We needed bubble wrap....yes we did !  So we traveled across that crazy 401, pass the airport (sad place that airport, only happy when Janice appears!  Oh, and coming to think of it my daughter  weeeeheeee!  Only 22 days now! O.K. airport mostly good place! ) and up north quite a ways to a new industrial plaza.  We got our order and poor Hubby brought it over to the car.  Well.... huge it was and it would not go through the door, or even slightly into the trunk !   I hopped out ready to unroll the monster that looked like it was consuming my Hubby and pack the interior of the car with it.   We have done crazier things by far!   Like driving stupid car in that was smoking and giving me fears of being stranded yet again!  The shop owner was watching us and came over.  The merciful man offered to change our order to two smaller rolls.  Why, oh why did I not bring a camera???  This stunt of ours was way too funny to not be caught on film!   So laaa,laaa laaa, home we rode in smoking car with it packed to the rafters....laaaa,laa,laaaa!  You know,  you get to a point in your life when you figure you are mature.  Haaa,haaaa ...no!  Never! 

We have been so busy and I soooo loved it.  Daughter and sil with Lucas came to spend some time!  Them, the baby and all the gear!    I love having the house full!  Wasn't quite to capacity so we had a dinner!  That did it, house full!  Ahhhhhhhhh!

Funny how houses come alive with loved ones in it !  And babies and wee ones!  Heaven!   Lucas has changed so much.  The wee babe in pain and distress is gone and a happy relaxed delightful little lad is there!  He had a very tough start but his Mom is excellent!  She is a natural care giver, nuturer, calm, gentle!  She is a beautiful Mother.  Lucas at 5 months is a joy!  I held him for about 20 minutes one day, on my shoulder and looked out the slider.  As the house was busy and bustling we were quiet.  He listened as I told him of all the birds and i watched the big blue eyes take it all in.  He was so intent, our breathing matched and he was so peaceful.   We were peaceful.  We were enjoying that which is so very special, love.  Love flowed.  I always will look out for you wee dear one and you will always be tied to me.  Always.

The meal was huge and loud and crazy and we all laughed and caught up and ate!  I made this meal, basic with two large roasted chickens and gravy and vegetables.  However I did make a apple pie and big chocolate cake.  I wrote on the cake, Happy Day with Sean and Lucas!  And it was!  Crazy destruction from one end to the other but who cares?  We all were together and we all enjoyed ourselves.  I had the best week, I was gone from here and my dear friends and I felt the loss but I so wanted to cram every moment I could in with the kiddies.   I was asked if i would mind holding Lucas while this and that was done.  Mind????  Heavens!  Those beautiful eyes crinkled up while he smiled at me, that warm little wiggling ready to go body to entertain, that connection to him!!!  The wee hands grabbing and waiting to hold something interesting, those wee teeth that tried everything to see if it was biteable!   I had the best time.   Going back.  Back when you think you can't make it on so little sleep, when you think you can do any more but do! Those were wonderful times when you were so busy and needed.  They pass in a blink of an eye.  Doesn't seem it when you are struggling to get everything done but it does!  Passes way too quickly.  I even had a great time putting through all the extra laundry!   Wee baby things are so cute!  Still amazing that a small babe makes that much laundry!  Some things never change.

The low slung Honda roared up to the curb and I took note of it because of the noise in the quiet Sunday afternoon.  I looked up from my raking and thought that the car, obviously in mid restoration did not suit the driver.  The man pulled himself out of the vehicle as though it did not fit.  There beside the dark purple car stood a tall, heavy built,  black man.  Well, then I did look, how did he fit in that small car?  As my interest was forming the question a red suv pulled up behind.  It is at the base of the park across from us so i thought, gee it rarely sees new visitors.  So raking was boring and i needed a break.  And I was in mid inquisitive thought (prying?) when the lady stepped out of her vehicle.  Small, very petite,  blonde , almost white hair and well dressed.  The man was well dress but casual and he was handsome,  well groomed and very sure of himself I thought.  She seemed nervous and glanced at the man but did not actually acknowledge him.  They both walked up the hill into the park not looking at each other or talking.  Hummm thought the bored prying woman,  and returned to raking. 

