Ametrine's Minti Blog

emotinally and mentally drained

Ametrine — Sun, 12 Apr 2009 06:27:24 -0700

well wth one thing i was dredding has happened. Phina and Stewart's had the most awfull fall out last wenesday. and he toild her that if she was wanting to be down in london so badly that she was willing to get us all into searious trouble by not paying the bil so she had the monel, that as far as he was concerned she may as well pack her bags and go. and she did. i was too stunned to do anything at the time. i realy thought it was a called bluff and she would stay at my moms. but she's down there now with no money or place to stay, staying in some strangers ( femail ) home who she met while wandering around. None of here so called internet friends have come through for her, it's a hard lesson to learn but she wouldn't listen to us when we said, they are only internett friends which is different frome friends in the flesh.

Ant's sent her some money yesterday and i'm trying to get her to come back to mom's so she can 'get her act togther' so to speek. decide what she wants to do now. i already know she'll never come back here.

i'm sick at heart, i'm looking out of the window and everyones going about their busness as normal, it seams un real. i can't phon mom as our phone's in the frount room and rabbits have huge ears, so it would not be private. there are no bus's till tuesday but i don't have the money to catch one any how.

yes she left without leaving the house keeping money. the way it was sorted. and the only way we got this flat was because she was under 18 when we applied to the housing agancy, unfortunatly it had to go into stewarts name as she was under 18, otherwise it's realy her flat. they made a couple clame in her name as she was the most likly to get it with no hassell so all the money goes into her account. of which we have no idea what state it's in but by looking st some of here reacent letters she's not been paying some of the house hold bills, so we're expecting to hear form the gas, electric and water people soon, not to mention the phone, sky, tv linceing corp and internett as the money was set up as direct debits from her account which we have found out has been running over the overdraft since feb, so she owes them grand amounts in charges. the cataolgue is thretting court actions as well as her bank credit card. i can see why she'd want to just go and leave all this mess behind . But if she'd let us in on it then we may have been able to sort someting out. i've also got to explain to the proventent loans that the last bounced cheque for her payment will not be covered and some how out of my money this week i've got to find mine and stewart's payments plus the second payment to the phone bill, she'd only payed half. and still try to cover the bills i'd agreed on to pay. if i can put everyone off till after the 28th when ant gets paid it could be ok.

i'm trying to stay strong, up intill early this morning stewart's been ok, last night he'd started to tidy up in her room, it's not ben tided since november... and the kittens had used somewear other than the litter box and it needed finding. unfortunatly he's read some of here writings and has not liked what he found she's been thinking of him, mostly the hurt was he'd turned into a 'money grabbing corporat suporting bastared' which is laughtable as we've not had the money to be buying anything latley. the only stuff hes brough reacently is for his app to uni this sept. for the project he's got to hand in. but that's out of the window as i don't think hes going to have the umph, as this going to uni in hearfordshire was to be able to move Phina nearer to london in the first place and to help her to find her own space, well she's already gone so he won't be wanting to follow that up now.

poor ant's stuck here for longer as we'll need his contrubution to be able to stay here. when stewart and i worked it out in november, when she said she wanted to move down to london in the first place. we worked out that with my money and him on joseekers till he found work, that we could cover the bills but not eat or eat and not cover all the bills, which is why we asked her to stay and he'd apply to uni down south and we would have more money available to help her move.we sugested that if she was inagreement, which i thought she was, that we'd budget in the money so she could go down london at least once a month, now it looks like ant's going to have to chip in more of his wages ( he was saving to get his own place ) so in the short term his stuck here.

I think she'd been planning to just go for a while now as looking back the trips were getting closer together, three times between feb and this last one and as i said she'd distanced her self from us since november. spending all her time in her room not even joining us to watch tv or meals.

i'm just holding it together, stewart has bi-polar depression and it was getting better the ups were becomming a lot longer and the downs much shorter, so i'm having to put my feeling to one side to deal with later as, if i go under i'm not sure what the outcome would be, also i keep ontop of it as ant dosn't need me to go to peaces.

sorry to drop this in your lap but i needed an out let and i thought you'd be the most understanding....

