MINTI

I've found you once again.

So much has happened in the years that I haven't logged on. I can't believe my profile is still here.

Alina is now 5 and at school.

Marisa is now 3 and doing really well also.

Hope I hear from my old minti pals and meet some new ones!

Great to be back

xx

Im having one of those slow mornings that I just cant kick start my engine. Ive cleaned the basics but the kids are so demanding today. Marisa got her first toothy peg on tuesday - *sob sob* she is growing up too fast - climbing up my leg as we speak - running away from her pestering toddler sister.

Alina has just realised she is strong enough to pick up her baby sister  - carry her around the room - tight as tight can be. Poor Marisa. :) The bad thing is - on tuesday - eventful day this tuesday was - anyway Alina picked up Marisa and dropped her face down on the ceramic tiled floor - The first time I have seen blood come out of either one of my daughters - man did I shriek! was totally not prepared for that one!

So Alina has been firmly instructed that she is not to pick up her sister anymore - only when mummy is there. Very difficult to take this away from her - but it has to be said! And it wasnt deliberate - but all the same someone got hurt.

I really have to finish this blog and get myself a coffee

P.s - how expensive are driving lessons - at the rate they cost - I'll never learn to drive! :(

cau my minti pals!

XXX

Have a great day! Feel free to hang out in my lounge! I have an invisible coffee machine - endless amounts of cream doughnuts and lucious sandwichs! Eat the phili and crackers - ive left them on the coffee table - eat them b4 the cheese melts in the heat we are meant to expect today! :)

Have an awesome day friends!

Marisa is yet again - shpwing her determination to get around - she has started this week using anything she can to stand up - whether it be the legs of the high chair, the telly unit, my leg whilst standing - sooooo cute - cos she is still so little - she is only seven months - it just amazes me how determined she is to get up and running - this girl is in a rush to live - the race is on she says! ;)

Alina has been busy today - she loves her structured playtime - loves it when mummy gets involved. Our latest activity that she just loves is mummy drawing funny shapes like mr squiggle - i have to put the pen/pencil/texture whatever she gives me, put the end in my mouth, close my eyes and draw whatever picture she says - very tricky - you cant use your hands at all. She cracks up in hysterics!! Im not the best artist using the hand I use most let alone closing my eyes and directing the pen with my mouth. Why dont you give it a go!!!

Ive started talking to some people online through a dating website! Call me desperate! LOL No ... really it really is a great way to have good conversation. I think I have much better chance of meeting someone online then in the real everyday life - how many people at the mall do you actually strike up a conversation - not incl. anyone you know!! At least online I can sort out who i like and who i dont - the ones i dont - i dont have to talk to them. I dont give out any personal imformation (ie. address, phone numbers ect!) there are hardly any distractions - at night time I usually chat when kids are in bed. So its just one on one with the person you are talking to. I would encourage online dating - i think it is much safer and you really get to know someone - and get to share opinions! Big thumbs up from me - im having lots of "safe" fun with it! 

ONE BEHALF OF MYSELF, IM SURE 'MINTI' AND THE DATING WEBSITE I USE - I WOULD LIKE TO THANK THIS MAN - Tim Berners-Lee, the man who founded the conceptual basis of the Internet back in 1990!

 YOU ARE AN ALMIGHTY LEGEND!!! THANKYOU!!!

Breaking up is hard to do - especially where children are involved. However I was in a abusive relationship that was just so draining so I think it ends up being harder to stay.

My mum suffered the same torment in her reltionship with my dad - my dad is an alcoholic - as far as I remember he always has been and always will be. My mum and dad are still together - after 26 years or marriage ... actually abuse .. she is still there.

So when history started to repeat itself - I put a fast halt on it! I left! I gave my partner plenty of chances before and even after I initially left him. I suffered as a child watching my mum helplessly be tormented by my dad on his drunken escapades - but I am not about to let that happen to my children. I am their mother and it is my sole responsibility to protect them, above all else - even above the partner I had loved and who played a huge part on creating these lives with me.

So today ... 1 year later .. we are fine happy and content! I have done what many people struggle to do in the life of their helpless marriage. Call me strong - call me brave - call me whatever you will ... But I call myself smart - smart to see the signs that could enivetably harm my daughters future - in not only their sense of security in a happy home but also their personal values that they take on by our examples.  What they have learnt - although to young to now understand - but what they will understand later on in life - is that their mummy loved their daddy very much - but he was hurting mummy so she had to take her babies (even all by herself)  and start again. They will learn a big lesson for later in their own relationships  - that they dont deserve to be treated badly and abused!

Although he did not physically hurt me - Verbal hits are as hurtful as the ones that slap the skin - they start to break the heart until it can't be repaired anymore.

Thank the heavens above for guiding me and for taking good care of myself and my two wonderful angellic little souls!