A while later the man and woman walked down to the curb.  Gone was the yards between them when they walked up the park.  They stood together facing each other and he raised his hand and stroked her cheek.  She leaned into the touch and seemed calmed and relaxed by it.  She welcomed the touch but you could see he wanted to step closer to her but she glanced my way and stiffened.  He moved a wisp of hair from her face and turned to place himself down into the car.   Bored,  meddlesome woman kept raking.  She watched him turn the car around and go.  I wondered what she was thinking but almost afraid to be in the open she hurried to her car and turned and followed.

So i watched a small event, a drama and the questions of circumstance and why are still with me.  Unhappy married woman reaching out for company?  Married man playing about?  Love?  Infatuation?  Daring to do what they shouldn't be???  She seemed sad.   She seemed to send out vibes of sadness.  I over saw a part of two peoples lives and wonder and hope that no one is hurting.

However...  we went to Guelph to the university there.  It is a grand cluster of stone buildings that stood in the sun with the autumn tree colours sparkling  against their soft yellow taupe.  They date from the 18 hundreds and are just marvels in them selves  Being built so long ago they are spaced out in stunning fields of trees and open spaces from when settings were valued over the cost of space. . We entered the hall up great stone steps and I sat wondering at the heavy beams and railings all in deep darkened oak.  The windows of old, old glass sat several feet in the thick old walls.  I was so taken with the thought of what it took way back then to produce such beautiful buildings.  The piper brought the crowd to their feet and the procession of those beautiful young faces, working so hard for a better future passed by.

There in the first row was my son.  Tall at well over 6 feet, dark short hair and that sparkle in those dark brown eyes.  He has his fathers eyes and my Dad's handsome features but his heart is his own, full of valour.   There is a word you do not hear often.  But that suits my son.  He is honourable, actually honour first.  Funny as little kiddies that was my eldest's sons cry!  When playing you would hear," Honour above all! " and then the flurry of childhood activity!  My son never went to his high school grad, only high school Mom you kinda have to do that, no big deal.  He never went to his Bachelor grad... Mom, it is nothing.  But he was in heavy chemo and didn't really look like himself.  He also wouldn't go to his Masters ceremony because he thought others had accomplished more than him.   Well he was still in chemo and very ill so we didn't push. 

He married a wonderful girl and by geeesss she is powerful!  She is the one that calls me Mom and I love her to bits!  She said...oh boy you are going to this grad!  And what more??? You are going to let us take your picture!  Yah Sweety, you lay down the law! LOL!!! How can you not love this Girl????

So my beautiful son accepted his Doctorate.  He was presented by his professor and the vision is still with me.  My gentle, loving, beautiful baby, the one with the sparkling brown eyes that loved to get into everything and still has those lovely dimples when he smiles is now a Doctor of Science.  The actual title is very impressive, but guess who can't remember it all?  He showed us his labs and understanding what he is doing is rather mind boggling! Boggled this mind!  LOL!!!

So to you dear Son, I wish you the love that you give, the sun to shine on your health and that you receive back a fraction of what you give, then you will be so very happy, healthy and have a beautiful life.  Love you!

This boy, all of 25 years was out celebrating his sisters birthday.  He was reported to be a great guy, easy going, there if you needed him , just an all around nice guy.  He was beaten by 4 young men and then purposely run over to kill him.  The police feel he had slowed the 4 by crossing the street in front of their vehicle and they felt that they should beat him down and end his life.  Brutal, less than human in their act.  Police are looking for the suv they were driving.