Hi

Ametrine — Tue, 31 Mar 2009 11:56:53 -0700

I thought I'd share this photo Stewart took from our kitchen window, we could take a different photo every day and they would never be duplicated.

My frightening morning awakening

Ametrine — Mon, 23 Feb 2009 03:58:31 -0800

At approximatly 8.30am this morning i was awakened by a frantic shaking to find Stewart cowering by the side of my bed nearly shaking him self to bits. He was having the worst Hypoglycaemic attack i've witnessed to date htpp//www.en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypoglycemia .

Stewart has these attacts every now and then if he forgets to eat at regular time during the day. Mostly he/we can recognise an on comming drop in his sugar levels way before the shakes start, unfortunatly sometimes he's so absored in somthing that the first tell tail sines are missed and last night/ early morning he had been playing WoW and forgotten to eat for 8 hours so was in full blown Hypoglycemia when he managed to crawl into my room. My first reaction was call an ambulance, but after 'nurse mode' kicked in i knew what needed to be done. www.patient.co.uk/showdoc/40001627/

In Stewarts case a gloocose drink, siped through a straw as the skakes and teeth chattering were too much to risk a glass to the mouth. followed by a warm 4 sugared tea. I was going to give it a nother 1/2 an hour and if it had not started subsiding by then definatly call an ambulance out. Fortunatly his shaking started to calm and he was able to talk more cohearently. So the imedate attack was passing over. It's completly exhuasted hin and i know from the past expearences he'll sleep for ages now.

I thought i'd write up about this as most people have no idea about Hypoglycaemia, when the blood sugar level drops, more people know about Hyperglycaemia , when the blood sugar is too high , like in Diabetes ,

www.bbc.co.uk/health/conditions/diabetes/livingdiabetes_blood.shtml

Unfortunatly when the average person in the street is confrounted by any one exibbting any of the symptions the first thoughts can not be helpfull, ie, there drunk, on drugs or even acting stupid for attention, we've had them all .

I wanted to bring this to others attention as a quick responce can mean the differance between a short controlled attack and coma.

Children and young adults can also suffer from these blood sugar highs / lows en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hypoglycemia#Causes if anyone has any worrys the best thing to do is consult a medical practioner as there may be some underlying cause. Most often this can be controled by diet.

I hope i've not frightened any one by this blog, i just wanted to shair and hopefully help spread awearness.

Hi

Ametrine — Sat, 07 Feb 2009 17:43:38 -0800

I replaced our duvets this week with ones filled with re-cycled green plastic bottles , yes i said green plastic bottles. They were on sale at our local co-op and they are 15 tog so good for this drafty old flat The only reason i'm realy mentioning it is i'd not realised how flat my old duvet had gotten well as i said it was old, then Fidel weed on it last week and i thought " that's the hint i need to get a new one ". It's so big and unfortunatly stiff thay i woke this morning feeling like i'd slepted in a huge marshmallow and i'd thought about new pillows too, i'd have not been abole to move, it crinkles every time you move and it' s freeked the cats out so i did not have my usual continjancy of cats

Well this got me thinking , what other things are made from re-cycled matereals ??? i was trying to find a site that showed picks of the materieals being recycled or the end duvet filling . Never mind so far i came up with these two and thought i'd shair it with you all ( Please note this is not a link to sell you anything i just thought you may be interested in what your recycling is being used for, i was ) I'll just have to wait untill my new duvets old then unpick a smeam to find out If in the mean time i do find say a fvdio or site with better info then i'll stick it on my blog so you can see

http://www.energysavingsecrets.co.uk/RecycledProducts.html

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I couldn't get this to work as a link so i've cut and pasted it from

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It's so quiet.... tooo quiet

Ametrine — Fri, 06 Feb 2009 04:42:59 -0800

Well Phina's gone down to london for the night, Antony's at work and so far Stewarts asleep, it's me and the cats even their being quiet, they miss Phina . I'm finding my self humming the start to Bork's song which starts " it's so quet.... " Other than that i'm listening to BBC Radio 4 the next best thing to reading

We had the predicted snow monday , wednesday / thursday and as usual britain was not ready for it. This happens every year, this year aparenty there not enough grit to put down

