Yeah I got Tagged by domestic warrior....Thanks DW it is great to be part of the fun....

So fourth photo file and fourth photo....

Hmmm here is my partner and me in Bali in 2004. We went and had our first ever holiday together and had a great time...Here we are at Turtle Island and these turtles had been rescued and were being rehabilitated...Some of them were huge!

We had a great holiday and I have heaps more pics which doing this made me look at them and have a great old reminice...I came home with Bali Belly in a big way ( Yep #1 Cherub was concieved over there...What a great surprise present to bring home....)

Ok so now I get to tag four people....

1. RCP-432

2.mummymell

3.Ilovemybabies

4.inquisitive-creatures

Cheers all hope you all have great fun like I have...It is great to check back to the memories every now and then. Specially when they are good ones...hahaha!

Spinnychic

The following is just from last night...The rest of my week has been pretty full on too....I hope some can see the humour as last night I was not....

The baby has an infected toenail (in grown) and has done on and off since birth...The skin was grown over the nail ans every now and then it flairs up...We have been managing it quite well with the salt water etc...But this week it got really bad - gross...So off to the drs and now on Anti biotics....Did anyone Know that the infection can spread to the joints and is quite bad??? I did not, my poor little cherub....Anyway since starting the Anti biotics he is so very grizzly, doesn't want to be held, doesn't want to be left alone cant go to sleep on his own and keeps waking with in 20 mins or so....The poor little bugger....So the nurofen and panadol are now on board...

But to top this off the eldest cherub woke up this morning vomiting....Yay up all night with the babe and then vomit first thing....She has spent the day on the couch just sleeping and fighting a fever....Finally got her to eat something tonight...She was just so pale.....

The middle cherub was ok a little sooky and bouncing off the walls cause she wasn't sick but no one wanted to play....Poor little thing she was trying to be so good and quiet cause brother and sister sick....Then dad came home she had a little tantrum so he put her to bed....Now at that time I had three screaming cherubs....

I have not had much sleep as you can see from above but then to top it off we had RAIN here in Melbourne Yesterday and last night....And a couple of weeks ago partner put in 2 1000 ltre rain tanks but did not hook up the overflow 'as it doesnt rain much here' (famous last words) anyway at 3 in the morning I am outside trying to empty out the tanks as they are bulging and overflowing....I am bucketing it to the vegie patch (that can always do with more!!!) feeding the lemon tree, pumping it on to the lawn and finally when I was wringing wet and the little cherub is still screaming me with tears in my eyes and heart had to let go of some of the water just down the drain....I am in awe at how much water we catch off the roof....Just a little example when we have 1.5mm rain we get about 200 odd ltres in the tank... This is quite amazing and such a waste for all the homes that dont have tanks.....This is what all homes need...(I know not a solution for all - but with the water crisis, maybe the government could be addressing this as a necessity in not just new homes but established homes too...)

Anyway I was stuck inside for about 2 hours with babies and vomit and crying and unable to move my partner when finally at 7am I check outside and lo and behold the tanks are full again....!!!! I have no idea what to do with the water and am at my wits end... Finally think I will have to throw a bucket of the precious stuff over partner (but that would make me cry too as I would have to clean it up...haha!) When he finally gets up to find out what the commotion is!!!

Anyway he goes outside and disconnects the down pipes to the tanks - Now Why did I not think of that and do it!!!!

Anyway all little cherubs are in bed and finally I hope will sleep and get better and let me sleep too, I have ordered dinner cause I just can not cook and am waiting for that to arrive so that I can I hope get some sleep.....

I hope we still get more Rain here in Melbourne and it falls in all the right catchment areas and that not too many people are or were as wet as me.....It is funny now that I look back at the night - a comedy of not water tight proportions.....But we got some RAIN...YEAH!!!!

I hope to catch up with my minti friends and their news in their blogs but I hope you can forgive me for not touching base because it will not be tonight I am too Tired......

One exhausted Spinnychic saying goodnight.....

He is an alcoholic and last night he came in and said to me that he thinks he needs to go to rehab....!!!!!

I was in total shock, this has been a long time coming and is definetly needed....I was so excited I wanted to jump up and down and go up on the roof and scream to the heavens...THANKYOU!!!!

But....

I do not know how to deal with this or what to expect or know that it is even going to happen....

He has told me before that he needs help and only after two counselling sessions and the answer not handed to him the counsellor was no good.....But I pushed for that and I admit maybe it wasn't right for him then. But now he is initiating it and says that something has to be done....A few months ago he told me he was sick of being an alco, but last night was the best news yet saying that he needs to go and detox properly.....

I do not know how to support him through this or wether he will become an angry person or what to expect....This is scary not just for him (cause I know he is petrified) but for me and for our kids....How do I tell them where daddy has gone...(I know it wont be forever but they love him so much....)

Arggggghhhhh to many questions and a racing head.....I hope this works.....

Bugger but Yeah!!!! we so need the rain....I only hope it lands in the catchment areas....