My son had posted on his face book page and seeing he is very vocal in pointing out what he feels I left a note there,  Condolences for the family and how could these men live with themselves knowing they had done this terrible thing.  But just now my daughter reminded me, Chris,  ... Mom you remember him?  Oh my Lord, not that this should happen to anyone but he was my son's friend and still was, they hung about together.  Chris, the gentle, curly haired,  sweet boy?  His life ended in such a cruel way, so needlessly???  My heart goes out to his family, my heart is broken.

Well the nose had lost it's skin in a even strip down the side so I decided first aid was in order.   I used the paint on bandaid  that we had and it worked fairly well if dog did not lick it.  The big tongue flicked out over the nose and off came the skin. So I stayed up until the dare thing stayed and he had healed fairly well by the morning.  All that you could see of the wound was a slight line!  He was playing right after he did it and it didn't affect him or Hubby. Hubby thought I was too.... well too!  He always figures oh well with these types of things....men.

So yesterday all had recovered and I felt better knowing that he was mended. Until.  Until the evening.  Good Lord!   I was writing my daughter and the noise that started would have scared anyone.  The screaming, growling and banging!  I got up in terror and ran to the back!  Dog had opened the slider and attacked a huge raccoon.  I was terrified but not as terrified as the huge raccoon who was now in the pool!  Yup.  There he was, a huge, furious, scared raccoon flattened on the bubble blanket in the middle of the pool.

What to do?  Called dog and he of course ignored me, he was trying to figure out why his prey was floating out there.  He wasn't aggressive now, just interested in the whole scene. He had secured his food and that was that.   I stepped out to get him to have raccoon raise and hiss at me. He flattened down again as his action towards me started him sinking on the bubble blanket, he was smart enough to flatten himself out to stay afloat!  So....dog, raccoon and now what?   I step out and calm down,  I gently call dog and try moving towards the dog way around the side of the pool.  I am sure the whole neighbourhood heard me screaming when I was first on the scene.   The flying bodies and the thought of injury to the dog or raccoon was too much for me to remain calm.  But the calmness now seemed to be working.  I think the raccoon saw me as the only way out of his odd position.  So off around the pool and I kept talking to the raccoon and dog.  Got dog and he came in and we both watched the raccoon from the closed slider.  Poor thing gathered itself after a few moments and started to move towards the edge of the pool.   They are beautiful creatures and this big one, about 30 pounds I think, soaking wet, seemed fine.   He figured out to shimmy along flat and as he started to sink the blanket near the edge he was close enough to reach the deck.  I figure that basic raccoon training would probably not cover this situation that this guy found himself in so I was impressed with his learning curve, very smart!  But they are known to be clever, using their hands quite well to get into everything!  They have a bandit black face mask on the most beautiful grey fur, a rather slim muzzle and lots of sharp canine like teeth!  Bright brown eyes and a beautiful striped black and grey tail, big and fluffy when they are not wet!  They don't like to get wet although they often wash their food before eating it.  The hands and feet are black, beautiful, stunningly clever animals. 

I watched him get out and then checked the deck.  No signs of blood and he was walking off with no sign of injury.  I turned and looked at the dog, he was all spunky and happy .... with a strip missing off his nose.  Arrgggg, don't mess with raccoons!

Daughters are so special, a tie is there with your female child.  My boy are so loving and totally wonderful and I am so proud of the men they are specially by the way they treat the woman in their lives.  But daughters???  We share something by being woman together, something that is unspoken but draws them in tighter and closer.  I am proud that she has taken this step to better her life and I know it is so brave of her to move off to the unknown, just she left me.  Poor child is still without her things as the chosen moving company appears to be shady.  She needs her tons of books and her Master's work so I am hoping that works out soon, being without  bed, kitchen stuff and all furniture is a hardship but her work needs her books and papers.