Yesterday was alittle worring though as we had the kittens booked in to be nutered, sorry guys if your reading this as i know most men when talking about this cross their eyes and legs. Any how it was rather importent it was done as one of the kittens , Fidel, was bing intimidated by the smell when the other, Thich, weed in the litter tray and was starting to wee all over the house the last straw was the sofa we have a litter tray in every room at the moment so he had at least one freah to use but it's costing a fourtume in catlitter keeping on cleaning them out everytime Tich used one as his wee was getting realy smelly so it was time to sort them out. And i'd got to the point of thinking about tying an elastic band around the erhum bits like they do to male lambs when their born any how we managed to find a taxi service running and got there with no problem. Picked them up at 4pm same taxi driver , we've been using them for the last 4 years, gosh have we realy been here that long Unfortunatly the older two cats keep hissing at them as thay don't smell right Fidels taken to lying under my feet for potection, he's the smallets and my baby and is slightly down trodden by the others and he knows thay will leave him be if he hangs around me, i spoil him rotten

Fidel at the frount Thich behind

Obi at the frount Nix behind

The poor kittens were famished when thay got home but we had to feed them small amount so the would not throw it back up a reaction i can only too well sympathise with myself after anasetic

I know many of us are way from thinking about hayfever at the moment but if you have considered local honey as a help preventative, it's time to start taking it now for those of you who do not know what i'm on about please see my advice artical

Catch up with you all when i have more to say

Leaving loads of hugs, love and laughter on this page for everyone so help youself's

Way Hay we,ve gone back too the old firewall :-)

Ametrine — Fri, 06 Feb 2009 00:15:30 -0800

Still can't put any picks on my friends pages so not quite sorted, will have to ask my ' in home ' teck ' advisor to have another look see

So I'll say here that i've been thinking about you all here on Minti and hope life is treating you all well

I can now get on with my tag

this is me doing my Charlie's Angels pose, hence the Fara Forset-majour's hair . The photo got water damaged at some time so is a little blotchy.

This was me taken by my best friend Charol aged 14/15, messing about in my backgarden , we both had one of these floresent cossies. Her's was lime green . Un forchantly they went seethorugh when we went to the swimming pool so were only used for poseing

Hi

Ametrine — Fri, 30 Jan 2009 02:09:52 -0800

This is so anoying. we have a new firewall and it seams not to be getting on with Minti, so i'm unable to put any pics up at least i have the smilies

Well all's quiet here, Antony's back at work , Phina's re-going through the untidy/smelly teenage phase and Stewart's still on the meds + world of warcraft 18/7 the rest he's asleep he's taken to eating up to the computer now. I'm a little worid it's getting obsessive. as soon as i'm finished here he'll be back on so i'm trying to catch-up quickly as hes gotten into a decent sleeping pattern and is waking up around 9am and i can see him at the moment agittating to be in the world, the problem today is i have quite a few things to catch up on myself so it's going to be aprox 2 hours till he can get his 'fix'

Phina went down to london for the day yesterday, i'll be more positive about her wish to move if she could do at least one trip without having to resort to ringing us to bail her out. The last time she went was for 4 days and we had to pay for her ticket home, the time before she'd got on the wrong train and i had to talk a very frightened 'young lady' back to calm, on a reversed phone call and she want's to be independant, Yesterday it was "mom i've mised the train back ( 4.50pm ) what times the next train ? " she missed that one too she ended on the 8 something one and me having to call out a worc's taxi to pick her up and pay for it when she got back. It was lucky Ant had just given me his up-keep money so i had some to use or it would have ment getting my dad out to fetch her and that was not a prospect i'd cherrished Thay go to bed early as they like the early mornings to walk the dogs.

