothers day. What the hell she acts like she has done nothing wrong and that all is good but it is not.

Tonight i have a friend here visiting and we are just chatting about everything. This is the friend who is moving to Darwin soon, she is like a dughter to me and she sent me a message for mothers day as well it was so sweet of her she bought me a necklace with a mum on it for mothers day she has nothing to do woth her mum as she is a bitch!

Well that is it for tonight i will blog soon.

I hope everyone had a wonderful mothers day and got lots of nice pressies too.

Hugs Michelle xxx ooo