I had been doing something I felt important to do when I missed the call.  My dear neighbour had his 88 th birthday.  I educated myself in what the heck celiac was and created brownies that fit that need for no gluten.  I made a huge balloon arrangement cause I figured his wife needed something she need not remember to water!!!   LOL!  Hubby thought the massive thing was silly, all covered in curled ribbon but I thought it joyous!!!!!   Bight, colourful, in need of no care!  Prefect!!!   I wrapped each brownie in a tinfoil cupcake sleeve and wrapped up each in film as he is so ill and frail and doesn't eat much anymore so I thought they could be frozen and keep better.  His wife answered the door and she was near tears.  Someone had remembered,  and we were invited in.  The house was so hot, good lord, thought I would die!  We chatted, after I loudly sang Happy Birthday, and visited.  Now, he is deaf and I thought my voice full force could cause damage but they were delighted!  Haaaa,haaaa, have to be deaf to appreciate my voice on full throttle!  He ate!  He loved the brownies, and I was glad that I had chosen something that went over.  He had two!  More than he had eaten in the past couple of days.

I am just so sad.  Janice leaving, my daughter leaving, I know I will adjust and I know I would never hold on too tight.  They have to have their lives and I am so blessed.  I had the delight of Janice here for a month even if it was just a mere blink of how long she should be with me,  and I have had my daughter around for all of her life except these past three weeks.  I ask for too much cause I miss them so much. 

Here is my part of the story that I can tell.

Hubby said his brother was coming and he would pick him up at the airport.  O.K..  But!  Why was he not ranting?  His brother is just a wee tad annoying.  Usually he causes rants.  Well fine, I thought, maturity at last I thought.  So off to the airport bright and early. He left around 4:30 a.m..  The cell had been acting up and Hubby had spent the better part of the previous day on the phone to get it sorted out.  His brother was a big boy, why all the worry about contacting him?  Well for once Hubby was taking care of his brother, god knows his brother needs extra care!  Good I thought!  Brotherly love, hooray!!!  Then I thought is his brother well?  Was there something I didn't know?  Nah, Hubby would have talked about that! 

So we were in mid party planning, we were throwing a party to introduce the Grandkiddies to friends and family!  I thought this was a great idea!  Didn't have to invite the brother as he would be here.  We had just found out that my daughter had received a job offer.  My daughter, sil and baby Lucas were coming in to spend a week!  Lots was going on so I figured Hubby's brother could just join in.

I heard the car pull in and I took dog outside and came back to go open the door.  I saw Hubby lifting a large black case and he smiled at me, good I thought, brother had not annoyed him totally yet!   Then I thought I saw a blonde head!  Hubby lowered the case to the ground and there was Janice!  I could not believe my eyes.  I flew out the door and hugged her.  I just could not believe that she was real!  I was so, so, excited and thought where is Steve?  Is everything alright?  How on earth are you really here?  Just wow this is the best ever!  Just to hug her !  And then to find we had a month.  Flying so high, so emotional and so in the best shock ever.

I will forever see that beautiful face.  When Hubby lowered the luggage and there she was. My special Nature Buddy you are gone.  I am trying to adjust.  But we are forever together.  Avro spent the night on the rug between your bed and the computer.  I am trying to give him extra attention but we both know it's not the same.  Hubby misses you but I am trying very hard to be positive.  Still think I was way good enough to go to the airport!   Love you!

But Janice and I have had together time, coffee chats, made the odd drink for ourselves... LOL!!  Hubby is feeding us well and I am so looking forward to the cottage.  Hubby and son were there and got pictures of deers grazing near the bunkie.  There are tons of chipmunks up there but they seem different than the ones at the nature reserve we went to.  The ones up there crash through the under bush, you except an animal of at least 50 pounds to exit but instead there are these wee adorable chipmunks!  The ones up north have attitude!  The ones at the nature reserve sat at our feet looking for goodies we did not have!  I have solved that with the purchase of  rather expensive dried peanuts... all natural???  Can not stand the idea of giving chipmunks preservatives!  So we will have the goods to lure the chipmunks, seems personality is not enough!  So Steve, get ready for your new guests should Janice decide to return! 