I had a few picks i wanted to post ah well never mind it will get sorted some time

So what alse is news ? we're still wating on the snow thay keep forcasting, mom says it's too cold to snow, that it always gets a little warmer before snow, old wives storys ? I'm getting a whole load of bird food in as the starlings like the fat balls and all birds need a alot of fat based food during the winter to keep them warm during the night. Quite a few gardens here now have bird tables more are springing up each year, so now i don't have to feel quite so bad if i can't afford some food for a couple of days

I'll rap this up here as i need to get on otherwise i'll be writing an essay I realy just wanted to let you know all well,

Sending love and laughter pluss hugs to every one and my wish to you all is all you wish your selves . " live long and prosper ", oops watched startreck last night at least you can't see me do the spock hand from there

Lisa x x x

ps: i realy must read through these posts before i hit save , i've had to go to edit twice now any mor i notice will just have to remain

it looks like i've used most of the smiles so here some and

Ok i've been tagged twice :-)

Ametrine — Mon, 26 Jan 2009 07:16:26 -0800

i was wondering if one pick would cover both then i thought that would be cheeting a bit

Untortunatly i'm not getting the downloader on this page to work. Will have to get back to this, i can't even get a smily to work now. As this is not my computer and it's needed in a few mins to go out and smash, mine and other exciting things i don't think it's quite the right time to start fiddling with the controls :-)

Hi to all, yes I'm back :-)

Ametrine — Sat, 24 Jan 2009 15:56:34 -0800

I know it's a little late, but my mom always said " better late than never "

To cut a very long story as short as poss. I've gone from being a partner / soul mate to companion / soul mate. Nothings realy changed in the way we are to wards each other,i am missing those ' things ' partners do gogether :-) One is a lonly word when in a double bed.

Aprox. two months back, Phina anounced right out of the blue, that she'd met some one on facebook and was moving by the end of the week down to london to be nearer him. It was at this point that Stewart realized exactly how he felt about her and went to bits, he has bi-polar, With some very good pills off the doctor we managed to perswade him not to walk out. Phina's still here as she needs to save up to move.

The doc but me back up to 60mg of the tabs, i'd only just come down to 40mg after being on them for four years at 60mg. This week i'v gone back to taking 40mg, in a couple of months i'll be going down to 20mg then i can finaly hope to stop them altogether and start to cope without them :-)

Antony's had the last week off as holiday from work so he and Stewart have spent nearly 24 / 7 on World of Warcraft. It's all that's been keeping Stewart sane as he dosen't have to think of any thing alse while playing it and boy has he been playing it. if anyone knows what i mean by in the last two months his caracter has gone up to level 41.

I've now managed to get my head above water and have started swimming for shore. All in all i'm quite chipper. Actualy i've no feelings going around at all, it's the meds :-)

26th Jan, The year of the ox, thinking of you with love and laughter, Lisa x x x

Another year is almost over

Ametrine — Tue, 23 Dec 2008 03:33:44 -0800

to all my friends, it's been a rough year in all and i can't see this new one being much better. I know I've not been around much, been thinking of you all. I hope everyone is doing well. As soon as i have the energy i will start dropping in more often.

and

for all the support you have given me this year. Love and best wishes, hugs and kisses, Lisa x x x

for all my friends who are celebrateing this weekend

Ametrine — Fri, 10 Oct 2008 05:43:10 -0700

Train Ride

Ametrine — Tue, 07 Oct 2008 03:26:22 -0700

A WW II American soldier had been on the front lines in Europe for three months, when he was finally given a week of R&R. He caught a supplyboat to a supply base in the south of England, then caught a train to London. The train was extremely crowded and he could not find a seat. He was dead on his feet and walked the length of the train looking for any place to sit down.

Finally he found a compartment with seats facing each other; there was room for two people on each seat. On one side sat only a proper looking, older British lady, with a small dog sitting in the empty seat beside her.

" Could I please sit in that seat ? " he asked.

The lady was insulted. " You Americans are so rude "

she said, " Cant you see my dog is sitting there? "

He walked through the train more and still could not find a seat. He found himself back at the same place.

" Lady, I love dogs - have a couple at home- so I would be glad to hold your dog if I can sit down." he said.

The lady replied " You Americans are not only rude, you are arrogant "

He leaned against the wall for a time, but was so tired he finally said " Lady, Ive been on the front lines in Europe for three months with not a decent rest for all that time. Could I please sit there and hold your dog? "

The lady replied " You Americans are not only rude and arrogant.You are also obnoxious "

With that comment, the soldier calmly stepped in, picked up the dog, threw it out the window, and sat down. The lady was speechless.