I think the whole weekend is going to be like this and I have to do so many things that would be fantastic to do outside...Like...

Make paper mache balloons  (13 of them - for our playgroup) so that we can decorate them into Santa claus money boxes...

Paint some polystirene balls to make into decorations for the kids to decorate at playgroup...

Do my washing and hopefully get it dry.....I am trying not to put the heater on, but it is really cold.....so may have to....

Clean the house....

How much will I get done???? I don't know but I will start and see, first though I have to put my fingers away and leave the minti site....

Move Me I say Move....

Hope everyone is having an ok weekend and if in Brisbane you are not suffering too much damage....If in Melb hope you are able to keep warm.....(I am sure though we are not as cold as other places in the world at the moment, but for here it is cold...)

STOP PROCRASTINATING ME!!!! lol.....

Cheers Spinnychic

I have been combating sleepless nights since my first little cherub was born almost 4 years ago...I have done sleep school, I have kept sleep (or sleepless) diaries... but most nights I only manage about 4 or 5 hours sleep and that is always brocken....This last week has started to get worse again and I am averaging about 2 hours solid sleep and then little 20 min cat nats (no power naps here...I do not feel powerful after a 20 min nap!!!!)

I do not know what is going on....Some nights my big cherub will wake screaming and it sounds like she is being murdered.........and then she keeps waking up but comes into me wanting to have 'snuggles' (sleep in our bed with me).....I take her back most times out of ten just the occaissional time I don't wake when she sneaks in and it isn't till some time later that I realise (I try to roll over and cant) that I take her back to bed....

Also while this is going on I have a 21 month old cherub who is teething so will also occaissionally wake up and cry out and a 7 month old who thankfully sleeps through most nights but does wake up sometimes for a extra feed (growth spurt times)...

My partner is useless at night times...He does not hear  the cherubs (and he also a drinker) so I do not seem to get a break from him either....

I am so so so very very tired....I want to sleep for a week, no a year, I am getting close to needing to hibernate and it is not making me a fun person....I am a grumpy yelly mummy and I don't like me but I also don't know how to change the sleeping problems and no one seems to either....including the so called professionals out there....I also end up with a grouchy little tantrum throwing cherub...( I have tried to cut out day naps and shorten them but I only end up with a more grouchy cherub and more awakes at night....) I thought sleep begot sleep...But not in my house.....

Today after a very tiring night I am not coping so well and I think it is also cause I know that I have to take my youngest to the hospital to have his helmet checked this afternoon and I need to drive there...That scares me, I don't like to drive far when I feel like this....

Anyway there is my whinge for the day....

I hope others have had a good nights sleep and there day is not filled with grumpy yelly mummy's..or grouchy little cherubs.....(yes she is tired too....)

 Have a good day

I must learn how to manage my time and get all that I need to get done...I am currently in the process of swapping around some rooms and trying to improve the home enviroment for all concernced...but I start and then get a bit overwhelmed and stop...Now I just have created a huge mess...I am procrastinating as we speak and spending my time on minti reading and writing so that I don't have to go and make another start....I just want to begin and keep going until it is finished, but will have to stop to change nappies feed cherubs...It just breaks up my concentration and enthusiasum for the job....

I'm just having a whinge and going blah....

How have others organised their time efficiently??? ..I struggle with the everyday things and always feel I am being pulled in a hundred different directions at once, and none of them are the ways that I want to go.... I would love some ideas that could help organise my time so that I can get the housework done, play with the cherubs and enjoy a bit of me time before having to think about partner time as well...

Some times it just seeems so monotonous and no relief or break...Yet at the end of the day it is my cherubs that make it all worth while...I just go to bed going tomorrow I will not yell I will not get upset when yet another mess is created....

Sorry this is all over the place and not really how I want it to come across, but it is how it came out so - it is what it is....

Enjoy your sunday and have a great day...

Spinnychic

Today my little cherubs are all over me....I have had 3 sick cherubs for about a week now...Only one of them has a full on cold, one more just keeps getting fevers and the littlest cherub has had fevers and a cough....Hmmmm....

I also have had a puppy with diarreoh(spelling??) and a dog with an infected leg.....

OMG!!! What is going on here????? The above picture explains exactly how I feel right now.....

I am trying to chase mice away from vegie patch...erggghhh...Little devils already ate all my seeds that I planted and now are trying to get my seedlings.....Also those little moth things that eat all the leaves....I want to harvest something from my garden, so am looking for natural sprays and things at the moment to rid me of these woes....

Oh well another day has begun and I need to get the 3 cherubs ready to go to the shops (oh the joy - sick kids and a shopping trip!!! - but it must be done...)

I hope everyone has a great day and weekend and the sun smiles for us all...

Cheers Spinnychic

Yeah!!!! Hubby is working an extra job tonight and I have 3 little cherubs with colds and fevers so they have all been panadoled and put to bed...I have done all I need to do...The dishes, the lunch, the tax....Oooopppppssss forgot the doggies....Better go and do that....