We will leave this sad thought and look at the positive!!  I love having Janice here!   I suppose admitting she is here in print is all dear Steve needs to harass us into returning her.  Geeesss, fend for yourself man! 

Janice and I are comfortable!   I think we both just enjoy being..  but together!  LOL!  We have done some nature walks, so near and dear to our hearts,  but mostly we are together and that seems so very right.   She is the best house guest ever, that's because she is our close family.  She even went through the crazy party,  about 40 people that lasted all day,  Suffered through time shifting from Oz to here!  A trip I can't even imagine that she tackled all on her own!   She actually had no trouble with the beast...no,  not Steve he is at home!  The dog  Avro that yes Mary, does exist!   She was displaced from her big room to give way to DD, sil and Lucas,  and has tried to help with the cell phone issue (an  uninteresting crazy story that caused trouble with her getting here!), and the news of the household that my daughter is moving.  Within the short time she has been here it has managed to be busy, crazy and I am wondering how my DD will do.  She has in a week found a place to rent in Alberta, several provinces over, packed and arranged movers and made plans that we have been part of.  Ahhhhh.. so Steve, you do see,  Janice is settling in and getting those morning hugs  (well and evening , and in between ) mean everything!  So again I ask you... what Janice????

Janice and Avro... comfy and at home!

This is great!  The emotions are so wild!  The shock was... well what can I say???  Can not believe it!  I have the best surprise ever!   Thank you to all those I bugged.  Jess, sorry, I knew you knew!  LOL!!!   Janice for blocking so well when I tried bugging her. I truly know what a pest I can be!   To my Hubby for not bring home his brother from the airport!  And I even hear my east coast Buddy kept quiet too!  What a grand conspiracy!

Great, great and great!  Throwing in a wonderful too!  So, so exciting!!!   And Steve, Daniel thinks if we throw in a tractor it's a done deal. It is so wonderful, I am flying high!  Oh yes, Avro has his Buddy back!

Home late and then dress issue!  The dress!  Well having spent one whole day designing and cutting I had to wait for first fitting... the bride was getting anxious that there would be no bridesmaid dress... ppphhhhhhh, of course there would!  Well I knew by looking that the bodice was too long so that had to be changed and I added a wee bit extra sytling and spent an other day at it.  Thankfully finished it before the wedding!   It was a hit so that was good!

We had surprises left and right that made this week so very busy and wonderful!  While with Sean we saw a glorious hawk circling the field next to them looking probably for the bunny we had seen earlier!  A huge reddish brown bird !  Thing is at the high level they are at we were at the same height as it and out the full wall of windows it was a remarkable sight!  Soaring and catching the winds, you could see the feathers curl on it's wing tips!  Awesome!

All the kiddies came in at one time or an other to spend some time and share a supper so that was delightful.  We had to run up to the cottage for my son so dil and Sean came in to spend a day.  It was just so nice!  All the meals and chat and company!!!  Loved all of it too!

Even thought the work at the cottage was tough an amazing thing happened!  On the way out I spotted a deer on the cottage road, just a wee way away from the garage.  She looked and stepped off of the road and I full expected to see the tail flick up and show the white as she bounded away... but she didn't. Hubby stopped the car and there she stood, about a yard or two away.  Beautiful animal, a female quiet large and so healthy looking!   The big dark eyes looked straight at us and I had the window all the way down... I had to speak to her.  She listened!!!  I watched the ears turn and saw her twitch as she listened.  Human voice and humans with their blasted autos, I do wonder what she was thinking!   That is a sight that will stay in my mind! 

And we have had Lucas here for three days.  His beautiful parents have been sharing their little miracle with us and geees it has been so wonderful.  So, so wonderful !!!  He is coming along and at two months already prefers Dad and Mom!  But Grandpaw and Grandma have gotten in their special cuddle time!  We had a violent storm, really wild and it blew belting rain in all the windows at once!  It kept up all night with the humidity and heat being off the charts, made the wee guy very uncomfortable! 