An older, neatly dressed Englishman sitting across on the other seat spoke up.

" Young man, I do not know if all you Americans fit the ladys description of you or not. But I do know that you Americans do a lot of things wrong. You drive on the wrong side of the road, you hold your fork with the wrong hand, and now you have just thrown the wrong b**** out of the window "

Well yesterday was a real break through

Ametrine — Tue, 30 Sep 2008 04:09:47 -0700

I think I may have actualy got over my fear of the dentist . I had a late proper start to the day, after waking Ant up for 7am, I droped back off to sleep, I don't do that often but some days my cfs hits and I'm just so tired. It was about 10.30 I noticed the date was the 28th. And a small voice prompted me to re-check my dentist appointment, as I thought the 28th fell on Tuesday. I knew that it was for an extraction and having been very nervouce ( see blog entry ) I did not want to miss it and be charged for the privilage . I found that, Yes it was Monday. And neither I nore Phins were dressed for going out. So I called a taxie as the bus would never get their in time, we have to catch two, So a mad get ready was on. Phew it's suprising how fast one can change, brush both hair and teath. It cost us £9.50 to get there Then I had to wait around feeling sick for 25 mins, torture!!!! Once in the chair I was so calm, I'd reached " Ah sod it, carn't change anything as it has to come out " There was a new trainee dentist acting as assistant. He was so calm and friendly, chatting away to me while we wated for the local to set in I didn't have time to think about it. A few movenents later and the tooth was out before I could think "whats going to happen next " I can honestly say that the local injections were alot more trouble than the extraction. What had I been making such a fuss over. Well I feel like I've just atchieved a new stage in adult hood. No tears or nightmares. I still have the niggly feeling of geting old ect. as before, but not asbad as I expected it to be. So it's a diet of tepid food and drinks till 12pm then it will have been 24 hours, Not that I want anything too hot anyhow. When I came down, yes our surgary is on the first floor, reception on the ground floor, I was quite wobbly down the stairs. Who in there right mind puts dentist surgaries on the second floor I think it's so they can have a laugh watching people later off the security camra film ? Well after a taxie back wich cost £8.40 say no more. I went to bed with a warm cat for comfort and my face yelling " what the heck have you done to me? "

Today the swellings going down and I'm going to try a 'cold' cross bun, one of my weeknesses

Catch up with you soon....

I thought it time to catch up.

Ametrine — Sun, 28 Sep 2008 03:24:00 -0700

Well Antony has done his first week no problems. They seam to be a good lot of people, even the manager has a sence of humor. Hes been given 5 red shirts, so we'll have to get an iron and ironing bord, and a brilliant purple t'shirt for Saterdays I commented on the purple as it's my favorite colour and , wow the boss gave Ant and ex -lge one for me, so have a new night shirt with a huge add for vodaphone on the frount, I'm now waking up at 6.30am every morning as an alarm, I love the mornings

The last two mornings have been very foggy out as we live in a wet vallie but by lunch time the sun has been out, the birds are enjoying the new feeders, mainly the starlings squabbling over every thing, they cause such a noise. We had a squirrel hanging off the nut feeder, the photos have come out too smal to be impressive. So if he comes back I may invest in a propper squirrel feeder to save them chewing through the wire on the nut feeder

I have now got my new to me conputer, Stewart decided to get himself a new one that is going to cope with all the graphic stuff he'll be doing at UNI. So I've got the old one now I wait for a space in World of warcraft so he can set it up for me somewere in the frount room as I don't want to be anti social. I'm hoping for later on to day, but if the wait for the bird is anything to go by,..... it could be a while.

I forgot to take the chicking out of the freezer yesterday so it wii be tomorrows tea instead of today never mind , I'll catch up with you all soon, I hope on my own computer

I was sent this from a friend on Facebook and thought I'd shair it with you all on here.

Ametrine — Thu, 25 Sep 2008 00:16:35 -0700

Why do banks charge a fee on 'insufficient funds' when they know there is not enough?

Why do Kamikaze pilots wear helmets?

Why does someone believe you when you say there are four billion stars, but check when you say the paint is wet?

Whose idea was it to put an 'S' in the word 'lisp'?

