there is probably more but i cant think this late at night lol

i just don't want you all to think i've done a runner lol. i have surgery on tuesday for a not so nice thing but i just can't bring myself to say it lol, but i'm also having this procedure done which i have no clue to what it is and the dr's haven't told me they just sent me a letter saying be here at this time to have this done....well ok???

i've written about it in Q & A because i'm hoping someone can shed some light on what it is i'm supposed to have done, it's called flexi-sigmoidoscopy o if any of you know what it is i'd love to know too lol

i'm a little scared but hey i have had 4 drug free natural deliveries so it can't be as bad as those, can it???

he was delivered in just under 6 hrs and she did it all natural with a minute apart contractions from the get go ...no kidding i was there for everything i taped it for her so she has something to look back on apart from memories and she was so happy when he was born she is truly a natural

she was so relieved to get it over with she was 6 days overdue and he had been engaged in her pelvis for 3 weeks with no room to move his shoulders were even engaged as the midwife said on several occasions i'm just so proud of her and i'm so honoured to be apart of his birth, his life and to be his future godmother too

well come on guys i had all girls lol

i have seen dr's and they have all said it could possibly be my pancrease or an obstruction of the bowel, my stomach is so bloated i've gone up three sizes in clothes and i'm in constant pain with it, to be honest it feels like contractions but believe me there is no baby!

i have so much wind it's unbelievable and when i burp it gives me reflux and the smell is repulsive, it sounds funny yes but believe me it's not, i'm really worried it could be something bad and i have a scan booked for 4:15pm tomorrow and i have to fast for 6 hours that includes fluids, it's an upper abdomanal scan and the dr wants to send me for another scan in the lower region of my abdoman another time as because i have to fast with food and water if i was to have a lower scan i would have to drink and i'm not aloud

it's quite scary, my stomach is huge i look like i'm 6 mths pergnant no joke!!!!!!

i can sleep for 16 hrs a day and then go back down again for a day sleep for another 4-5 hrs this isn't normal for me to be sleeping this much i'm really scared something is really wrong and as there is family hystory of my nan and mum having bowel preoblems it's even more worrying, my nan had an obstruction of the bowel a year before she died and it put her in a coma and she almost died, then my mum was born with a twisted bowel and she has had problems ever since too, oh and there is also my aunt she was very close to getting bowel cancer if they didn't catch the problems when they did she wouldn't be here now so you can understand my worry right?

it's driving me crazy i just need to know i can talk to someone

nick xx

we'd nver had it like that before and luckily the girls and simon never had it that bad but i did.

and soon after recovering from the gastro i came down with the flu i caught it from the dr who seen me the second i made a mad dash to hospital lol thanks doc, but anyway i'm still crook but i feel alot better than i did so expect me n here alot more often now girls

hope you managed to have fun without me lol

well last night we heard the guys fighting again but this time they were dragging some poor bugger in the alley way and beating hims so badly we could hear the punches from inside our house with the tv up loud, he was screaming for someone to help him but if we had gone out there we would have been victims ourselves so instead we rang the police straight away and when the cops finaly turned up they didnt even question the boys they drove straight back to the station no questions asked, it's shockingly discusting the way they deal with these criminals, if i had my way i would use them all for piniata at my girls next birthday parties lmao wouldn't that be fun hehehe

oh well i'm sure i will be back to report some more news soon with the way their going it'll be sooner rather than later

hope you are all having better luck wih your neighbours

mackenzie was the first to come down with it and has started to show signs of getting better which has taken almost two weeks to get there, butjordyn and tennessee are quite ill with it, they struggle to breathe through the night and i'm up trying to make them as comfortable as possible and forever running the shower on hot for the steam, i'd hate to see my water bill lol, and now simon and i have caught it so it will probably go through the house again before we totally get over it but atleast it's closer than it was a week ago.

i just feel really bad for the kids being so sick and having so many sleepless nights from it, poor things they look like they have black eyes from the lack of sleep.

well hopefully they get well soon

he is 10 weeks old and is going to be a big dog his name is mahlykai, (pronounced mal..ick..i) , the girls absolutely adore him as he does them also and simon loves him to bits and me well it's nice to know there is another male around for hubby lol poor bloke he was starting to go crazy with all these chicks around

i'll have to post some pics soon but for now i'm just to tired, so hopefully i have some time tomorrow

well night all mwah xxx

she's a bute, she has a 16" HD acer cinecrystal LCD screen, 3GB RAM, 320GB HDD, blue ray compatable, built in web cam, built in subwoofer, she was made this year, bluetooth, dolby home theatre, surround sound,and it even comes with a remote, can record TV programs, and loads more extras.

i love her she is like the newest addition to our already big family, i think my hubby is starting to get worried with all these chicks around lmao even the car is a girl, well i think so anyway

poor bugga lol

what should i do?, i need to know what to do because it's starting to take it's toll on me and for the fact he has done this all of my life i don't want him doing this to my kids all their lives, it was hard enough for me but i wont stand for it to be done with them!

please help!

i'm so angry at her right now she believes that i have been talking about her behind her back back in november well i wasnt but it isnt that easy to convince her of that grrr. she said someone told her that i did and so i asked who it was and she wouldn't tell me again grrr i planned to talk to this person so we could confront this issue with the 3 of us there to see who was lying but nope she wanted no part in it she said she's been sworn to secrecy, well to me that sounds like its a lie anyway and also for the fact that in november when this was supposed to be said i was rushed to hospital for threatened pre term labour yet again at 32 weeks so my priorities weren't really with her and her family at the time but that isnt the real problem here my bil and her have now decided to make it known to my kids aswell, by not inviting them to their own cousins 3rd birthday party and now we arent allowed to come to their engagement, doesnt matter i give it 6 mths anyway well thats what they said when i got married which was almost 4 years ago now hahaha

it just really annoys me that they can be so cruel to my kids and i dont have a say in it, i swear if i see them out in public i will humiliate them like they have to me in the past even though i know i shouldnt let it get to me but hey you dont mess with my kids man, and she has learnt that lesson once before but hey i guess you really can't teach an old dog new tricks lol

simon and i are doing great we have never been better i feel good and right now life is pretty sweet

i cant wait to get some free time and catch up with you all again ive really missed you all alot

Nikki xxxx