They are gone now.  The house was very, very happy with all the people and all the comings and goings and now it just is so quiet, so empty.  Daughter gave me a treat for the dress making that rather upset me.  I just wanted to do it, no thanks needed.  Just allow me to do a little thing for my daughter.  I will remember my animal moments, very special to me!  I will remember Sean's delight in the freedom of his wagon ride and the hugs I stole!!  Lucas' smile that he gives only if he is so moved and the love he has from his Dad and Mom...very overwhelming to see them with their little one.  My beautiful dil as she prepares for her next step and she is so unsure.  She will be brilliant, I know it.  My dear Jake as at one of the meals he unwrapped our gift to him to celebrate his Phd!  I love you special boy and I admire you.  My beautiful daughter as she supported her friend with all she had through this wedding, her heart still mending from the guy who was so not who she thought he was.  My son as he seperates to travel from Sean.  Though, so hard on my son but has to be done for work. Life wizzes by.  Life is bitter and sweet and just is.  Take what you can from each day cause they are so special and they all add up to your life!  And to that sweet lady I meet in the play ground, I was very moved that you waved goodbye as we left late that evening.  I waved back amazed at what connections can occur when you least expect it! 

I am to be making a bridesmaid dress... arggggggg!  Fine, got sucked in to offering and then found I had no desire to accomplish it. Bad me. Stalled tons, procrastinated even more and then the day before she was coming for the fitting of the non existent dress,  got to it!  I desided she needed something classy, it had to be navy and I need to finish the sleeves, set the zipper and hem it!   But today we go in really early to look after Sean for the day!  Weeeeheeeee!  Fun!  I hope so! The little guy was here for the dinner that ended up being in the weekend with half the clan and he had a ton of fun in the wagon we got for the Grandkiddies for here.  Isn't that neat???  Grandkiddies!!!!  So we thought we'd take that in with us... now to go buy gas....arggggg!  Why the heck is everything so expensive?

Happy August to all!  May it be a month of welcomed surprises and joy!  I hope you stop each and every day to wonder at something in this big wonder filled world!  I truly hope you hug someone you love each and every day!  I hope you find at least one unknown person to pass a smile to and I hope you voice a hello to several people who will be delighted you noticed them. This world wizzes by us and the true blessings are small and close and yet we pass them and sometimes do not notice.  Notice all around you, you'll be surprised at what you find. Life can be harsh, it is to many.  That harshness can harden you or you can deside what you want in your life.  That person that is uncaring and rude can only bother you if you choose to allow that in your life.  Allow what you want into your world for your world matters and is a special and treasured place.  Fill it with what you value and see what returns you receive. I have been through much in this life.  Not easy to see the light at times.  It really can wear on you   but !  Vibes are so wonderful to pass on, wishing the best and wanting the best for those that matter to you is a great start to positively vibe your existence.  Allow life to be an adventure each day and treasure the sparks of life that you capture. Special little moments make the days, weeks, months turn to years that you would not trade for any thing!  Best wishes and vibes to all that read this. Let me know what you truly feel.

Lucas had a rough time and all the positive vibes that were sent to him truly I am so greatful for.  Jake went through such a rough time and wonderful souls embraced him and I am forever thankful for those vibes too!  I have had times when it was doubtful that I would make it and again caring worked wonders. Know that there are people that do care and that your vibes added to many others make a difference in this often harsh world. 

This little guy is on the road to being healthy and happy and he has already stolen my heart.  I am so blessed to have my two Grandsons.  He is thinking  Grandma, who is Grandma?  Ahhh, think she is a soft touch, I can have her wrapped around my finger in no time!  Really!  I think that was what he was thinking when he was sizing me up! LOL!!!  I love you little guy, you will be two months on the 4th.  It was so good to hold you and see that little spark of life in you!  You are true blessing!  I am hopelessly smitten yet again...geeees this is wonderful!