What is the speed of darkness?

Why is it that people say they 'slept like a baby' when babies wake up every two hours?

Are there specially reserved parking spaces for 'normal' people at the Special Olympics?

If the temperature is zero outside today and it's going to be twice as cold tomorrow, how cold will it be?

How is it that we put man on the moon before we figured out it would be a good idea to put wheels on luggage?

Why do people pay to go up tall buildings and then put money in binoculars to look at things on the ground?

Did you ever stop and wonder......

Who was the first person to look at a cow and say, 'I think I'll squeeze
these pink dangly things here, and drink whatever comes out?'

Who was the first person to say, 'See that chicken there... I'm gonna eat the next thing that comes outta it's bum.'

Why do toasters always have a setting so high that could burn the toast to a horrible crisp, which no decent human being would eat?

Why is there a light in the fridge and not in the freezer?

Why do people point to their wrist when asking for the time, but don't point to their bum when they ask where the bathroom is?

Why does your Obstetrician, Gynaecologist leave the room when you get undressed if they are going to look up there anyway?

Why does Goofy stand erect while Pluto remains on all fours? They're both dogs !

If quizzes are quizzical, what are tests?

If corn oil is made from corn, and vegetable oil is made from vegetables, then what is baby oil made from?

If electricity comes from electrons, does morality come from morons?

Why do the Alphabet song and Twinkle, Twinkle Little Star have the same tune?

Stop singing and read on.......

Do illiterate people get the full effect of Alphabet Soup?

Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog's face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him on a car ride, he sticks his head out the window?

Does pushing the elevator button more than once make it arrive faster?

How quite the flat is

Ametrine — Mon, 22 Sep 2008 02:28:32 -0700

Antony has started a new job today, He's been out of work since Nov. last year and was starting to fret. It's in a phone shop, so he get's to use his "gift of the gab" The application went on a while. I think it was a month in all before he'd jumped through enough hoops to convince them he was searious. The security checks were rediculas, we wre expecting an inside leg measurment and mothers maden name. First there was a securtiy check. Then they wanted all his official documents as his name at birth is Tonie ( it's Italian off my Boi-dad's side of the family ) any how all his work documents say Antony and aparently according to this employer, no one normaly lengthens there birth name. Ant wanted a new start and a grown up name. When his dad agreed to it then he became Antony.... I don't see the problem. Un frotunatly they then wanted his birth cert. A sined statment that he was who he said he was and why his name changed, two prersonal refferances puls one work, then to top the lot.... his first wage slip, the fifth or somthing just as daft and the last . Even the chap at the job center was puzzled. Well at last and only just befor the job center was thinking he was making it all up the rang on Friday to say could he start Today, Yupeee!!!!!! Ant hates the idea he's being a burden. He get's that ' pride chip ' off his dad

An apology

Ametrine — Mon, 08 Sep 2008 23:48:19 -0700

I can't belive I've done it again

What's more embassising is I can't remember who it is that I've deleated the reply comment of , Please if You are reading this can you let me know then I can send you an apology directly.

This will be the second time I'v done this ..... I've clicked delete insted of reply.... Please please forgive me.... I realy must go slower, but when excited my hand moves quicker than my eye. The last time I did this the admin were able to put the reply back but I'm feeling too embarrised to ask again..... thank you for you're comment. I did have a good time at the Gardening culb, but it managed to rain all day so it was held in the village hall... love and laughter Lisa x x x

Hi to my Minti friends

Ametrine — Sat, 06 Sep 2008 01:05:37 -0700

I wanted to let you all know that I've not forgotten you all, I'm having to share my time with "The World of Warcraft " sigh... yes it's arived at our home and both men in the home are spending hours on line playing heros. I'm more miffed than any thing as when they play on the TV I get to watch atleast , this is being played on the computer and as well as hogging all my awake time, I cant' see what's going on so I feel doubley anoyed. The last 'round' was 24 hours long and Stewart knew I've been fretting over Bilinda and her going over her time with the baby, but they both conveniantly forgot. Moan over.