Ok back now....Got a phone call from a friend as well....What a lovely evening...Now some minti me time....

Been having a hard time lately and don't really know what to write...I don't want to burden people on here, but from reading articles and answers everyone seems so nice...It is also good to be able to go blah!!! get the day out and also get a response...Half the time I don't think hubby hears what I say to him...Or he does but doesn't take it in he is just happy to go yes dear...

Has anyone got any good ideas how I can somehow just leave a phamplet around for him to see in regards to his drinking???? I don't want it to be so obvious that I put it there, but I don't want him to miss it either...

My little cherubs are what is keeping me going at the moment....I love their little innocent souls but I must admit my 3 1/2 year olds why questions are getting annoying...I am so glad she is inquisitive but sometimes it would be nice to have her around and have some quiet too...

Enough blah for now...

I hope everyone is safe happy and well.

Cheers Spinnychic

I sat on minti and read heaps of advise and read the questions but could not respond to much,it was just too hard...I have been really short and snappy with my girls and that is so not fair...

I have set up to see a new councillor on Wednesday, that is freaking me out a bit, but it will be worth it to just get some things off my chest out of my mind and out in the open....I need to learn to do so many things as a person and as a mum...Sometimes I think it would have been better if I hadnt been a mum, but God I love my kids so much and am so thankful for them being in my life, cause I know I would not be here if they weren't...

Sorry this is a bit low and blah but I needed to just write it down....

Should I have put this in my "lounge' area???? I am not sure what the difference is???? Can anyone help me sort that out????

I hope everyone is having a great weekend...We have had good weather here in Melbourne today. So it was nice to get out in the sun for a bit and just feel its warmth....

Enjoy the rest of the weekend...

Spinnychic

Partner is in the shed again - pissed....Another Saturday night with the kids in bed and me on my own as he is out there drunk again....

He is such a hard worker and provides for us incredibly well just getting pissed every night is getting me down right now....

It is so hard to live with an alcoholic...He is not physically violent, just a drunk...Who manages some how to get up in the morning and go to work and do his job well ( I do not understand how - but he does...!)

He is on a binge at the moment and it is quite bad...

I feel so guilty for writing this - why???? Because know I feel sad....This is a way for me to feel and I don't feel good.....Sorry....Need to wit with this and think it through....

I am so thankful that everyday I get to see him and his big sisters smile and listen to them laugh...

We had a good weekend and I want to share some pics...

I love them all so much....

This is Jack in his walker enjoying his day!

This is Jezzie helping mumma's garden grow!!! She didn't pose this I just caught her doing it!!!!

This is Taleea, Something was Hilarious.....

I know it is mid week but it has taken me this long to take the pics from the camera to the computer and yadda yadda yadda to here...

I have to take my little cherub for injections tomorrow - hopefully he handles it well again...

Stay safe everyone and cherish those happy moments...I sure am........

I cant get Enough - of these Things TODAY!!!(these things do change quite often sometimes daily or even hourly, somedays within minutes...)

1. Choc Mud Tim Tam biscuits....MMMMM one is definetly not enough!!!(they are on special this week so I stocked up - BAD MOVE!!!)

2. Taking pics of my kids.... I always want more....If Dpartner would let me there would not be a space left on the walls...

3. Sleep - I want more and more and more.....Always!!!!

4. MINTI !!!! What is going on...Everytime I pass the computer I have to stop and check the activity on Minti.... I am not able to write any articles (even though I want to) because I am too busy reading everyone elses....hmmm I may have to limit my Minti Time - in two weeks I am becoming obsessed....

5. My partner...When he hasnt had too many beers or ciggies....(Alas today he is working)

6. My Cherubs....Except when I am trying to have some MInti me time (or me time in general.)(Thankfully right now they are all napping...YEAH!!!!!

Overall today is a good day - how about you what cant you get enough of today?????

Spinnychic

Anyway just now I was just saying get out of the FRIDGE!!!!

When she comes back to the lounge room with an apple in one hand and a strawberry in the other..And her little sis following with the same.....She gives me the cutest smile and the funniest little bum wiggle dance as if to say I'm too cute for you to tell me off...

And she was right....!!! How can you keep a straight face some times....I had to laugh and not deny her the fruit...

I used to write religiously as a way of getting over the day, but have not done that for so long...So much harder to find the time to sit with pen and paper to write, reflect and do some me time...But this computer thing is so much easier...Although I do find I need to do a few corrections as I type slower than I think...BUgger...

Anyway I hope I can just write and go blah here and know that it is safe but still out there...

I want to share me with my blog space and those that read it and share my trials and tribulations with me and my family and everyday life...

I tend to bable on so will let you know that now...Sometimes it takes awhile to get out what I really need to say...and babbling gets me to that point.

Will write more - I know....Yeah!!!  now it is snack time and banna, coconut choc chip homemade muffins are on the menu - hope they like them!!!