I am travelling today!  Lucas is seven weeks and we will see him today!!!! Woooooooooeeeeeee!   But!!!  It gets even better!  We are going with Sean and his Mommy!  Yes!  A two for one!  Haaa,haaaa!  Long trip though. Three and a half hours but well worth it and today just might be without rain!  That would be lovely.  I see sun so it is hopeful.  We go across Toronto and pick them up and go on into London. 

I have been working outside alot.  I love it outside of walls.  The work it tough though cause I have started cutting the blasted hedge.   Just barely started and wish I was finished ! Well everything was wet but that was the only choice, wet or not do it.  So I have started at least. Start filled four huge containers and that only touched the one end.... oh beautiful hedge... if you did not give homes to so many lovely critters and birds you would be a fence.

So, I hope everyone finds at least one positive thing today, start there and keep counting cause you'd be surprised how many true blessings are so close at hand!

P.S.  can you add P.S.'s to the end of blogs???   Why not !!!!!  Cottage news... there was a cougar spotted at my son's cottage!  The large cat took down a deer.  Horrid, I know but nature.  I have not seen this animal but I hope I can.  I thought there was one around early last year but found no evidence through the fall.  I now have a mission!  That would be great to find it !

Well, the deed is done!  Avro consented to a bath and now he smells of green apples. Janice was upset at the use of strawberry on a male dog so what the heck... maybe it did affect him... so anything to keep him happy!  The dirty, stinky mutt is now all fluffy and clean and actually quite proud of himself!  He is prancing about with red ball in his choppers... so, .. happy dog!  Red ball went missing for ages and that is the only thing that Avro has not chewed to little bits.  However... why is there always however?????   The house is covered in fluff balls, looks like some odd  invasion of an other life force.  There are black and redish tan ones, all blowing about!  Honestly i think it was worth the price of fluff balls to de-stink mutt!

Some times that pride takes the wrong turn in pushing too hard or wanting them to rise over others.  Some time that pride in seeing your offspring turn into a teen becomes a nightmare.  Some times that pride turns to fear that you are going to lose them.  Our story I wrote here a time ago. Our story of getting to the point where you thought life was in a pattern and you had done your job and they were on their way.  No Mother's job is complete until you see your child out, independent,  tackling life and happy.  They leave your care and home and enter the world to fly on their own.  Our son had done that.  Without any horrors in the teen years, without any trouble he had made his way to living away and working and attending university.  He had his own place, had just bought his first new car and was just starting to see the girl he had always loved.

Then we got the news through a series of events that he had four cancers all in stage four.  That part of our lives was hard. But he was spetacular!   He did all he had to and after a long battle during which he went through every kind of hell he came out in the end to continue his life.  He did remarkable things that boy.  First he never felt sorry for himslef, never once said why me.  I thought that alone remarkable !  He continues to give and do for others.  He worked when he could to finace his schooling and continued with that as well as mentoring others.

SO !!!!!!!!!!   It is with remarkable pride in who he is that I here announce that my little boy, the one that had the endless critters,well he and all the other kiddies, the one that had endless fish tanks, endless energy and the biggest beautiful brown eyes (like his Daddy!) is now Doctor Jacob . Jake attained his P.H.D. and his work is ground breaking and will allow other scientists to build on his work.  This we get from his beautiful wife (yes, his Sweetheart ! ) cause all he has said was      yah, I got through.  Thank heavens for his wife that gave us some details.  So Doctor Jake, here is to you my once little Sweety, I love you, I honour you and what you have accomplished and I wish for you the best in life.  You fought so very hard for that life and you remained a wonderful person through it all.  Your gentle nature and wonderful out look on life will carry you far but best of all I know you will give to others through all those travels.  You make me so proud to know you.