What's happening to our weather ? I thought we wern't suposed to get 40 days andd nights of rain again ? I'm beggining to wonder if I need to start building a boat :-) my poor garden birds are sheltering in what ever shelter the trees are offering and not comming out to eat, they must be well hungury by now. So much for the new bird houce feeder I'v got... I wonder if we're in for an Indian Summer in October this year, then we'll all me saying it's too hot :-)

I'm off to the gardening clubs social this afternoon, they have some small compatitions on, and I'd like to see what I'm up a gainst ready for next year. There may also be some plants for sale.

Catch up with you all when I can. Love to you all, Lisa x x x

It seams like I'm either UP or Down.

Ametrine — Sat, 30 Aug 2008 01:46:12 -0700

I can't find a half way exestance. Today i'm meloncolly. better than yesterday.

I was doing well, but yesterday i was told at the dentist that i've got to have one of my molars out..... this has sent me into a panic. I have a weard hang-up about teeth. When ever some one has a problem with there teeth , i have nightmares over all my teeth dropping out... I know daft... this will be the first tooth i've had extracted, i supose i should be pleased that i've got to this age without loosing any of my second teeth. But i have to wate till the 29th next month to have it done and that gives me too long to get worked up over it.

Then the bome shell... if this dosen't cure the problem then i may have to have two more out as well. I'm phisicaly sick, it's going to be done with a local anasetic so i'll be awake all the way through and i don't know if i can face it. If it was under a general it wouldn't be so much of a problem, still a problem but not as much, if you get what i mean.

Sorry to unload this on you, but i had to tell someone as every one here thinks i making a big fuss over nothing. It's just i'm fighting getting older so hard and my idea of 'older' is people loosing there teeth, I may not be making much sence at the moment, i'm too upset to put it into the correct feelings.

I'm going to become one of those, old biddies with eather no teeth or false teeth. I don't know how to explain it. I'm not sure if i'll , ever , laugh again as i don't want people to see i'v got teeth missing. I know i'm being irational over it all, but we all have our hang-ups and this is one of mine

Thank you for taking the time to read this , I'm just so frightened.... i think if he'd done it there and then i would have been better then i wouldn't have had time to think. The shock factor would have carrid me through, with a good cry after at a 'fate acomplished'.

I'm so excited

Ametrine — Tue, 19 Aug 2008 02:52:24 -0700

My bird table arrived this morning. And as it was already assembled I know what I'll be doing this afternoon :-) I've been saving up for it for a while so now it's here no more hanging the bird feeders from the rotery washing thigie. Mind it was fun watching the starlings going round while feeding, nothing puts those birds off. I've found a hanging bird water feeder so that's next on my list. It'll take the birds a while to get used to it I know as it took days for them to try out the other feeders. I now have a 'fat ball ' holder, seed feeder and a nut feeder. So need a nigier seed feeder and water feeder then thay will have everyting I can think of. I get large filled coconut halfs from the pet shop, their a bit nasty smelling but the birds love them, they have dead insects inculded, Yuck ! and wild berrys. So things are comming together. Unfortunatly the housing ass. toild us to remove the nettles as they are considdered a nuscence to the other gardens. I wouldn't have minded if the other gardens were'show peices' but their all just grass, sigh, can't win them all. I'v got a book now called 'NO Nettles Required' the truth about wildlife gardening. so they won't stop me, ha!

I'm not doing much at the moment my CFS has been playing up , the flat looks like a bomb has hit it, will need to call a family conferance to exlpain they carn't leave it all to me any more as I can't do it, so I need help. I know some of you will say they should have been helping sooner but I was happy doing it as there wasn't much more I could contribute to the house hold, but now I'll have to forgo pride and as they don't seam to have noticed for them selves,point out that I do need help.

The kittens are still going mad climbing the 'now dead' plume tree I have squeezed/ wedged floor to cealing, in my bedroom, we never got the right weather to plant it out , too wet, too cold, too dry you name it it's been round, sigh!, never mind the apple tree's still happy. We re-panted it up into a larger tub so I hope I can limp it along till next spring then it can be planted out.

I know I haven't been on for a while, Hope fully the computer's stoped playing up we had a nasty bug that required wiping the hard drive and re-installing everything, Stewart was not pleased.

Catch up with you all soon, love, laughter and Hug to every one.